welcome to my blog. is a little bit of everything happening in my life. okay a little bit more than a little. fine! a little more than a little by a little :D
all my post are copyrighted.

addie(:
there's nothing wrong with my name.
If you think you know me, read my blog and think again.
I'm imperfect yet I'm Lovin' It
I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life.
This is my blog so Click here if you hate it.

guess what? a freaking freaking thing happened on the way home. and dont think too far. haha

anyway i was on the cab with mae home from snd, after shopping and dinning with her and sofia. so once we reached mae's house, the cab kinda like stop in the centre of the road. but the good thing is, it is near her house. so u had to call another cab to send me home.

haha anyway i am so broke for the holidays~

anyway i think i was damn rude to MYY today. haha i mean seriously she was the one who said that the point of having a card was to help me for my speech and of course i dont memorize it. i kinda sight-read from it. and its like whatever... anyway the other main point is to make her delete more words! haha

this is so fun. haha i was out on the desk making holes in my card when this lower grade girl asked me what grade i was and her brother was like : " a grade higher than me." and then she asked :" so is this your speech?" and once again her brother was like " yeah." and she asked :" allow to use card? to bring in to the exam?" and her brother was like " yup." i dont even have any chance to answer. and in the end his sister was like " why are you helping her to answer?" and he said something that made us all laugh. "its called the higher grade understanding." hahah

anyway, sad that snd is moving but happy that its opposite the old snd. haha guess i will be going there like next year. so this is the last few days crashing over in the soon to be old snd. haha

plus, i had to do my play in front the class of 3 plus MYY. MYY asked them to watch me. if not i wont have 8 eyes looking at me. haha anyway i felt super horrible after the play and the three were like. oh its the best. very good. damn nice... haha and from the devil MYY to angel MYY. haha okay devil MYY is because of my speech but its like whatever. and angel is like i done a wonderful play. but seriously, was my play that wonderful? is MYY biased?

oh man. summer is ending... haha welcome fall. got this packet with the words that i simply love. "endless summer" i mean yeah, love summer to the max. and winter too. weird huh. anyway i am till stuck at the first page of my speech there are like 3 more to go. and i spent like 2 hours on it already. damn screwed.

anyway, i was kinda pissed with mae today. i mean, we said we will meet at 4 outside snd so we could go for some ice-cream before snd starts at 6. so i reached at 3.50 and waited till 4. and called her, no answer and after 15 mins later. she said she is on her way and later, after 30mins, she wanted to meet me at the shop. and i was so pissed that i went around to shop. also to get snd stuff. and when i saw her coming down the bus. i went to the ice-cream shop. hahha :P

its not the first time that i had to wait for her. i mean the last time was close to an hour. and ahr! i mean i dont have anymore time to waste. sorry dont return my time.

yeah, i do hate late people. those that say i will sure be early but late kind. haha anyway should i get anything for MYY? i mean yeah i want to give the angel MYY not devil MYY. i got this feeling that dancing pole knows cancer. i have no idea just the feeling. saw him with the same 'thingy' that cancer had. i dont know what to call that so i called it 'thingy'. i mean that 'thingy' is super rare man. i mean.... or i think too much. but both look like they know each other.

and i suddenly miss kevis. i have no idea but yeah, if you are reading this. i miss you~~ which i know you will read it. cos i said "read my blog. damn freaking thing happen!" haha

is life always in mute? random question. i know. anyway i got to not sleep at 2 or 3 or 4 am every morning. and get not enough sleep. last day of august. i love august~

oh did i mention i went manicure with my mum in the afternoon. had no idea why suddenly she wanted to go. and so we went. anyway i never been there before and she said the company called her to attend it. so we went. and in the end, its like the same boss! so whatever. and guess what, that guy named was eddie. haha i was like change to a. haha damn funny. he was damn funny though. but i dont think i will be going back there. a) its damn far. b) they dont allow to paint black on my nails. they think it wont be nice. but hello, isint it supposed to be what i like?

what do you do when your bff is in love?

PS: squirrel said "endless summer" in her dreams.

me and my parfumée haha.

mum got me my Elizabeth Arden ean parfumée. which i plead her for a long long time. haha and it appear on my table! haha yeah! anyway its not really the scent that i like but. its the thoughts that count. haha

anyway it lovely just looking at it. haha

on another note, oh man, just kill me to make me fall in love with you again. why do i have to smile when i am sad? why do i have to act so invisible when you are around?

PS: squirrel is loving ze parfumée~~

rush is the it thing.

anyway, i am so happy that MYY is such an angel today! yeah! hahaha i hope she stays that forever! saw dancing pole today and he was wondering how was my pieces going on.... hmm he isnt the first person to ask me that. all the past teachers had. damn, am i that bad? hahha

yes! dont have to carry me very heavy bag anymore till sunday! which is a day only. but its very heavy and big! haha got this feeling that MYY wants to kill me today but again let me say, she was an angel! hhahah and i want to say that again! an angel!

its not a every day thing to see her as an angel! the good news is, i done my stuff for snd! haha yeah! all settle but not tune yet! and not print and not type. right! but the rest is done! which is a very good thing to do within the past 24 hours! haha

anyway i got to rush off to watch me tv now, haha

PS: squirrel is so happy that MYY is an angel monster~

and i wonder what monster i will meet on friday! damn cant go movies and shopping! had to rush snd! rush snd! rush rush rush rush rush!

anyway i wonder how the new emu going to be. haha anyway taking a break from this junk of clothes. just dug out my piles of clothes. yes! plies! and plies! just to pick up some for the exam. did the song! it took me a whole hour to reliaze that the disc i am using is a dvd! damn stupid.
oh man. oh man oh man! haha Monster in is killing me! haha anyway i just want to shut her up!

anyway hope woodie gets better. falling sick on the birthday... haiz. haha need to rush off to pack those stuff and its like i am going on a holiday! haha

PS: squirrel is so happy with the purple star!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAE~

i am keeping me alive from all this crazy exam! and MYY is adding on. ahr!!!!!!


anyway few new things about me that i found.


a) i got a sliding jaw. thats what my dentist said. haha i got a sliding jaw.


b) i finish in box. haha i finish food in food. and i am not talking about lunch boxes. i am talking about simple box of fruit or anything. i dont even know it. i was mugging for exams and i was munching on a box of strawberry. the next thing i know, its gone! the whole box! haha the other time i was munching on a box of kids ice-cream. its like a small ball of ice cream and i much on and on. hahaha next is the kiwi. haha


c) i got a new mouse! a new computer mouse. its white and orange. haha seriously it look like a sweet thing. haha


when i dont know whats new about me. haha but i was came across this show. "for one more day" well its a book by mitch. they made it a movie its on abc on 9 sept. so yeah anyway its like seriously if you got one more day to live, who or what will you wish to live with? the story is really nice. got to get the book to read. but i already know the story. haha



and in a show there is a song sang by nick lachey just for that show. the tittle is ordinary day.

song: ordinary day
artist: nick lachey

woo~

I wish I could tell you
The things I never got the chance to
I wish I was with you now
To see you smile again
I wish we had more time
But time goes by so fast

The moment comes and
Then the moment passes by
In the blink of an eye

And If I had one wish~
I Wouldn't ask for money
I wouldn't ask for fame
I wouldn't ask for the power to
Make this world change

If I could have one thing
That one thing that I would chose
Is one more ordinary day with you
With you

I wish I could see you
And be there where my arms could reach you
I wish I could let you know
How much you touch my life
Maybe a little time is all the time we get
The Words we long to say are words that go unsaid
You can go back again

But if I had one wish~
I Wouldn't ask for money
I wouldn't ask for fame
I wouldn't ask for the power to
Make this world change

If I could have one thing
That one thing that I would chose
Is one more ordinary day
With you

I wish we had more time
Time goes by so fast
The moment comes and
Then the moment passes by
In the blink of an eye

But if I had one wish~
I Wouldn't ask for money
I wouldn't ask for fame
I wouldn't ask for the power to
Make this world change, no~

If I could have one thing
That one thing that I would chose
Is one more ordinary day~
Just one more ordinary day with you
With you

*********

if you ask me, what i wish for, for now, all my friends and family members are still with me. and i thank them for that. the only one day to spend with someone(s). i would spend it with my cousin, that guy whom i will tell him everything and tell him sorry for not being there when i know that he only looks for me. and of course my two pets! greenest and green green! i love you both!

well. its a touching song and movie. so people, take time to thank everyone around you and tell those you love them, that you love them. you never know what next hour might be. FYI, this had nothing to do with the teachers reflection. i saw the show on Oprah! haha

and the thing to keep me alive from my damn exams. is to blog!

thanks family and friends for being there.

PS: squirrel cried when the song was played for the very first time!

its a normal school day and i cant sleep

it all started with woodie and her story.... haha anyway now i cant sleep. and the fact that i wanted to sleep when mushroom called. haha damn stupid. and woodie, dont go there. in the wee hours talking about oral. and hopes he does well for oral. hhaha anyway i dont know if i should submit my story. think its super lame and stupid more zany actually.

anyway... thinking of a new story now. and hopefully my phone bills would not hit the roof. haha and if woodie kisses the tree, i will faint. oh i did, hit the floor real hard. ouch!

okay time to dig the gossip hole.

PS: squirrel is walking in circles.

mood: damn pissed!

on a lighter note, i finally am able to not be MIA! i finally can use the Internet. i banned myself on sat to now, but finally on sun, it crashes! hhhahahaa

did i say i was pissed?

you might not know who i am talking about but i sure the person i am talking about will know.
damn idiotic. i mean how can you compare your freaky childhood and mine? you want to compare? compare that you are so freaking lucky but not me. okay! happy!

thats another reason i dont want to get any kids. although kids make you happy when they havent learn to talk back to you. anyway.... i love the idea of me having a blog, most of my anger is gone. haha

anyway after the freaking oral, went to shop and munch with aisah. talked to mae over the phone. its like the scene where two girls chatting all their hearts out with each other. i am glad to have you as a friend. seriously. haha thanks (:

PS: squirrel is learning to fly!

i know the truth about us. so SHUT UP!

soon i will go MIA. but dont bother to look for me. i will be buried with books. damn pissed! ahr how i hate exam and yes i mean snd exam too.

guess i totally forgot that i got lunch box at home today and went for lunch with elaine and shaan. ahr. all those good food and i am still going broke. haha drinking honey water to maintain my voice for exams. snd! should i go on sunday? i got exam on monday! and its really tired man. lets see huh.

damn stupid that i forgot about my lunch box.... ahr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! anyway its good food plus its free! broke man. haha anyway i will do some crappy snd stuff in case Y2 starts her pissing skills.

PS: squirrel does not want to start mugging.

yeah i dont know how many times i said that i am freaking dead. dead for everything. the damn thing is, i think, we will be having crash course. i want to cry man. if miss ying ying were to say anything on sat, i will sure to zip her up. ahr! how much i wish snd was like when we were young. all the joy and exam is like NOTHING! this exam is a huge exam. crappness of my life with this. lucky the exam did not crash with the major exam.

anyway why is my life plan? like its a time table i am following. to do and must do. score well or i will kill you. anyway its so sucky. i dont want to move. again i am complaining but you never listen. its not whats good for me. i want to enjoy life here. so shut up and let me stay here. what will make you let me stay here? in exchange i will do it man. i dont like the reason for moving. you can change the reason if you got that tiny bit of will power, but no, you are always seeking the easy way out. i got it from you. find the easy way out. so when i got into a block road, i will tent to give up. why is this damn exam so freaking important? damn!

this is life, huh. anyway i just want to run away. like the song i am listening to. anyway got to start mug again. see you when i see you. (:

PS: squirrel is starring in the blankness of life.

when you are done, even without a reason, will you still hang around the other?

anyway, i am so officially broke. return kenny 10 bucks i owe him for cycling and sushi. and also got him a present, i am so broke! good food on sunday really burnt my pocket. haha anyway, i got him the same present i got randy. hope mushroom likes it. randy likes it. i dont know. if you are wondering whats that. i think, if i can remember, its some sort of lotion. dont ask me why i will get that for a guy, okay two. well i dont know too. just got the feeling if you spend too much time in an air condition room too long, you will kinda get dry skin as the air condition takes away the moister in the skin. i was shopping in a nature store. what you want me to think? haha but seriously when i was walking home just now, i was thinking. crap, did i gave him the right present. or it will be more suitable for a girl?

i finally understand mole. in chemistry. the reason no tutor can stay long tutoring me is... haha you got to ask kenny. but seriously have to thank kenny for a wonderful job. haha i still got the look of my maths and chinese tutor. when i was very young, like 9 i think, i got this chinese teacher. he is really kind. he taught me some chinese words and i kept asking why and where did you get that word from. dont you ever want to know why a is write like that? and why we put 1 in front of 2. no the other way round? that was what i ask my maths teacher. and i even ask my math teacher why is + is add, not something else. all my answer wasnt answered. and i cant search it on the net. if you know the answer, please tell me. tag to tell me. thanks (:

anyway i am broke. why am i always broke in august? lots of present to get this month. and lots of celebration to come with.

anyway happy birthday to roasted mushroom!!!

i am so broke. damn.. why do i want to enjoy sushi on friday? haha but i will stop eating it for like months. see the way wilbur, kenny and shaan. okay maybe not shaan. but wilbur. yes wilbur. the load he eats..... wow! the font size isnt working... hmm...

PS: squirrel hugging on to squirrel's squirrely bank.

remembers the past.

what past?

i was making myself a cup of hot chocolate, while waiting for the water to boil, i ate some of the chocolate powder and it reminds of me when i was young.

all the performance and stuff, we used to hide in the backstage or it is called "our rooms" to wait for the night to fall and hit the stage. the thing is, we had to be there bright and early to do stage blocking and stuff. i was the youngest in that group so i tend to get all the attention. i remembered this girl, she was older than me by 7 years, yes we still kept in touch. she was the one who brought me to eat the powder. the packet before you pour the hot water to make the hot drink. well, at that time, waiting for hot water is equal waiting forever. so to take things easy and have a simple snack, we will pour the powder into our mouth and drink bottled water. but when i did that at home, my mum kinda forbid me to do so..... haha those days.

anyway there was this once, i brought mr. ducky with me to the performance. we were playing hide and seek and i was carried away that i left mr. ducky behind and when the game was over, i when looking for him. i cant find him. in the end, i stood at the corner and started crying and everyone came to comfort me and helped me look for mr. ducky. this guy, he came up to me and told me it was in the cupboard. i never stop crying even when i saw my ducky. it was when she passed me the milo powder and sweet talk me to stop crying. haha anyway the make-up artist had a hard time to remove my make-up and put it back on again. haha

those day. but after a few performances, she left the group to go oversea to study. and soon after i left the group, only to focus on snd! hahaha yeah~ love snd ! hhaha i was the only one from that group who is still in snd. haha amazing huh. haha joined together but they quit snd i quit that other group. hmm...

anyway, now i hate Y2. ahr! ass. i bet she is like still upstairs when she stood us up. hello, we did text saying that we were on the way. its not like we were not going! i want to change teacher! change to dancing pole, even if we are late, he will be later. hahha

PS: squirrel needs to use the loo.

so when you gloat that you work backstage before in A play, i acted like a ZILLIONS times. and when i never say anything about your "fame", you go on talking about it, trying to belittle me. well, i just want you to think that you are soooooo GGGRREEAATT at that time. those marks left on the wall, i can tell you all their stories. and now i make myself sound so old.

hey hey i totally forgot to add this. i knew it like weeks ago when the emmy's nominates list is out.

yes, you read my mind. my favourite actor is in it. haha yeah! hope he wins! Nominated for Outstanding Lead Actor in a Comedy Series for pushing daises. haha its the emmy, people! haha not only that he is also nominated for the Saturn Award for best actor. haha i know it got nothing to do with me. but i sure hope he wins! haha go lee pace! (:

okay.

PS: squirrel is looking at me what that eye...

abc fall promo 2008! haha yeah! all my favourite shows are back! private practice, grey's anatomy, pushing daises and brothers and sister! cant wait cant wait cant wait~~

but on the other hand, in fall, my exams are also turning up! ahr! so crappy. damn! anyway its been so long since the last season so i hope that seriously this time all the hanging question will be answered! haha cant wait for the shows! yeah to private practice. yeah to grey's anatomy. yeah to pushing daises. yeah to brothers and sisters!

haha i haven't even finish watching close to home. i mean season one. i think it ended at season 2. anyway cant wait. love the promo video! its so damn nice. i meant abc fall promo 2008. haha

anyway back to life.

i am aching all over me. running and cycling, back to back, cant make it. i dont think i used any of my shoulder muscle but i got the stupid pain on my shoulders. talking about aches, if i dont start mugging on snd, i will have hearing problems tomorrow. gold isnt that simple huh.

time to do snd now. snd will like end only after the exam! hope emu will be nice. haha

PS: squirrel is blasting music!

should i blog?

okay i only like the date today! haha its 080808! haha damn cool! haha next year will be like 090909!

the main purpose to post is cos so that the date is 080808!

okay i am done! (:

PS: squirrel is sleeping, leo is so full! haha

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME AGAIN!!

AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN!!!

and a zillions more times!

haha hahah!! anyway its me birthday! me rule myself! hahah duh! haha anyway thanks like a zillions times to everyone who made my day! haha

anyway i am so happy and happy! but sad on the other hand that i am getting much older! haha. woke up with 26 birthday wishes! thanks guys(: and ze gaint monkey from the 10 people! aisah, alessia, alvin, elaine, kenny, munirah, shaan, vanessa, yi ning and zi ying! ze monkey is in trouble now! hahha some monsters are snatching it. wow! its my birthday present man. hands off peeps~

anyway had lots of celebration this year! haha starting from sat, not counting that woodie who really flew away, got celebration with my dear parents. thanks them for bringing me into the world and also take all my crappy nonsenses. on sunday with beloved mae and cancer. mon with joel.O and the others. haha

today, got a surprise birthday song by the girls and also the rest of those sitting near our class table and also many bash too. haha anyway got my 17 bars snickers from randy! no wait now its like 4 left okay 3 okay going to 2. haha my 13 bars of snickers! give them back to me! and also with randy, jannet, nat and jas later(:

the only thing that will make my day is to have a celebration with woodpecker and kevis(:

he actually sent me birthday wishes. despite the fact that his birthday was like.... anyway move along...

did i tell you, i got kick out in physic today? i did one paper out of 8. haha.. what, this few day my time is mostly spending with cakes and food! good food! hhahaha. and lots of presents. anyway i am taking my time now to reflect on my past one year. goodbye sweet sixteen hello semi-sweet seventeen! haha

anyway got to do my physic. oh man, its with shaan. okay time to slack! haha its my birthday man, its my day! haha slacking with start and end pretty soon! haha i know i had two full hour to do it, but i was playing crazy taxi and bagging yong siang in the recycle box and trying to drag him pass a class. in the end, henry made it. haha

do you still remember when you are young, your birthday party? where all your friends come with tons of present? and when they are gone, you climb into the pile of presents and rip open the wrapper and also at the same time throwing out those present you hate? haha i remembered a very cute birthday party in the fast food restaurant. some close friends about 20 plus hang out and screaming at the top of our lungs... those day....

thanks again to everyone! and those who send wishes through msn... haha! i mean, what can they not send? my nick says : say happy birthday to me!

PS: squirrel is munching on a walnut cake! hhahaha leo is roaring so loudly at the white duck!

bye sweet sixteen. hello sucky seventeen! okay its not really sucky but i think it is. i will be getting much older and thus to face life from another angle! which is totally suck. for now! dont want to grow up! dont wanna grow up.

thanks for all those wishing me a early birthday wishes! thanking will be made on the day itself! hahaa

anyway getting older is not really that bad. haha at least you got friends all around you. like my beloved mae who msn me thousands of love you love you! haha and also cant wait for your birthday! the augustist. also mae, refill your mind. haha.

should i even go snd on Thursday? its after exam? losing my voice like really really soon. note taken. not to make miss ying ying mad. creepy! anyway hope like to a thousand i will do well for exam. and not to see emu again! haha

anyway. i love myself. spending my last few hours of being sixteen! haha getting older addie! haha (: (: (: love me love me love me love me love me!!!

PS: squirrel is counting the seconds! love woodie!

very disappointed!

anyway, i should be blogging about how fun my celebration of me birthday is but it never happen... woodie had a last minute thingy..

anyway got to go snd again on sunday! stupid exam is so freaking near! 3 sept 2008. ahr!! did my speech today. and guess what, i got a never friend. he cant talk but had a very long nose. is this freaking pino! damn stupid. had to use that for my speech! ahr! the best part is my speech have this really cool attitude. but the pino freaks me. seriously! and its my idea to use it in the first place.

got to do my speech now.
tata.

PS: SQUIRREL IS DISAPPOINTED TOO!

i love august!

yeah yeah yeah! haha anyway trying to understand the concept of my speech. okay waiting for my food to be done so kinda post a some crap here anyway its the first day of august! haha anyway cheers people! (:

PS: squirrel loves august too!

That you're not not not gonna get any better
You won't won't won't you won't get rid of me never
Like it or not, even though she's a lot like me
We're not the same
And yeah yeah yeah I'm a lot to handle
You don't know trouble, I'm a hell of a scandal
Me, I'm a scene, I'm a drama queen
I'm the best damn thing that your eyes have ever seen

and also...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEREMY!!!!