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addie(:
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okay thank you all for thy wonderful presents! even though today was my fault that i was late. come on a girl got to finish up her homework and i havent get started on F1 project!

going to the post and get my item from Jami, hopefully its from her! chat with Jordyn in class today. so awesome that its summer and she got to stay up late and i get to chat with her in class as the teacher going through tips for exam next friday. oh right like her tips going to help. all she did was, read from your notes. read from your notes!! however talking with Jordyn didnt went well, she got disconnected like countless of times and i just wonder what on earth happen.

so time for plan!

i need to make a date with R, my cousins(both distant and local) she is leaving soon and he supposes to make a date, but its just hanging there.

and the usual homework, study and exam!

and i am looking forward for my trips! planing a short getaway to Christmas island before the gang leaves and also koera! hell yeah i got confirm... back to zurich, SA. hope to visit Jami like real soon. I am starting to miss them alot! some what the F1 project though it had nothing to do with VIP party, with drunk rich crazy ass people screaming at the back of your head, but thats was the first time i enjoy being with the whole family! she is a wonderful person! okay. ah, spring break with J to either swiss or US! plan this plan that. all plans expect studying! like i have lost all interest in it.

anyway, dont ask me what happen, this is what i am going to do, base on whats that is left, i am going to make magic happen!

come and think of it. this year is a real deal. traveling around, meeting so many new friends, forgetting what had happen! getting to know more about myself and those kinda friend that i should be hanging with.

they say, you cant change if you are still with the same group of friends.

anyway, its going to the end of july, a fresh start of aug and maybe a trip or two down the memory lane. i should be back on track...

till then
xoxo
-addie(:

oh before i forget... thanks love! :D

flashes. those thing that flash pass you.

i seriously wanna go total metal soon. and i cant wait to start learning guitar again. yeah i am not going to learn a level and give up. finally took out my old dusty guitar played a few notes. dude, i am going to trade for a electrical guitar. i just wanna do something rock and roll! minus the screaming and shouting! heavy heavy metal.

talking about court, damn the case is settle. not going to press charges. I am so looking forward for court hearing. however it was paid off. rushing off after my marketing paper which i dont regret not taking marketing or accounting like the rest of my classmate from secondary school. thank god! i have no interest in marketing! wonder how did i pull through my years in POA, but it was so easy back then! hmm... wait, its 2 different things!

anyway, A13 is leaving on tour! damn you people who dont have to study and peruse your interest. yes i know i miss my chance! shut up i dont want to hear about it. anyway, have fun. buy me snow globe from places you go! you know how much i love snow globe! :)

till then
xoxo
addie(:

why do i have this feeling that 4 years later? it will be just you and me back in the empty room, looking at each other and filling our minds with memories?

till then is what i am going to say for all you readers who read my blog. no, i am not going to shut it down 'cause i dont feel like it. but i will be posting updates on A13 even though it has no relation at all.

I had it enough with some people who have this constant needs of knowing. i know, curiosity kills the cat but that cat obviously has 9 lives! i had it with it. i am so eff up with this kinda person. if you were meant to know, you will know. stop asking or fishing from me. just like today when that stupid woman has to know every single thing about me. HELLO, let me ask you, do you see me questioning you? no you dont! i am just being nice 'cause you are someone's date which i think that someone should have a change of degree! damn, and where did i get my flu from? oh come on, seriously? you gotta ask? let me tell you, from your freaking constant asking! get a life you moron! if you can sense that i am looking away, coughing even though i am not coughing, rolling my eyes over like a zillion times and sighing non stop dont give it away... how about me at the end telling you, i dont have to tell you everything, 'cause at the end of the day, we both know we aint seeing each other much after this on going event ends. for the love of god! leave me alone and stop trying to know me! 'cause i am not like you, i dont have to tell you how many skeletons are there in my closet! and i dont have to report to you!

just tell me i am wrong... that telling people things are good even though its non of their freaking business. tell me that i am wrong that there will be always something you dont tell someone. just tell me that i am wrong that i dont find the need to talk to you. & why do i have to let you into my life and that my friend, was a terrible mistake!

okay enough with this kind of people. and of course there are those that keep guessing and getting no where. enough already. just tell me J, which freaking part did i move wrong? was it the knight? or the bishop? just check mate me already so we can get on with it! URGH!! ohh...was it the part when i said tell J that the bitch is back?

FYI, our fate as friends had already ended.

so anyway, back to the part where i said i wanna update on the other blog, i had someone read my blog that i wish i had not told about. what was i thinking? stupid flu meds! damn the label was right. "it may cause drowsiness" you should put it on the back, also it may make you do some weird actions like telling someone your blog link even though you dont meant it! god damn it addie, seriously what were you thinking?

so i got suggestion like lock the blog, move the address, but i am going to leave it un-update for a while and who knows, maybe after 2 years, i will create a brand new one. and this will be gone. i started this blog when i am sick and bored at home 3 years ago. so now i will let this active blog die a little and come back again when i know that someone is not reading.

i am sorry, if you were meant to know, you will know. the world is simple and understandable to you, that 'cause you havent step out of your well and look at the world from my eyes. if you step on this line again. i will make sure, you will know the meaning of UP YOURS.

till then
xoxo
addie(:

PS: you were not meant to be.

post 333... half devil eh...

anyway, i been ill this couple of days so i missed out plenty of social events :( but i did caught up on my sleep! i so dont feel like going for that 100mins later.. kinda feel like sleeping.

bright eyes people, i finally understand the true meaning of colours. But somewhat i been fooled over and over again. seriously, my words are harsh but they are the truth.

i shall not blog further 'cause i dont find the use of updating my feelings now.

maybe i should get a twitter account eh?

till then
xoxo
addie(:

mood shows, point taken.

reason that i have been cold these few days are....

I AM EFFING IN LOVE WITH ROCK N ROLL... okay not that bad. but slightly a bit in love with them. okay. got to stop listening to them so i be back to normal!

any who... oh well

time to play different cards now, shall we?

till then
xoxo
addie(:

PS: enough of the ripping you little bitch! quotes are fine but not ripping and crediting under you. & thats the reason why i stop posting short stories online. D:

i have a little tiny mental problem today!

I have no idea what kick start this whole crazy shit in me. Guess i am so happy that almost everything is going my way. finally eh! With the new draft, more time for me to enjoy my life with my school work. and yes, i took some time off from A13. of course not forgetting writing my short stories and music. things that i truly love... Let's just say stories are going well, but for music, i think i need to hire someone to write the notes while i write the words.

anyway, i am finally sitting my ass down to do some crapy national education, while in the mist of blogging! anyway, you are asking a weird minded girl to write what makes country, country-ish? come on. seriously if i were to write my personal opinions, i am in major trouble. I mean i travel and i learn from different parts of the world. you learn, you grow, you fall in love with the good and change the bad. if you really wanna me to write, lets just say, i do really want to pass this darn module. i love the country i am from, but i hate it at the same time. however, i cant say its a love-hate relationship. Thats me and .....(till i find that person!)

so i have a little too many people reading my blog! ZAZ is one of them. and well the next name i am going to put its kinda wrong, ah! riseman! hahah or is that what it is. getting names from email account is a good idea. anyway so hello miss zaz! thanks for stalking me! hahaha but dont just read the first line! hahah so, you getting to know a little more about me eh... hahah..

okay going back to me and my dream *praying* cute guys! so they say swiss guys are lovers and the girls are hard to be chat on. hmm lets just see. there are so many article out there, just a little exercise and google them! those 2 person founded google, so use them people! dont be lazy, come on.

so lets see, i want my bloodline to be even more mixed. and i have the war to thank too. oh well, i missed all the tales that day, so i need to ask them to repeat the stories even they are so called "we-dont-mention-about-it"hey! its really runs in the family, just ask my dear cousin who almost burnt his hair!

& whats wrong with me? i am falling in love with british accent! save me!! i do love all accent but my top is/was scottish but now! & i thought my life of watching E4 non-stop had come to an end for now. no more harry hill and blah and things like that. now i am listening to UK hits, shows, movies and picking their accent. OH MY GOSH! i am in the queen zone... but you cant have 2 queens under one roof. they are great, its at least better picking up their accent over some others yeah? or not? anyway, i have my own little accent! :)

gosh! i think my rock and roll is getting a little too F-ish, please dont let me pick those word up.

yeah or nay on national education, truth or the truth chose to hear? truth always hurt and i shall go with the truth chose to hear. come on, i am in enough trouble for this semester.

to thank for: love ya bitches! :D

till then
xoxo
addie(:

i had it with people who rip from my blog and put them into their own words and said they said it! WTF!!! i mean hello, i think i should go get a copyright for my words. i know i may create words in the mist of the air and i really dont like people to use them. call me selfish, call me whatever ya wanna call me. I just dont like it.

Finally finished tons of reports but i am still running out of my freaking time! exams are so close and sep 16 is reaching! i hope its on sep 16. pray pray pray let me do it once and get over with! damn i havent get my cert from drama. should call them asap.. this year, one thing off my mind was sep drama exam! hello, kiss my freaking ass! you bitches said i cant do you, take your words back ASS! ya queen is always queen! :P

okay i am in a rock and roll mode now. today was the most boring day ever! i mean i dont even have to freaking attend! the only fun part was the part where i get to go home! wasted. however, i manage to finish one of my report in the waiting and wasting day!

i missed all my ever life of wasting.

i am totally into rock now. no idea why, but hello, who wanna create a band with me? okay i wanna go metal now! maybe i am in my rebel mode now, and all my rock got to do with almost every feeling you can swing within a cycle. Am not talking about PMS cycle! godness! just swing cycle.

i should start writing short stories again yeah? i mean i think i should but only after sep 16 & when school holidays finally kicks in.

i am getting old! my birthday is reaching. and i swear the whole A13 is so darn far away! :( crap shit i wanna go back! i dont do skype for birthday! :(

anyway, i think i am going to turn in now. since i am so space away...

anyway......

had dinner with R on friday, in town near where grand's old house was. i really miss there, the hill, the running around, the everything. everything seems to fall after they moved away from there. you went to a better place and i miss you. i really do. i saw your photo today and boy i thought how unfair it was to let you go at such a young age, you have no idea how being a teenager is. remember, when we used to play family? when you drag every single one of us into the room. remember, when you asked my mum where i was when i was in dance class? remember at the very end, you always look for me, even though we dont talk the same topic? Remember how you told everyone that if i dont go, you wont go? and you try you very best to be with me, the first and last photo we ever had as a group? i really miss you. if you are still around, i wont be so freaking lonely at all the gathering. i really miss you, i remember the first moment i heard the bad story, i coped myself up, cause i know, its over, it good that you went away. but i miss you. lets see, now you would be telling me stories about chasing skirt and be with me at all gathering, i cant look at your brother without thinking about you. you was the closest one. and i felt bad to not send you off, cause i had drama exam? but you blessed me through my entire exam! new year was different without you playing 21 with me. & grand, that old house was where you used to give me $ and scolded EH for taking them from me. and you give me coins to gamble.

ah crap, no tears addie!

till then
xoxo
addie

to all great music artist out there, oh yeah baby!

i had a taste of music and i am wanting it more. I am so going to hold on to that dream and i will have a stage of my own with my own band and rocking my way through!

Thanks for the lovely dream and i finally found my strength to carry on. :)


we can not wait forever, cause forever wont be here. it will be here. I believe it will be. my hopes, my string. I am holding on. Thats my string, I am HOLDING ON TO IT!

xoxo
addie(:

a note to self:

do you remember that year when you were told you wont going to make it? then you prove to every single one of them you can. and you got the best? do you remember? and you found your stand and stood in it till the very end, despite all the odds?

my answer, yes. i love that moment.

Which part of my plan I went wrong? S was right, I need a new contract, or i can do what H does, concentrate on studies first. But i have the taste of freedom, why do i want to go back?

decision decision....

A13 was awesome, price to pay, my results

P&C results wasnt my best effort, but i gain both A13 and result.

so addie, make up your mind! decision, decision.

if only almost perfect was simply perfect.

now is the time to change my contract, i think. A13, you guys are my love so what should i do?

xoxo
addie(:

if i have the same strength that move me through courses of A13 on studies, that wont be my first yet last...

ideas, everywhere. things of one thoughts.

i wanna have bbq again. its like having bbq, you know your food going to be cook. sometimes you get burnt, but soon, soon your food will be cook and you get to eat them. you sweat due to heat and your face turns red, but you know you will get your food.

think about it. or i might be blahing cause i think i am a little hangover. someone once told me that no matter how hard you try, you wont get there, its how heart you try, you will get there. the heart and mind have to be one. and you will be there.

my life is like a stock market. it rise then fall then rise again. so now i am climbing, moving up. i will do whatever it takes to be on the spotlight of gory!

till then, i shall enjoy my moments of watching the world cup! i heart germany! :D KLOSE rule! whatever, everyone in the team rule! :D

happy 4th july to my american friends! :D i wish i can be there to view the fireworks or have a blast with you guys!

xoxo
addie(:

okay, movie review time! not much that i would really say about if it good or not.


twilight saga : eclipse.

as compare to the previous twilight saga : new moon, this show isnt draggy at all. not as draggy as new moon but its less draggy, still draggy though. this show is all about bella, edward, jacob. *duh*

so i would give a 10/10 for jacob taking off his shirt almost 90% of the movie! hotness! somewhat i love his butt! and its such a pun in the movie when jacob said "i am much hotter compare to you*" to edward.

*or somewhat that.

such a pun!! talyor is so much hotter than rob, i mean rob, are you on drug or what? you look like a drug vampire! oh my god. talking about the opening scene when they close up on rob's teeth? i dont know he smokes but by looking at his teeth, he does. major eww on the teeth... so it was confirm by my friend that rob does smoke, oh well...

back to the whole thing, finally nice to see the whole fighting scene, i wish there are more. so much more! more more more more more! really awesome with the werewolf. but there was a part when riley was drag by one of the werewolf, his eyes gave it away that he was acting with a machine or so. his actions and all. but overall, the animal werewolves are cute!!!

jessica's speech on high school graduation was something i like. :)


okay i must say the opening scene dont seems to start like the previous 2. its more like a horror movie opening or something. thats nice, its really a great dark opening!and its nice, the whole day until i saw rob's teeth, sorry but yeah.

Knight and day:

okay when i watch this show, i felt old. really old. seeing the 2 main roles, i felt so old, they look so old in the show! i watch their show growing up and gosh they look so old and i felt so old.

anyway, movie was really funny! very funny! and its more action as compare to twilight. i like the setting they chose, everything is really nice and funny. plots are unique with twits along the way.

its like a 007 and mission impossible mix. not that bad. kinda good actually.



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anyway, who am i to judge? those are base on my opinions, i do enjoy watching those 2 movies and all. you would have to watch to judge. :) i am no movie critic & writing those 2 for a dear friend. :) so i dont know whats the format of writing them or what so ever. just a simple short update for someone i love and hate at the same time. for you H, since you wrote 2 movies review for me so i wrote back. plus, your review are so much better than mine. :D i jsut bitch around me and stuff..

so i love today with my 2 besties!

till then.

xoxo
addie(: