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there's nothing wrong with my name.
If you think you know me, read my blog and think again.
I'm imperfect yet I'm Lovin' It
I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life.
This is my blog so Click here if you hate it.

GO EARTH HOUR!!! yup i will be joining this event! thanks to Sydney, Australia. on 31march 2007, for an hour, they turn on their lights and when 2008, it became global! now 2009, on 28 march. turn off your lights for an hour!

anyway do more than the lights! i am so glad! woo lala. we are thinking of our earth now! and also check out the earth hour 2009 video on youtube! and i qoute " i am just one person"

so, do your part!

note to self: turn off the laptop too!

PS:squirrel and candles!

had my perm pass. look like a damn giraffe in the photo... so damn tired anyway. been typing on words instead of blog. dont know why.

felt so lost now.
need a sign.
give me one.

note to self: do snd hw!

PS: squirrel and giraffe!

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PS: squirrel and an empty cage

so many one to carry the smile along, who do you really fit in?

you love them but you crave for more, why are you doing that?

had skyping with jan, ren and dare the whole afternoon. my stupid web cam ain't working well. jan said it was going to rain but, it ain't! wasted a beautiful day! i was half hearted, watching "Close to home" at the same time while chatting.

i miss those days when i chat with mae till late nights, and also chat with cancer almost everyday. when he was oversea and been there with me through the ups and down! they say you can choose your siblings, but i am glad i got him! thanks bro!!

anyway, i tried to sign in like a zillion times before i made this post on blogger. i am thinking of shutting down. after all i want to type something "deep" and don't want to hurt any one's feelings.

anyway is it so hard to say you like her? god! just say, i cant stand anymore!
say to her, save my ear! don't post lame tag on her tag board. be a man! do the right thing! stop saying she is a very close friend! god!!!!

oh ho! hot shot not landing anything new! SAD!

back to Close to home. i love that show. i think i got a phobia! phobia of not having nice shows to watch! hhaha

note to self: pay snd fees tomorrow! last to pay in the class of 3!

PS: squirrel and senses!

so i will be "upgrading" my room A!~SAP!~ which is super good news after all the leaking is much better now!

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did that in work yesterday. just typing that nonstop till my carbonara(or whatever the spelling is) is cooked my by senior! its not free! i got to pay also! D: met M on the way home. (Note,M not MA... though i used to say MA as M) anyway so kind of him to miss 3 buses just to wait for me. haha anyway darn L. made me walk like a super mad women. said she in HR, ask Z but Z said never see a trace of her. so went to call senior. senior said not sure ask me call L then call L she told me she's back at 3rd store! and i had to work all the way back again! screaming!

anyway... Vamp should tag also yesterday but he wanted to try the curry chicken so ended up me and M took bus home together. seriously, the bus is super noise i had to idea what M said on the bus but smile along. mood was super glad yesterday. after all someone finally called me before i end work. and as the mood became happier, the rain stop and though its cloudy but its no raining. so ended up both M and I walk back together. haha.

got another day off today. wanted to meet up for baseball, but jan said might be pouring later. SAD!

all way, i will just slack away today. maybe be not, i need to find more pieces for snd! wonder when dancing pole coming back! hmm

Note to self: dont waste shoulder!

PS: squirrel all prepared for another round of open bullets.

I DONT DO PRIM AND PROPER!(not at home!)

Stop asking me why i behave so "BOYISH" at home while outside with those people i behave a totally 180 change.

a)this is my home. i put my legs on my table when i read. i shout at the top of my lungs, i stomp around, i let go! why? because its my house.

b)THIS IS MY HOME!!!

three ladies, the older, noble ladies who think that a girl should be train to be like a lady at the age as young as 3. the way she sits, the way she talks. they have to be prim and proper. the way they present themselves to the world, the talk around the table, the smile with the hand in front of their mouth, those bite-sized food. the powdered nose, the shaved legs, etc.

those are the rules to present yourselves to the world(aka: when you are outside)

they didnt include how you should behave at home. my behaviour scored and A when i am with them. that is because i am with them! i put on a coloured face to show them(which is totally not me).

when i am at home, i tear that coloured face, bearing the naked side of me.

the leo side of me.

the time to let the lion out. she roars, she behaves liony. she takes a piece of chicken, poke it in a fork and eat from there. there is no such thing as bite-sized at home. the loud music, those crazy songs. its her own world. to that three ladies, it is taboo!

she scored an F:

to her, its no biggy.

to those three ladies, it will cost their lives.

she got lectured. now she has to put on the coloured mask and act.

there is a saying, life is a show. she can relates. there is no part where you can be yourself. those extra weights, those taboo behaviour at home. those closeness with her parents, the night life, the shouting, the roaring and the freedom. its been deleted, deleted from the hard disk. she got a back up. she is still she.

she collects thousands of mask to put them. but that one mask she kept close to her is her naked mask.

i dont want to go back. i dont want to attend the lesson. to be a girl, the way a girl should be. those are for rich and bored person. i have a life. i dont have to sleep at 9.30pm to please you. i sleep at 3am to please me. i like those loud music. i love to roar, to let lose. bite me!

i dont do prim and proper at home. i am a girl, living in the world. not any dutchess! leave me alone.

who are you three to rule me?

note to self: change name.

PS: squirrel is throwing nuts at them.

finally! the list is getting shorter! and i am glad!

should you feel weird seeing your boss in home clothes? sitting in your brother's house? well i do! anyway last friday went ikea with cancer and shop around for nothing! aside from the 9.90 stood which in the end MA had it. haha so we caught movie back in town and its in the same cinema as the one i went last last friday. i cried in the show! i bet cancer did but he just didnt show, ego!

anyway so i camp around his house still mum picks me up. read this super cool book which i totally going to do for snd exam. if only dancing pole allow. anyway, the other side of MA. its totally not him! well not the side of him i know. super funny, in work, i never clear his cup or bowl or anything, neither did he asks me to. at home, he cleared for me! hahha... (you wont get it) cancer cooks, he cleared!

anyway so in a nutshell, cancer not leaving till july and i am postponing my trip to sept. after snd exam!

right! so i baked again! and so sorry shaan! well, she did want to come over to bake but seeing that pile of mess in the house and plus i wasnt in the zone at that time(enrolling, not enrolling...) and i am still working(i am still working!) and i dont really into much baking. i guess i replied her in a hanging tone! eek! and OPPS sorry! it a time when i dont want to meet anyone and do anything i love. so yup. some other time, i promise! (if she ever going to read this.)plus plus, now oven in the store. no space in the kitchen. so that was the last bake and also to finish up the flour and baking powder.

went through my snd bag and saw the piece of paper, phobia! and what did i smoke out a talk? phobia of flying. which is totally not true. anyway. i shall blog some other day. got a break from yesterday month end stuff and all sort. anyway good news. i will be getting my perm pass in may! hahaha why am i so happy?

lunch is serve! curry! woo lala! got curry the other day at work, L cooked it. its super spicy. i cant sallow anything after that. and MA went to tell cancer after that, big mouth! haha anyway lunch curry for tue, lunch curry for wed. i think L going to cook again!

note to self: need a break, take me out, enjoy the view, dream a little more.

PS: squirrel and her new toy!