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i cant wait exams to be over yet i am afraid i am not well prepared! dughhh.

anyway grey's anatomy is back. season 5 yo! haha i cant wait though need to spend time mugging and my Internet explorer is giving me a big big headache. caught a few minutes of the opening before mum turn it off. damn!

i dreamt of my lover died before. not telling you who but that person knew. haha its like the beginning of the grey's season 5. dream a little dream of me. haha love that song. haha anyway i know i did i said i will go MIA and prove me stay back home but i dont have the heart to do anything right now. i mean i am so so freaking sick of amaths. did from like 11pm to 3am last night and woke up like 1.30pm today. i mean come on~

give me a break! i will go nuts man. though, how i wish its summer but not fall but then i know that the season is also going to give up on me soon... but once it hit winter and i will be like the white snow.

and cutting lose is again thing but i am in a daze right now. i cant do everything in an apple pie order, or can i? prove my stay i will work like so freaking hard now. i am so not going to migrate baby. i am not!

and i feel like i am i hell now. and i do want mae for her company. she once said and i quote. "and even hell will be an enjoyable place if we go there together hahaha!" so yeah.

anyway, in a nutshell, taste the bitterness of life first than the sweetness. it makes you appreciate it even more.

PS: squirrel wants to slack!

haha dont ask me! haha REFLABBIT! i know it does not sound damn right. but i learn that from squirrel. haha ask squirrel!

anyway many thanks to ah choy and mushroom for teaching me amaths! haha anyway it totally so worth it.. so... anyway gm is like damn cocky~

saw dave on the bus when going home and had dinner with him. haha its free! someone super rich~ hahaha

anyway a long time since i blog and i am feeling really tired so going to take a shot break before mugging. haha exams is so so so close~

PS:squirrel is shouting REFLABBIT!

you know, when they say when you never say something for a really long time, the thing will happen. it does. i said something i should had. i should not had bring up the past. things are just perfectly alright now.

we just stand there. face to face and later we walked together. across each other. and our back rub against each other. we dont turn around. later the day we met again. you smiled i looked away. you looked down, i smiled.

anyway. haha i been really down due to max mugging and thus my mood is really bad man! anyway i know i had been blogging while i should use the time to mug but i will turn nuts man~ i rather spend the time at home than in school. i rather use the morning to sleep and night to mug and i rather not see you again. why after what i said, you seems omnipresent ? why? why? why? i want to forget about you! so leave me~ as your favourite song meant:

i know they say if you love someone
you should set them free
but it is sure is hard to do
****
two lovers in love cant make
just is why love kept breaking our hearts
****
come on baby its over
lets face it
***********

i will post the whole lyric up when i am free. haha felt much better after i hearing the song(:

PS: squirrel is having a bad bad headache.

Carrie Underwood, Mariah Carey, Beyoncé, Mary J. Blige, Rihanna, Fergie, Nicole Scherzinger, Natasha Bedingfield, Miley Cyrus, Leona Lewis, Keyshia Cole, Ashanti and Ciara

haha.. well those are the singers for the song "just stand up". i will be linking the video under or you can go to youtube to check it out yourself. seriously, the song is amazing!

anyway, lyric:


Beyonce:
The heart is stronger than you think,
It’s like it can go through anything.
And even when you think it can’t it finds a way to still push on, though

Carrie:
Sometimes you want to run away,
Ain’t got the patience for the pain
And if you don’t believe it look into,
your heart the beat goes on

Rihanna:
I’m tellin’ you that,

Rihanna/Miley:
Things get better,
Through whatever
If you fall, dust it off,
don’t let up

Nicole:
Don’t you know you can go be your own miracle

Beyonce:
You need to know

CHORUS

Everyone:
If the mind keeps thinking you’ve had enough,
But the heart keeps telling you don’t give up
Who are we to be..questioning, wondering what is what
Don’t give up…
THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!

Fergie:
It’s like we all have better days
Problems getting all up in your face

Leona:
Just because you go through it

Fergie:
Don’t mean it got to take control, no

Leona:
You ain’t gotta find no hiding place

Keyshia:
Because the heart can beat the hate

Leona:
Don’t wanna let your mind keep playin’ you

Keyshia:
And sayin’ you can’t go on

Rihanna:
I’m tellin’ you that

Miley:
Things get better
Through whatever

Rihanna:
If you fall

Miley/Rihanna:
Dust if off, don’t let up

LeAnn:
Don’t you know you

Natasha:
Can go

LeAnn:
Be your own

Natasha:
Miracle

Carrie:
You need to know

Everyone:
If the mind keeps thinking you’ve had enough,
But the heart keeps telling you don’t give up
Who are we to be..questioning, wondering what is what
Don’t give up…
THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!

Mary:
You don’t gotta be a prisoner in your mind

Ciara:
If you fall, dust it off

Mary:
You can live your life

Everyone:
Yeah

Mary:
Let your heart be your guide

Everyone:
Yeah yeah yeah

Mariah:
And you will know that you’re good if you trust in the good

Everyone:
Everything will be alright, yeah

Ashanti:
Light up the dark, if you follow your heart

Mary:
And it will get better

Mariah:
Through whatever

Everyone:
If the mind keeps thinking you’ve had enough,
But the heart keeps telling you don’t give up
Who are we to be..questioning, wondering what is what
Don’t give up…
THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!

If the mind keeps thinking you’ve had enough,
But the heart keeps telling you don’t give up
Who are we to be..questioning, wondering what is what
Don’t give up… (Don’t give up, Don’t give up)
THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!

Fergie:
You got it in you, find it within
You got in now, find it within now
You got in you, find it within
You got in now, find it within now
You got in you, find it within
Find it within you, find it within

Everyone:
Everything will be alright, yeah

Everyone:
THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!



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i think it should be that. well, listening to it while trying to type down the lyric. haha hope you enjoy. and after that major crappy exam. i will write again! haha

anyway i wonder why we turn out that way. i just hope everything fall back to where we were last time. all the fun. and not letting one person to turn us around. and when our eyes met, we dont smile or nod. we just look right into each other eye and look away, like nothing had happen before. i miss the fun we had, dont you? but then, you got her to charm you around, dont ya?

anyway, enjoy the song. haha (:

PS: squirrel wants a big nutty nut..... nut

♥ ...I'm glad you're the one I spent it with.

5:10:00 PM

Sunday, September 14, 2008

in which addie just want to say just stand up!

this song is amazing. i heard it from the show stand up 2 cancer. you can go to standup2cancer.org to find out more. anyway i will be uploading the lyric next post. taking a break in between my mugging so yeah. anyway i understand what it is like to lost someone to cancer. and no i am not talking about that cancer. not the sign cancer. i mean the cancer, the disease.

if you are wondering who sang it, well, there is a lot. haha as i said i will upload next post. and you might want to come back in Oct.

anyway the song "just stand up", its a pun. i mean one is for the main purpose of the show next is to help me through my mugging months. haha

dont give up! haha. anyway yeah. no matter what, dont give up! all the best to all those mugging muggers. haha (: i am talking about the mugging for exam muggers. not the muggers! haha

PS: squirrel is in love with the song~

♥ ...I'm glad you're the one I spent it with.

6:04:00 PM

Monday, September 8, 2008

in which addie had a very sucky day!

okay sucky day 1. and there is more to come.

i screwed all my papers. i know man. ahr! but well, addie, there is still time for you to mug! which means you got to stop blogging and go and mug. well get mug by all those subjects, dear.

the only thing that made my day is by letting a seat to an old lady. hahaha i am not flaunt, okay. i let my seat to an old lady. haha anyway i was so moddy all the way from school back home. and seeing a smile from her. well okay i admit, i need someone to praise me! haha its a long time someone does that. okay... well MYY did say i was very loud for snd exam. anyway just pray stabb dont stabb me. get it? okay...

well thanks. now my music player started playing "I'll stand by you" why do you look so sad~ you think? if you mad, get mad. dont hold it all inside? well, just tell me how!

anyway... well time to mug(: oh man, cancer flew again! meaning all to me and me only! muhahaha

well thanks once again! my music player love me, man. it started playing "better off dead" its been eating me alive and now i see red~ oi, you better off dead~

gosh, now i feel that mum got me my Elizabeth Arden ean parfumée for a reason. and the reason is to do well for my major major to the max exam. oh man. now i feel so damn guilt for not doing anything that make her happy to the max. oh i am screwed to the max. dont ask me why am i adding to the max at the end. i also dont know why. been doing that during the holidays. haha so mum, i will show you that Elizabeth Arden ean parfumée is worth it to the max!!!!!!!!

and another thing, dont count on my next post. seriously going MIA!

PS: squirrel munching on nutty again.

and why do you till roll your eyes when you see me? you were the one that said we were back to where we end? this just prove that you, my friend, is a liar.

♥ ...I'm glad you're the one I spent it with.

4:12:00 PM

Sunday, September 7, 2008

in which addie had cupcakes with randy

hey peps.. okay. as my title spelt, i am with randy. haha talking about somebody! and this seriously made that somebody really mad now.

anyway. randy wanted to walk the walk. so we did something really dumb. haha. trying to make cupcakes for his mother and he had to call me. well thanks. haha anyway this is so fun. chilling out, talking about random stuff about uh huh. and thus, it led us to a really deep hole of gossip. haha.

anyway. this is so last mintue, okay. try surfing for recipes online and baking it within 2 hours. and now he blamed me that i was late. hello~ its a sunday, okay. sunday equals to waking up late. anyway the cupcakes dont look like cupcakes. it looks more like smashed cake in a cup. haha...

something treating, randy started taking out his guitar and started playing. haha and sad to say i am enjoying it, yeah jan. haha she is so going to kill me, baby. anyway no harsh feeling but how i wish you were here. and no jan, i will not do what you are thinking now. haha. okay chop chop. randy needs my help again.

shall blog later...

PS: squirrel smells like cupcakes.

♥ ...I'm glad you're the one I spent it with.

5:35:00 PM

Saturday, September 6, 2008

in which addie hate that school is starting

i hate school when you know you will get back all your crappy result.

the final showdown define its all. this is crappy yeah.

thinking that i will moving along fast like a fish. but i crawl like a freaking snail. things are not moving as plan. glad that now i can focus all on school work. not floating between both school and snd.

talking about snd, mae saw stabb at some hotel with another snd examiner. haha. anyway talking about exam, saw this juniors of ours sitting there waiting before going in to the exam make me think that i am aging. saw this grade 2 kid sitting in her mother's arms before the exam starts. haha, just like old times yeah. seeing them doing all the pieces that i had done before. man....

catching up with lots of my sleep this few days. slept at 1am woke up at 12.30pm this morning or afternoon. i know i got to start prepping my exam. i will. and i will do it. to make myself stay here. but, if i have to move, i will not regret for not working hard now. haha i will be like going MIA till nov. will be online if need to. haha anyway all the best to all my friends for everything.

hope to score well for snd. back to csi... haha

PS: squirrel is super tired!

♥ ...I'm glad you're the one I spent it with.

5:22:00 PM

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

in which addie is over and done with SND!

lets cheer!

i am done with the snd exam! yeah!

guess what! guess who is the examiner? make a guess

its dinah stabb, the actress! yes some actress! oh my gosh,baby. haha some super Hollywood plus BBC actress. hahha damn cool and yeah but so freaking happy thats its over. hope she likes it. oh man i said about money is the problem. and money to her, is nothing! considering her job!!! an actress....... you do the math!

anyway i got a bad mood after snd. should be damn happy right. but i mean. but yeah i am not...

anyway i am so damn happy its finally over which means no MYY! yeah! haha.

well. went to eat sushi after snd exam. and went to town to shop with the voucher. i mean its mae's voucher. but we shared so yeah. anyway so after we reach that place. which is like a dwarf
walking in the giant streets. and we were like turning and crossing the roads for fun. haha so we reach the shop and later did we know that it will be closing within like a few minutes.

you know what made me damn pissed. i mean yeah. forget about it. i dont have the mood to blog too. this is the closing of our friendship.

PS: squirrel is so happy that snd exam is over!

♥ ...I'm glad you're the one I spent it with.

10:34:00 PM