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that tonight going to be a good night
that tonight going to be a bad night

good night:
cancer is flying off and its a new start for him in a far far away land called zurich, in which he is hoping i would join him. so if i wasnt in nms i would most likely joining him or somewhat like this. he is the only person who understand where i stand and what i want. my passion and all. who i really want to be. he be there for me and so will i. so this is a happy thing for him.

bad night:
i will miss him. though i wish him well. but you know the miss and all. those good times and bad. i want him to be there with me. but also at the same time i wish him well. its a mixed feelings anyway. i love him!

anyway who cares? my mind is finally more relax a few and got to enjoy every moments i have. :)

yes,i got VIP for F1 rocks! its pretty last minute thing! ahr! anyway, its nothing too. haha so jan, dont be jealous, your time will come! :D

PS:squirrel and broken heart.

yes sat F1 rocks and also VIP pass!

& yes, black eyed peas sang i gotta feeling! and i totally love it man!

before i was there with my brother and patterson family, i was over their place and kinda them teaching me to drink. haha. think the average american family. i had a great time there. Jardyn did make up for me and also helped by my brother and it was simply just awesome.

when black eyed peas were singing, we didnt get the VIP passes just yet, so we were so darn close to the stage, and its like i swear that my right ear was temp deaf and later when waiting for beyonce to arrive at 12am, we went to grab a drink and thats why jami called us to collect the VIP passes. and its like searching the way to Johnnie walker bar yeah that where we hang around till the whole thing was over. and though beyonce look really small. cause we were at the back of the hill, where the building is, thats the VIP place, and its freaking awesome anyway. though i can say, not a big fan of beyonce and i seriously never hear her song before and yesterday was the very first time. haha. but i like it very much. so thanks so much for the awesome night.

anyway just to say:

F1 rocks really rocks! caught Black Eyed Peas and Beyonce! B.E.P. sang 'I gotta feeling'! woohoo!!! many thanks to my dearest brother and Patterson family for this wonderfull & awesome Saturday night! :D love ya!(:

haha. it ended well. it really did. whatever it is, the fact that you are my brother, never change. i love you very much, and it make me love you even more. (:

PS: "there is just so many things on my mind right now." said squirrel.

i so dont sound like ROSS in FRIENDS!

ross, the guy? tall? Monica's brother, some what till season 2, he and Rachel together? go figure out yourself!

anyway i so dont sound like him, okay! so dont! come on. -.-

here's what she said on msn this wee morning.

*just to change the name on msn, her freaking long name.

jan: come on, tell me! what terms? who sign on you?

me: .... :P for me to know and for you to find out.

jan: haha. i rob your room i will know already.

me: no no, you cant do that. you see

jan: see what? see you smile non stop?

me: no no, why would i smile non stop? random!

jan: you no no one more time. i no no you

me: what?

jan: haha you know what, your no no sound like ross's no no

me: ross? who? i dont know a ross! haha what? your new boyfriend?

me: good, never tell me. :@

jan: lol, ross! from friends.

me: haha. oh that! haha lol random i dont sound like ross!

jan: you do, i read ur blog. no no, sound like him! haha

me: random! lamo! how on earth i will sound like him?

jan: rmb on monday's night? you came then you "hi" like damn depressed

me: cause i am depressed!

jan: ya right. then its like ross's hi.


okay, to sum up. she just think i sound freaking like ross now! haha right. and the on going facebook and twitter war with the both of us. i mean. who cares, i just got hook on facebook because of aizhen and den! the constantly playing in lecture! haha so now i am playing the games, its better then those an hour game!

on and on the brighter note, i lose ONE KG. a small step. but hello, at least the chocolate its not to blame! haha.

so one kg down and 22kg to go. hello LIFE, i am one step closer to you and your stupid set! haha :P

PS: squirrel cursing works!

alrightie! here's my list of things to do before dec!

that i will lose 50 pounds(23kg) by dec the first week. so wish me luck! its a thing i have to do before dec. not going to tell you why for now, but be shocking! cause i know, this 50 is gone, there come my LIFE! haha not telling you whats that. anyway i should had lose that like months ago, but i was too lazy to even move my head. and plus, the terms aint up yet, so who cares and now it is out, here i go! go pray that i am going to lose all of those. i had too, i really have no choice!

relax! i am a big girl. yes i am fat, no seriously i am huge! i am not like those skinny people who constantly saying they are fat. i am seriously fat, overweight fat, huge fat! so yes its healthy to lose weight! and its a term i have to do now to meet ends need!

gosh, you know the 5 days holidays i am going to during oct, i hope the hotel i am staying do have a gym. so i can carry out my plans too. seriously why am i cursing myself to have eating disorder now? damn! but i hope i have them now, till dec! when everything is over!

its not the first day i am on this. its like my erm, about a week now i am on it. i dont really see any effects, maybe i ate the chocolate just now! damn, i know, trying to control! i am like a vampire who is trying not to have human blood, but i cant do that, its beyond my instinct. so i have to learn to control.

guess whats on the terms? i have to sleep early too. drink more water and not to spend too much time on the computer! seriously, i think i spend too less time on my computer. i mean so what i am addicted to watching movies and shows or playing games? i am a teen and teens need that. so i am doing it. but dang, they are going to take my computer away if i dont follow the terms, what shit hole is that?

anyway i have to follow. so now i have to sleep before 12am. which means i just broke one term. now is 12.20am and i have no intention to sleep at all! great! sleeping counts losing weight? whatever??!!?? and i am going to break another rule today(the fact that its 12am) i going to a birthday party, not mine(what a shame). but then i have to have a cake, a small one i think! i will control

so before i got caught now, no no, i am not in some locked up room with all exercising thingy. just my house, the one where i live in. so i still live normally but just that i sign the terms and have to follow it.

i will tell you what terms till dec is here! and after the 50 pounds, say hello to LIFE!

so wish me luck and stay with me! to LIFE i come!!

:)

PS : squirrel is my soul that is eating!

okay today bbq was awesome man! haha i had like so much much fun! haha

anyway i cant wait for other event like this. haha i cant wait for the photos too. cos i like the lightsticks i bought! haha they were so awesome in the dark! and the food and the people and yes, everything! haha and night cycling too!

i just love today bbq! cant wait for photos!

PS: double burnt squirrel!

songwriting, oh who said it is easy?

okay, so i got this perfect song in my head, that i was singing to myself over and over, though it was different lyrics but it sound equal nice. and just when i wanted to sit down to write down, its like so totally different! omg! i cant write, i write nothing out. and even if i could, the melody is like all over the place. sad case people!

you would support me if i write and sing one, yeah? haha

PS: squirrel writing a song!

okay great! burn and red! i hate going in the sun! what's with sun block? it will never let u totally have no sunburn! ahr!

anyway, i found someone else with the complete full season of friends! ahh awesome eh! i wonder should i borrow from him or cancer! hmm i wonder. but cancer's dvd = mine. haha

anyway i had lots of fun today, despite the 8:2, boys : girls! haha yep! 8 boys and 2 girls. cool, eh! haha had lots of crap today, mostly burn and swearing why the sun sucks so much, but its fun! haha i love today! awesome day, haha

anyway i am dead beat, and i have to sort up the photos and also update the blog! haha turtle did a great job at it! haha anyway...

PS: burn squirrel!

haha yes friends! the show, that end at season 10! yes i am glued to it.

hahha i just love the cast! if they are my friends. hahah the humor and all. hahah but its a show! not in real life, i guess! but i might be so wrong!

anyway tml i going to have a day in the sun, sand and fun with the home stay club people! hopefully i will have fun, despite i have no idea who is going. but come on, i bet i will. we will.

oh & my brother got friends dvd over at zurich! and i am so jealous! he just wont bring it back for it. he said it will take up half of his suitcase! for real? hhaha went movie with him yesterday and its like he kept on saying last 2 weeks! last 2 weeks before he flying off! darn how sad man! and next year and all? gosh! i feel like crying now.

on the other note, i been slacking off now. yes, its off my plan! i will do that on wed! i promise! hahah

PS: prepping sunburn for squirrel!

okay. after what the final wave of drama exam is over! seriously i already knew how its going to end and start. and i did my best, whatever ever the outcome is, i really dont want to think about it.

okay back to my life. havent been updating the blog for almost a month! okay life was as the same, who bother reading? i am not those "HIP wanna be" who constantly seeking attention. constantly CONSTANTLY!! ahr. seriously dont bother to turn up, even if u did, you just make everyone there invisible and use your "charm" towards the teacher which seriously i see a very very very sad and pathetic person. word of advice: grow up! get a freaking life. because i know behind those make-ups is this person i USED to know. this person whom without those are much real... much real. okay... why do i bother? oh wait, i find it pathetic man!

aright! haha i enjoy walk. i really do, well that was before a nail went up my feet. okay its not that bad! its like your feet, and a nail behind it. so its like a feet nail! haha alright i am out of words! anyway its that. but, thankfully it was after the wonderful meal i had and the walk, which was supposed to walk back, all the way to mae's house! but it was caught by a nail! okay, who ever speaks like that? anyway...

okay now i seriously thinks miss mc have a picture of Chekhov up her bedroom and those freaking fans where she have all the books chekhov ever written! oh oh and like have this fan website where she is the creater and the only entu fan(that i know so far) of him. how in the world she is so in love with chekhov???????????? oh anyway if u you are wondering who, its chekhov! MAT was famous because of his 4 major plays! anyway i have to be a "one-night" fan of chekhov just to please miss mc! yes!! okay even what i read on google was no match to miss mc. she like a walking chekhov zombie! hmm...

note to self: nickname for miss mc! hahah McChekhov? haha LOL

anyway McChekhov said i was charming? wow, what the hell does she means? is that good or bad? why i feel like it is bad? oh man.... what does she means:" anyway, i have a nice chat with you, you are a very charming girl." and a smile after that. a very unfriendly McChekhov who gave me more than a smile within that one hour! and not forgetting the freaking knife who i really thought she is going to kill me with it. ahah mae was downstairs and McChekhov held the knife and said without any (yes! any) expression :" i am going to go up there to scare the student(s)." or something like that. but it was with no expression. oh and there's a "haha" in it too. freaking,eh.

anyway. just to know that my phone bills are like reaching the roof or its already there! so if i dont pick up or sms u back, its really means that i really cant! i am so broke now that i am too lazy to find a job! yes! anyway its time for me to rest. rest before i go oversea!

anyway i like yesterday! after the exam, i mean. the walk, ice-cream, pizza hut, walk, and yes! the nail, and the bus(where i really thought i lost my card!), and the walk of spooky playground!(thanks for the "ghost story") and the healing of my wound, oh and the random talks and card games and pvz! oh mae! thanks man! and well, can i just say dont go America? haha my very best friend! thank once again!

turtle to turtle:"hey pal, when we reach mid-life, we turn and look back at what we been through, i just want to say, thanks for being there!" oh, yes, baby turtle is call chocolate! i dont care! :P

hahah! life is blessed with friend like mae! oh and i am glued to friends! haha oh yeah! haha now i am only at season one! there is like nine other season to catch! a bit late, but... oh well! haha

PS: ever seen a dead squirrel?