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guess what, all my freaky unglam photos WERE on facebook

and its off now. afterall it is gone. cos i kinda shut down the account again. before that, was the darn waste of time so shut it off.

anyway cancer puts up all the stupid umglam photos of me and i think some of my friends saw it. damn stupid. god! where is the addie that never give in to temptations on facebook? haiz. just so i wanted to get some pictures off facebook and it led to this...

darn darn darn...

thats was a tiny hole. dont put salt into it. its stings.

me:"why are you taking photos of everything?"

cancer:"you will know why next year."

me:"know what?

caner:"well, next year, you wont get all this."

me:"huh? u mean if we move over we cant come back to eat?"

cancer:"you think the air fare cheap is it?"

me:"right, so we cant eat over there?"

cancer:"it wont be the same and also the price?"

me:"hmm.."

cancer:"and i can put it up on facebook too!"

me: -.-

cancer:"what? eat your food. next year will be different."

i do hope next year it will be not. also i dont want to look at the photos to carry the taste of it.

damn sad... the mood was down...back to square one.

now listening to a damn nice song.. making me want to finish up my half written song. haha. but the tune changed every time i try to add more to it.

i need to start reading, my english is getting worst.
i need to get on the bike again, i am gaining.
i need to get a smile, to paste over the frown.

its like on the 31st i will know where i'll get into... freaky!

PS: squirrel and her hot magenta

i am freaking dead man! haha dead beat in one sense.

went spying around today. damn tired... and my paper wasn't stamp so i cant enter. and i had to go to the 2nd building to stamp it. when i am back the date was wrong but luckily i got to change it within the building. damn shit man. anyway there is something else. when i am inside i got super lost and super hungry. R treated me lunch and ...

haha anyway i reach freaking early for work so went in to chat online. but in the end i thought i was early like 30mins but after chatting, i was only 3 mins early. haha sad.

anyway its super stupid. i had to work alone. haha day 2, and i am no longer a loner inside! i miss working outside man. with all the jokes but i hope the mood will change as i began to work inside. slowly. i started asking names! god. this guy, he was like so weird and never said anything later in the end he just started calling me miss to replace my name. and since theres so many other misses there so when ever he said miss, lots of miss turn around...so i asked him, his name and everyone around. dots.... anyway....

i want to learnt to fly. gosh its super up high.

going off for dinner

haha damn tired. continue spying on thu again! off all the way. shit i haven't started snd homework yet.!!!darn darn darn...

hahah

PS: squirrel and all the admin papers.

please, nothing you said can change the fact.

anyway i expected the marks. do the maths. i dont have any mood to study for majors! all i can think during that period of time was what stupid idea rule that i have to follow. why do i have to go. why do i have to go!

so anyway its official i have to go no matter what. now its to think once or twice about the plan i am making. should i even bother to study. seriously after those words, i totally have no mood to study. none. and there goes my bad results for the whole year. and it just prove that my parents dont even bother about it. after all i all those doesnt matter. they dont even look at it. so even when my teachers started asking, i smile and said i never bother to study. which is the truth. oh yeah. so majors results like crap they just started asking me to go over and study! noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo~~ not now. and whats so nice about there? you tell me? what is it that cancer love it there so much? nothing! nothing! i love here! i plan to die here! i dont want to go over! shut up! i will live here on my own. all of you can go over there. so so so so? i carry the passport of this country! i carry my citzenship of here! i am here! i am home, i belong here. do you know how badly people want to be the citzenship of here and i have to be a second citzenship of there? no... i love here! neither am i giving up my citzenship here!. u cant make me! so what? so what? so what, i am the boss of me.

anyway. heck. after all i rather start thinking again. its here or there. its the place i grew up or the place i see my future? its the place where its a new world or this zone! right....

and i am making my decision tonight. or i will take another dip? should i waste my time? should i have a back up? darn! darn darn darn. dip within 1 year or another dip within 3 years? when 2 years i can start taking degree? god? i never plan to live till this age! i am serious!

after all the rest was expected but not english! shit man. what went wrong in english?

PS: squirrel, even the worst is getting over me.

sad the word. depressed its worst.

anyway i am so... never mind. majors results will be out this coming monday! not about what i will get. actually it does. no matter what i will go teary.

anyway this coming monday i had something on. after all this years i finally said i am able to attend this thingy and now i cant! ahr. and i thought i could.

anyway i hope i can make the single hit. anyway not to worry thought. trust yourself and the faith. its fate anyway. what done cant be undone.

did 20km cycling within 40 mins today, its a good thing for a potato. felt super awesome anyway. think i will do that again later or maybe not. my mood is no mood. dont talk to me about hanging out.

i have no mood to go to cube and even play with quggles. anyway its so so so so so. i will play this. the mood swing game. sitting on the swing to mood away.

and i need a T and U mask.

anyway ahr. let me be...

hope for the good news. its a good news. it will be. it will be.

PS: squrriel, i need names.

find the will to not to chomp her!

i cant stand R! in a sense, who does she thinks she is? she is not the boss of me. and news flash! i will be upgrading in seats now! whatever!!! now i had to control and put a smile or rather laugh out loud. to suck up to her. and i dont do suck up. it isnt my style! i do suck up to people i... you get what i mean.

its a lovely sunday and she had to text me? darn! i am holding back all the anger to let it go as a smile. so dont see me hissing when i see you. god!

i have to forgive and forget.

pending...

right it aint going to happen, R!

PS: squirrel and her foul mood

this few days i been stuck to this song. its simply reflective to someone i know!

Tittle: Teardrops On My Guitar
Artist: Taylor Swift
Album: Taylor Swift


Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.


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anyway i finally get my pay! its like the month of nov! damn sad. meaning i will get my dec pay in jan and my jan pay in feb. now i am teaching some kids tuition with the cheapest rate in town. i must be not in the right mind. most likely its pro bono!

right!!!!! anyway all it meant is the passion to teach. plus cancer is coming back next thu. meaning uncle mic is coming back too. DREAD! cant wait for my donald duck picture, cancer got me in Zurich! hope he got my ballet flats in England. damn ass right, get to go oversea where by i had to sort of cover his role! in many ways, glad that he is coming home. woohoo!!


cramps!

PS:squirrel will be right back!

happy 2009!!!!

anyway i am so glad that my blog skin is able to view after a few adjustment. but hopefully it can last till i found my next blog skin which i love. i glued my eye on all the skins but none caught my eye!

haha this year there is a new me.

a new me who saw the fact that we are fading. we are the opposite sex so we cant click like the way we used to be. i understand your feelings now that you leave me out. but i still cant believe that a "whisper" can change the fact about us. what we used to have, those joys! but to let the old go so i will have a newer new.

a new me who understands that the fact office politics wasnt that fun. all those sweet smile will soon be wipe off this jan. and when uncle mic come back, its the end of me. i am just the replacement of him. if thats what you think that i am spy of the work place, let it be. my days are numbered. the "eye" isnt me. the boss knows what happen there so let it be. but i do know one tiny fact, start getting a job if i am you. opps i gave out, didnt i.

a new me who will unglued my butt to work towards a fitter me.

a new me who will smile more often and be glad that everyone around me is love and bless.

a new me will learn to love me more often.

well thats all for now...

PS: squirrel is still squirrel.