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my grandpa.

he went in for op yesterday afternoon and was in deep pain when we visited him yesterday night. the look on his face which i will never forget . both my mum and i were sick but she sat beside him all through the night till mid-night. while i was kicking a big fuss over some very small matter. i badly needed the sleep. my medication is making me really tired and sleepy and i was still running a fever when i was there with grandpa. his fever went up to 38.9 degree before we left. compare to his, mine was a minor case.

dad and brother slept in the waiting room. i cant get any sleep there. i mean, just look at him. you will feel the pain i felt too. he was so much bigger size when we saw him on mother's day than became smaller on father's day and now. i can only say he is really really small. his head was shaking all the time when i sat beside him, patting him to sleep. doctor had to take his blood and jab him and do all sort of things to him. but before we left, he was much better. the pain simply had gone from his eyes and soon after, i hope he sleeps.

on the way back home, i wonder why does this happen to him. where is the grandpa whom i used to make him laugh because i cant simply say the language he used to say. i remember that time. it was mum's birthday and she wanted to bring both grands out for lunch. as usual, grandpa didn't want to go and so i had to convince him to go but however he never went but it was worth it as i saw his smile.

then on father's day i saw him shaking and it hit me. he really age. he age so much that i wonder what the hell happen. there is no glow on him anymore. nothing just a pale person sitting on the wheelchair. he was sick. very sick. that sickness that made me lost a cousin. even their sickness was different. but both fall into the same category.

this time he fell and broke his hip. at this age. a very very old age. very very very very old. (give him a hundred and he will return you a twenty) or that's the last age i remember. anyway.... he was cold. yesterday very cold and old and it hurts me. but i don't know why i just want him to get better.

PS: there is nothing more to say......