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wow.... one full year is over! its so fast when you really sit down and think about it..

GOODBYE 2008, HELLO 2009!~~!


now that it is 31 of dec 2008, it is 31 dec 2008.

right i have no idea what to say.

i will wait till 2009 and i shall blog about all those exciting plans for the year 2009.

PS: Squirrel is so ha-ha-happy!

and i am missing out on your details!

i am totally serious! totally!

haha so i got this freaking butt ach till now. anyway waiting for mae to send all the photos so i will update on the shared blog. anyway i totally love yesterday. all those fun. the best thing is cooking!

i met that idiot person when meeting mae. he was on the bus with that idiot look. gosh how much i hate. luck thing he alight right within 3 stops! back to basic again. back to "oh how much it is"

anyway so my ice cube had some news... oh and i wont be cubing in anymore. stoping on the 30 dec. i cant wait for next year. i will be going away for one whole full month! haha all paid! haha cant wait. that will be excalty a year later.

i will get a new ice skating shoe
i will get a new laptop
i will get a new camera
i will get a new me!

anyway i can kinda sick of kissing ass! kissing R's ass. long story. but in a nut shell. she sucks! end of story..

cooking!!! my first time being a cook! haha want to know more, visit my shared blog and you will know more. i hope no one get food posion! opps

i will just wait for the photos!

PS: Squirrel is so happy! much so happy

i was almost con man!

anyway i dont want to talk about it!

finally get to watch movie! wait, in the cinema! haha finally. caught some igor show with kenny and elaine. and later went for dinner at my craving. haha suddenly feel like eating the ... i dont know what the name is. anyway so clement joined us during lunch. plus plus how come everyone know about me in the cube? hmm

anyway so sorry la randy. dont get pissed and kept asking what i did to the computer. i mean i dont ask you what you did so dont ask me. anyway its so weird. finally guilty about fs so now asking me is it? come on. i am not you. so i wont.

hope hope hope

PS: squirrel is in pain.

i dont want to see you
i dont want to learn
i dont want to laugh
i dont want to pretend to enjoy
i just want to be me!

me me me me me me me me me

i am sick of smiles
i am sick of air kisses
i am sick of walking in poshy
i am sick of acting
i am sick of not being me

god, move! Bitch

i hate you
yes i am mean
yes i am not the typical girls who cling
yes i do curse
yes you are are cursed

move! Bitch

i am so so sick of being someone that is not me
i dont want to change anything about me
yes i did said that word you think i said
no i wont be nice

come on its been 2 weeks since i be nice and sticking to plans that i simply hate! so what you are older than me? my rank is higher than you. so what if you work your ass up? so what? do i care? no!

freaking idiot freaking bitch freaking know it all

i hate lies! lies from you. work gossip and all those lovely air kissing i dont want to mess me. i want to be me. wait till my time is up to be all messy i will be! dont push me! dont try to tell me its all for my own good. when i am you, sitting there to watch i will then join you! as for now, i just want to be me. i am sick of being sweet, i know i am not.

i am a devil
i am mean
this is me
like it or not
learn to like it!

ahr!!! heck human in the AW! so what? i mean so what!!!


PS: squirrel is not in the mood to rsvp now.

haha yeah i finally learnt to make all kinds of coffee! haaha there is nothing much to be in cube today so i went around learning stuff. also i served my 2nd cup of coffee. the first cup was for my tummy and it taste extraaaaa nice! hahah i love it man. i felt so happy. even when i know cancer had texted me to tell me he is transferring.

i felt damn happy man. finally i get to make it! yeah!!! so i can quit fantasy about all those coffee dreams and also understanding that i am able to make it! yeah! i jumped around in joy! i am still jumping... in me!

haha anyway i need to go for dinner now

tata

will update more on friday and 3 days straight to enjoy without my cube. pray that i still can hang around there

PS squirrel is so darn happy!

i had no idea why i missed you so badly though we just left each other a couple of hours ago.

i had no idea why i need you so badly though we dont see each other much.

i had no idea why i am crying now though i never felt so sad on every single trip you went away.

i had no idea why! i had no idea why! i had i had no no i had no idea i

thanks and sorry... i had no idea what to tell you now that i know you will be going away

we just started to bond.
we just started to become close.
we just started to not to fight.
we just started to love each other.
we just started to care for one and another.
we just started to learn to think for each other.

and now you had to leave? right now?

i dont know why i never want this day to happen. knowing that you will be somewhere far away 12 hours away from me though email will come in handy now.

i tried to be strong but i am sorry i cant. i know its not like you are going and never return. i know that you will be back but i miss you already! and you had not leave yet. all those things you had done for me and how am i going to pay you back now? i finally feel so darn useless without you there.

this is not another mood swing! this is also not about all those sad and slow song. this is me not able to show you the other side of me. this is me not letting you know how i really feel. this is me not able to tell you that i miss you. this is me not telling you this damn thing. this is me trying to get over it. this is me not able to sleep. this is is me loving you.

this is me. me is this.

how am i going to get on now? i had no idea why i need you that badly! we should not bond! we should just fight and thrash each other and i would not feel so sad now! its all you fault!!!!!!!

what i want for X'mas? for you to stay with me! but i lied! for you to be far away from me.

why do you had to be so nice to me? why why why? this had made me need you more and more. go away go away. i never want to grow up! stop saying the baby grew up. why? now this sucks. i hate you! you made me cry. you made me cry. you made me cry! go away go away! i hate you!

the first song i write will be about how i hate you.

one year will be quick! i will see you in a years time. and i will join you then. so now lets just have this long distance miss and yearn for more to come.

thanks. i thought i grew up but i am crying like a baby.

PS : leo loves cancer. thanks.

so when they say about blogger's party, i hope i will be able to read able them on their blog! anyway i knocked off at around 6 today after rushing all the last few datas which i thought i will be jobless! i just want to finish it all up before cancer came! anyway so R invited me to stay for the party which cancer had invitied me the day before but i was still on the fence. so i called roasted mushroom pea brain today and thought i need to join him to hunt job too. also amandaz for some guitar lesson.

so in the end i wasnt jobless after all! haha i got new stuff to do from R and which is phew!! so M and cancer flying off tomorrow! i almost wanted to cry just know. knowing that i wont be seeing him till the 3rd week of jan and i was so close to breaking down but i guess the half a glass of white wine and a slip of red wine i was rather worked up. though i never test my limit before.

yes! working at 10am tomorrow. lesser pay. but more sleep! wait its equal sleep. i reached home at 12am and now blogging so yup... anyway i still need to check on some stuff before turning in. so i shall end here and update more maybe on friday? haha see first okay!

and i wonder do i have any readers! hahah LOL

and V is/was afraid of cancer. i had no idea was she once afraid or now she is. so anyway we were no wait i was waiting for cancer to finish his dinner at the fast food and V was grabbing some coffee for the party to test the different anyway so when we went back to the party, V came up to me and said why are we eating fast food. well they dont eat and once she said they rest of the crew looked at us. thanks ahr cancer! haha anyway being a party host wasnt that simple after all. not that you get paid its another thing. money face huh... well i am kinda broke man! ahahhahahaa


PS: squirrel and her xtreme wear.

so i am tiring to type really slow just so i will not leave my cube cube. anyway good news, i wont till next year! haha

so so anyway Happy birthday amelia! haha also i cant wait to go for the blogger's party! yes yes its tomorrow! i hope i can crap my way through with cancer. cancer flying off on wed! depressed man!

actually i wanted to type something really interesting now. but my Internet connection took so long to connect so heck... now my show began so... anyway i shall update when i come back from my blogger's party! haha yeah!

PS:squirrel got backache