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haha anyway using joel.O's new computer! haha anyway met him for notes. lazy to write all those notes so cope his! anyway we are going to have a stupid lunch and dinner. you call breakfast and lunch, brunch. then what do you call lunch and dinner? haha anyway this computer is damn stupid! i am so not use to it. anyway i prefer my acer lappie and mae's compare to his! i still cant get use to mac's laptop.

move along....

to mae: i have no idea if its going to happen a not. but i wont leave you! you are my soul that shares all my memories. anyway i cant ask you to come over too, if you do, R will be damn lonely! haha anyway dont kill me on sat okay! haha we will go celebrate my birthday and then yours! (: i will still be your maid of honor and the only one to bring mud to the wedding! haha see ya!!

anyway the last fire drill in the school today! haha well there is nothing to blog about, apart from the fact this year there is no sun above my head and also it happen during lit. i actually know when it is going to happen! haha over heard the teachers talking about it. but i would like to blog about my first fire drill in the school. the first year in the school. so the teacher kinda announced that the fire broke out at the needlework room. and my whole class went to walk pass the needlework room! haha and the teacher standing there was like shouting at us! hhaha

anyway i still want to tell you. take a number and get in line to hate me! dont roll your eye when you see me and act like a hurt puppy in front of others.

guess what! i can do the poa paper all by myself! the first time. did i say i hate poa to the core? haha this mock test is damn fun, me and roasted mushroom were like disturbing each other. and the teacher was like. "do yourself, kenny" haha damn stupid. from add maths to poa! WMKA!! haha (:

crap! got a white hair. its a white hair! i am getting older );
this year, one of the birthday wishes, not to grow any white hair!

PS: squirrel wants a big big nut-cake! haha (:

Thanks Joel.O for letting me to max out your battery! (:

anyway i am so damn freaking bored! haha
anyway i am so damn freaking bored! haha

okay i typed those two lines not copy and paste!
i think my blog skin got a tiny bit of problem. okay a lot of problem. i the pictures cant be seen and thus some of you cant enter my blog. i know jannet had been nagging the whole day! haha sorry.. anyway i think i will change a blog skin when i am free or during my birthday. with is in a week's time. yes i am hinting! get a present or i will kill you. kidding! haha

anyway i think i am so damn dead with all my subjects. the final time to do homework for this school and the final school set exam and the final corrections. i am going out of this school pretty soon. the very first day i stepped into the school seems like yesterday. oh man, time seriously fly! and so does a friendship. crap that *****! anyway i know she will like still read my blog so yeah. seriously, grow up! i mean what are we? ten? please, friend, dont friend, friend, dont friend? you plucking flower petals is it? damn stupid. grow up man. if you are unhappy or jealous that i never spend more time with you as you think that we should spend more time together, then i am so sorry. you should open up more! i mean i cant read your mind. and also, please grow up! laughing with my enemy wont make me jealous, it makes me think that you are such a nitwit.

get in line to hate me.

anyway i hate the fact that i am growing older and i hate the fact that there are 85% that i will be ship off to a broading school. its not my results or anything. it doesnt matter. is about my life, my future, if anything were to happen. i will be studying a total new language and this time round i will have to study my country's history like how i studied theirs. but it will be damn simply though. haha but still damn sad. i hope this day never happen. i dont want to leave this place! but its not up to me to decide. why cant parents let their child make their own move? i can live my life alone if the whole family move over! i dont want to move away! I WANT TO STAY HERE!!!! I WANT TO BE WITH WOODIE AND THE REST OF THE FOREST!

i am crying but do you care?
you think its the best for me. the fact is, it is not!

its a totally new place. i never study there before! i thought i was never going to move. but 85% of the chance that i will move. i hope to finish up my studies here then move over. at least i can still use english. hello, i flunk french! or whatever language they use. i cant even master chinese and now a brand new language? damn~ if its to find kevis, i wont mind. but to wear jacket during summer? no way! i love winter but no way! if that time were to come. i cant even say no, can i?

move along....

anyway munirah killed sarah ann. yup she killed her. anyway its damn stupid though. english lesson is the most nothing to do lesson ( i mean with a teacher) so sarah ann was wandering around on the table and the both of us trapped her. anyway after 10 mins of fun with her and a paper, munirah accidentally killed her.

R.I.P
Sarah Ann
28 july 2008 - 28 july 2008
8.30am - 8.40am
its the best pet ever for 10 mins.

okay if you are wandering who or what the heck is sarah ann, well, its an ant. yup an ant! haah

PS: squirrel is not moving, no matter what! woodpecker is finally back! :D

got my speech now. finally! wow she used some of my lines.

in this case, she rather just do for me. with she did. oh man i miss woodpecker so much!!

i am crazy about english bull terrier! the white little doggy! oh man. i love white now! haha anyway i am so damn freaking pissed with all the stuff i had to do within the given time. anyway i done my crapy love short story! its totally crappy. haha anyway i will post it up some day. but for now i am still editing it. so wait! haha

anyway skipping snd for function on sat. and miss ying ying is so forgiving. not implying the part where she said : come on sun! ahr!!! damn shitty but after the exam. i wont see her till next year i think! hahah and i hope dancing pole is taking over class. that's for next year.

PS: squirrel is screaming at the top of her lung.

oh man and now mae had flew away in the morning. miss ya!

haha broke my new record. read a book straight for 2 hours. a very thin book though. haha

anyway, move along. still waiting for my speech! and i am thinking to skip snd this week. damn tired of everything. and i need my sleep! i had been awake like half of my sleep. and i had a hard time going back to sleep. anyway did some normal routine. and its the first time i love it!

anyway today lesson was a damn bored lesson! like totally nothing to do in school! damn tired now. so not going to blog for more and plus i am still pissed over the fact that . thinks that..... ahr why am i even thinking about this? its not my fault to cook this mess. you did okay!

anyway i dont care if u are much happier with * or whatever shit i dont care! i dont freaking care! you are a faker and will always be a faker. so is *, thats why you two make a perfect match!
as a leo, i am damn sad to let go a friend. but again leo is roaring so yup, i will say this again. i hate you two to the core.

i am pissed that i am always the one to ask what happen. and i think this will be the last time. i know i said that like all the cold war we had. but this is the last. thats it. okay. and plus u think i am talking about you, i am not.

PS: squirrel is counting the days to squirrel's birthday.

a match stick scratches his head. then he died.

anyway i am so glad that finally i am not your friend. since we dont talk much. lets see. this is so what i am going to do. "dont talk to me. i am giving you a silent treatment!" and as soon i say it, i will turn away and then back " oh wait. make it permanent." and turn and walk out like i won a long race.

talk about that later. it had been ages since i log on to my laptop. so let me do a quick recap.

sat
went to mac to do homework and finally i got all those pictures. we snd people really had nothing to do. mae helped me with some of my speech and i am glad that finally i pass it up to miss ying ying. yeah by email. which is so stupid. i should had done that like days ago. by what the heck. i only started doing on fri. and i helped her with chinese. yes chinese! i dont think i did help her. my chinese is so sucky!

haha anyway didnt stay to dine after snd like we always does. mae had to go to the airport to fetch some exchange students and i had to rush home to have a cancer's birthday party.

anyway cancer took my soft turtle. which i will buy again if i return back to the shop. i ate like freaking alot that i told myself i need to run on sunday.

sunday
yup i went to run. haha finally yeah. haha i ran like about 30 mins but i spend like an hour. which mean i kinda ran like 10 mins then jog and then ran again. anyway i finally did my ss homework all by myself. haha. after that went to randy's pool party. his birthday party at the pool. rich kid! haha dont kill me! i dont know if its because i ran before i came to the party, food over there didnt seem to attract me. haha!

monday which is today.

anyway went to school super tired and aisah is down with fever again. hope she gets well. anyway the thing is suddenly really feel that i am in the same school as woodie. i mean it will be so great and woodie can know how many fakers there are. i mean like those dolls where you smash them on the wall. they still return with a smile on the face.

anyway i finished reading 'the scarlet letterman' haha and i really feel that i am miranda in the story. not the part where she is party fictional. anyway the fact that how she hate parker which in a sense. parker = .

cant wait for the thrid book to be out! i love the last page of the book " from two boys to none - in five seconds flat. That has got to be a new record." anyway there is something in the book that i like. 'Your attutude. Your style. MTV Books : Totally your type.' totally my type man! its sound totally me. like how i hate . = how miranda hates parker.

anyway i am so going to send you this song. "we used to be friends" by the dandy warhols.

a long time ago we used to be friend

i am hope a long time ago i never knew you! yes i know you read my blog and yes i am talking about you. anyway i am so pissed with you. i wonder what spell had ~ casted on you. but then, i am so happy you fall for it. anyway just so you know. this time i hate you two to the core. and i am so wish that we never and will never meet again. and when we do. i hope i am the one standing at your tomb, laughing all the way. yes i am mean. i am mean when you step on my tail.

you were the one that roll eyes at me and i was the dumb kind soul that thinking that you will one day find the right you. damn i felt stupid for putting up with all your temper. trying to be zen. but seeing your stupid number on my cell that said missed call. i dont even bother to call back. i will let it ring. see its ringing. and i am not picking it up! and you know nothing about me. the way you think i am is only 30% of me. and plus if you like someone who is fab. like me tell you ~ is not that fab as you think ~ is. you can see it for yourself. i know alot about ~ and all those dirty little secrets that she kept. i can spill it all. and if i do, it will be so messy and ugly. but, i am the bigger person.

plus my fab and fame, you will never get a chance to smell it!

zen addie be zen!

got to change a new name for ~ i like this symbol shall change it to *. those who know will know. those who dont, ask me. maybe i will tell.

crap~ woodpecker going to fly! boy i miss her so so much already. haiz changing song to "leavin' " and i am going to try to start to write that love story. haha but i cant think of any that got to do with romance!

PS: squirrel wishes woodpecker a nice trip. and hope woodie gets squirrel something!! haha and also, squirrel already misses you. anyway 99% fat free! haha miss you! have fun!

i totally give up. i dont even know whats the topic about and i am crapping all the way. its only two paragraph of my own words the rest is miss ying ying's. ahr i am so dead.

meeting mae later like in 15 hours time in which i will spend like 12 hours sleeping. anyway going to rush homework with her before snd and the thing is we cant spend late nights as we always do..... :( but we get to chill before snd.

oh man she is so going to leave me alone again! damn now everyone is flying high. leaving me all alone again. damn sad. going away for a week. means that snd i will be alone for crash course! pray crystabel will be there. haha.. hey! i dont want to be alone okay. i need another soul there.

anyway i think i will wrap up my speech. think i will use mae's laptop and do it later then.

PS: squirrel said : " jelly beans and hearts!"

i felt that i did. wasted all those time...

i totally hate . and ~! like a 100%!

anyway i was so tired. wasted 1 hour before sports then till 6 plus in the evening. i felt like i did nothing at all. wasted in school...anyway the only thing i did was to take non-stop of photos with aisah and oh oh... please! my ss teacher, almost made me blind and now you said that its the first time that you see me in school studying. its not like i don't do that in school, its when i did i grew pimples! like i did today. finally within the few hours waiting for the class tee to come. i did my ss homework. and in the end i really felt like i am did nothing at all. but the ice cream made my day! haha.

called randy to nag all the way home. thanks randy!! and also to tell him, his birthday present is screwed. i am so sorry. kate passed the wrong present to the wrong person. i am so pissed. with the fact that the class tee wasnt the one that we plan it should be and now i had to rush to here and there to get all the things done within this few hours. and dont remind me. i know i havent finish my speech! and now i know ziying felt really pissed with the shirt company. i felt pissed too! you made me waste my time. i could have do my speech! ahr!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway i am glad that the loser had not come up with any plan. and randy was laughing all the way just now. when we did our presentation ( in which i switch my group) and came up with nothing. nothing totally blank. the couple standing on the stage looking blank. end result: nothing. oh yes i am so happy!

went to dental. i really stuck with the name of a metal mouth. it had been 5 years since! oh gosh! and i am so tired! i had to rush speech and do all the planing! GOLD MEDAL this year! save me. this is the year. i need to make the cut man. if not i am screwed.

PS: Squirrel is restless!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CANCER!!!!!!!!!!

its not that bad actually. but my graph paper was wet! i dont who to thanks but i push everything to wilfred. like what he uses to do....

anyway no class tee today. hopefully i will get it tomorrow.i dont know why i am blogging almost everyday. and oh you, i am very happy !

anyway i finished reading "wuthering high" its the 1st book. did i tell you. i read the 2nd book on the way home when i got it. then i cant get what the book is talking about. the 2nd book, in which i will be reading later, "the scarlet letterman".

i love the book so super much. the fact that Cara Lockwood, the author, created all this place which all the teacher is dead. and the fact that the writer able to create an alternative universe why he or he creates a story. in which in this book, most of the teacher are mainly famous writers: Charlotte Bronte,Virgina Woolf and many more. (i am kinda lazy to flip page by page to find the names).. and more.....

glad i got the book! anyway i got so carried away that i will be getting a moo. i hope is the one i really like. then i will carry it everywhere and but it cant follow me oversea but then. it will look really nice! i really hope i get it for me birthday! (am hinting.. aisah!!!!) haha

anyway got this really bad headache now. think i will get nap before meeting kate for randy's present hunt. and yes randy, hippo it is!

yes! tomorrow is cancer's birthday. and cancer, i want to go London!

PS: love squirrel! (:

not wedding is Wednesday! haha

let's see

well first i totally forgot to bring my english book today and thanks so much jay! i went around looking for someone to lend me the book. but i felt bad. its like i dont really know him but i borrowed his book. well thanks yeah... and why do i care if i bring my english book?

and its time for ss which by the way i am so going to make you pay for my plastic surgery fees! well well. this is what happen. my teacher was giving out the paper and then the paper flew and gave me a kiss on my eye. and she said :" are you okay dear? i am so sorry. if i am a guy i will marry you." what a second... WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY?????? gosh! its just a paper cut! and you said that? erm....... (cant continue)

i am so hopping to get the red moo~~ haha its a moo along day today with aisah. i am really thick skin huh. but lets see who will remember my birthday this year? haha do you know squirrel and leo shared the same birthday with me? and i had to get them a present too.

during accounting, which most of the time i am spending looking at the class fund, then suddenly roasted mushroom went on saying about some really funny joke. it made the whole class laugh even the teacher. which come to say. she laughs, her nose turn red. haha.. anyway glad that the class fund is correct.

anyway got to thank roasted mushroom for those sweets he gave me that will make me really hyper later. haha and you the EL omniscient, i think you got to take up a hearing lesson. also a lesson to on how not to be a omniscient!

yes! hopefully i will be able to get the class tee by tomorrow~~ moo ahead!

PS: squirrel is not talking to me. wonder why~

anyway i was so damn happy today. dont know why. maybe is the nice and sweet sms i gotten this morning.

let's see what i had done today :

got a pen drawing fight with roasted mushroom! haha dont mess with me... i already said i ROAR!

haha well look at me. how blur i am. i was supposed to meet kate today but i totally forgot. i went home straight after lunch and present hunt with aisah that i totally forgot to meet her. and know she is really pissed! sorry kate o kate... got a message from kevis that he is not coming back ;'( oh man i cant wait to see him! why cant he make some good dean grades and come back?

anyway this is for woodpecker. since squirrel is too lazy to send her message!

Dear woodpecker(:,
hey woodie, i had a wonderful idea of planning your wedding. haha anyway got this small intro on R's traditional wedding and i thought of a wonderful idea of mix and match. anyway i wished we are in the same school! and neighbours too! i really miss that sleepover we had! its only a few more days to chill hour. hang in there woodie!

love,
squirrel<33

squirrel really has to thank me for typing this. anyway i am planing to steal those nuts later... muhahahahahha.

move along....

got really pissed with someone today. please, stick to your own job. dont help me. cos if you do, you are just making everything more messy. thanks and no thanks (for your help).

wow i am so close to be a year older. this mean i am getting OLD!!!! ahr!!! i saw this red cow that is really cute! haha i want that for my birthday! like anyone will buy for me... anyway aisah is so nice she said she will get it. she said its better to get me something i like rather than something i dont like. see... this is why i love her. haha my cheerful buddy!!! (:

PS: squirrel said :" oh addie, its a tuesday!"

that ass called again. i hate him! we shared the same birthday and yet i hate him. i dont know whats the relationship with me and him. i just know that i hate him! i dont know why i hate him, but just that i know that every time i see him, i hate him. thats it. dont try to ask me why i hate him or ask me to learn to like him, i will never will.

move along...

got to rush my speech again. lucky me i will have miss ying ying to guide me along. haiz... dont mention my speech. i will have to compete with (someone) again. i hate that fame brought us apart. but i think you never know the real colours of the person. but its okay! i got my dearly woodpecker/rabbit, woodpecker/rabbit will not let anything come in between us, right woodpecker/ rabbit? oh and squirrel needs to dig squirrel's nest to look for a thumb drive.

anyway got a new watch from my dearly cancer. what does he meant when he gave me a sport watch? hello you of all people should know that your dearly leo cant run! anyway its much better than my current baby-G watch. And i do want to go to London!

PS: squirrel is fighting with leo!

What was that line in that one movie?
When he looked at her like it would last forever
Said it to her face that he'd do whatever it took
To be her love but above all what he wanted most
Credits roll. Curtains close.
Then you whispered in my ear
Together we're one in a million (Don't be afraid)
Together we're one in a million (Don't be afraid)

i love sat! of all the days in the week i love sat! you know why~

i am so hoping to get another laptop with the cam on it, just like mae. love her laptop. anyway she brought her laptop to snd and we all started taking photo with it. and it was so much fun! haha. picture perfect.

lappie is finally get back its health. maybe i mention of sending it away to a long long holiday and never see me again. so its regaining its health.

ahr! now i do really have to do my speech and exam are coming! oh man. i am so damn dead on the 3! i am the first of the whole class (i think) i got to score like the best now. no more slacking for both exams! save me!!!

did i say i love my hair?

anyway got two books today and i was reading one chapter on the bus. and i got this really bad neck ache now. cant wait for mae to send me those photo.

"who is (her name)'s best friend?"
" its adeline."
"oh (her name) is also doing (speech)."

wow!! it was so yesterday! it was so last few years! i am no longer her best friend. we dont even talk anymore! but what can i say. i dont know why she had change so much. because of fame? i dont know. i dont even know what are we. friends?

PS: squirrel is watching "king arthur".

this is so damn stupid. my lappie crash and it took me like days to fix it. and i will take this time to blog cos i am so pissed! its all the mail that i got causes this trouble and i hate it. whats with the computer world that make me so.... the damn virus is omnipresent! ahr!!!! why cant computer be made easier? i am so going to change my laptop. hopping to get a tablet instead. so kids (like i am not..) this is a lesson you must learn : don't open mails without reading the tittle.

i am so hoping that this laptop can work till i get a new one which is some months later. no i think i will beg for my birthday then. and i have no idea why i finished two essay. hmm.. i guess my lappie needs a new juju man.... and i am becoming more irascible now. this is so not helping! i seriously need a new computer... laptop. DEAR MUM AND DAD GET ME A NEW LAPTOP!!!!! like you guys will ever read this. and you better not!

anyway i am so dead for everything now. miss ying ying got my speech book and she said she got the whole speech in her head. yeah baby in her head. now if i screw it up i am so screwed! i am so going to crap along the way in the exam and don't ask me to use the paper again. cant i just talk? isn't that what talk should be?

wonder what the sender of the mail had visited . why do i have to catch the virus? its like i am not sick enough! and my lappie has to join the club? i am lacking a sense of humor these days! maybe not. haha i love today's english lesson. SO NOT THE TEACHER (you-dont-know-me), i don't even know what he is talking about. so there is such a word that zi ying does not know (at that time) and munirah was like "so do i" (which is a word we lately pick up when having E. maths. need to caps the E part... haha) and i was like. "you will use it when you get married" then once again. what was i thinking????!!!??? haha no sense of humor. or maybe there is. i dont know i was busy closing my eyes and making more wrinkle on my face. right.... and when he said there wont be english in the evening, i went blank. like i was so hoping to have english in the afternoon. and he saw it... whatever. my mind is like my lappie. one word : SCREWED!

damn damn... now i wonder how am i going to live in the age where no computer or cell phone ( wait where is my cell?) or and cyber stuff. and it remind me of gen-d. haha cyber world. i miss that year, its like you fail its not your fault. its the group fault... oh..... how nice.... (:

anyway got a new CD. don't know why i am so into "aly and aj" now. and i don't know aj is our age... (crap now you know my age. like i care!) she has the same birthday as aisah. or aisah has the same birthday as her? talking about aisah. hope she get better. and i am so sorry to pass my gems to you. hey you don't get this gems anywhere. you can only find it at the little square table of mine. ( again what was i thinking? i think i really lost my mind... or have i found my mind?)

well well. how it doesn't crash anymore. please i beg you...

suddenly don't know why i really miss green green. i mean i use to have you by my side all day and listen to me nag about everything and when i am bored i will play with you.. now its only an empty tank. i don't know. its filled with paper frog. maybe the ants will have fun there.

PS : squirrel has lost all hope on the lappie. squirrel is looking forward to sat :D

stupid him! i really want you to understand. take everything and pushes blame to others. stop making yourself sounds so breakable in front of the teachers or the class or anyone. cos you are not. you were the one to came out with the idea of such unsuitable a match. also, i had already told you to think about it over and over again. and also told you to end it asap. you were the one who said that you can continue with all odds and now you told me to sit back and relax and at my back blaming me that i should be the one doing other stuff now? when the teachers ask you to pass some of the work loads to others in the group, you said you can handle. and FYI you only need to balance one plate while i had to balance two when all this has ended. i am even helping you to do your work while i could have follow the others and follow and do nothing? if presenting is so hard for you why in the first place raise your hand to such an idea? and when called into action you turn and look at me, waiting for me to save your sorry ass. also you think i never understand your life? than try understanding mine. and when randy offer to help too, you turn him down. and also by writing something on the board and also being a teacher's pet, i do understand who you are referring to, just continue to make yourself so dumb. i just hope you will get into trouble in the future than now. so stop making excesses to let the world think that you were the victim. and also what i said on the phone yesterday i mean it. but let me warn you, i am in control of the game now.

chienne, don't think so highly of yourself okay cos you are not. and also you think i never try it out before? hahaha let me tell you, when you try mine, within a few hours you will give up. so before i really roar you zip. cos i will make you and hurt you so badly that you wish you should never cross your mind to mess with me. also look around and see who is at your side. i hope you had endless nights of nightmare. and tell this to your boyfriend. zip before i roar too. don't hide behind your boyfriend cos now it just make the two of you the dumb one in the class. also i can be a bitch too if i want to. so dry your tears and tell the truth. you make me suffer you die. also chienne, stop barking.

PS: squirrel is mad~! so very mad.

yeah yeah and yeah for me..


went shopping with shaan in town after meeting the guy who does the class tee and also after that rain where snappy went black! hmmm anyway went to zara and saw this dress that i really like but in the end i wasnt allow to get it... ahr!!!!

anyway sorry shaan, cant find the shirt for you. its really nice and i so hope you can find it at the other store.


while waiting for the food to come and i dont know why i can go online?


anyway trying to max my brother's mac now. haha came across this:


Lights, camera, action! Watch out, world, here comes Leo the Lion. No one is able to command center stage the way a Leo can. Leo natives were born to entertain, just as they were born to dazzle their associates with their delightful smiles and sunny personalities. Leo is the most romantic sign in the Zodiac, and it's hard to find a guy or gal who doesn't melt at one glance from the formidable and sexy Lion or Lioness. Leo individuals are the living embodiment of their Zodiac symbol, the heart, and are wonderful friends and lovers.


yeah for me as i said haha


yes i am a leo! and i also roar when i am pissed. haha anyway back to the shopping! haha i love shopping!! been coughing like crazy now and i know everyone is looking at me. hey dont you ever cough? went to the doctor just now before going to zara.

oh mae, we should go zara to look for the dress! haha anyway does zara sound familiar?

anyway i can dont go to school but i have go cos of the money and deposit. damn the flu. ahr cos i was caught in the rain! what the crap! i am so damn weak. leo cant be weak! suddenly got this thought. you dont kill me. haha anyway i was thinking if i would find a leo guy and have leo kids? than the whole family will the dazzling!

PS: squirrel is sick...

this is so touching....

i was searching for Bach harpsichord and i came across this song "ballade pour Adeline" and i am seriously love that song! haha so i went to know more about this song. partly its because it had my name in it so this is it:

Ballade pour Adeline is a 1976 instrumental composed by Paul de Senneville and played by Richard clayderman. Paul de Senneville composed the piece as a tribute to his newborn daughter, Adeline.

isn't it cool? just too bad it wasn't for me... :( anyway i really love this song.

anyway i am back to enjoy this lovely piece of music..

PS: squirrel is begging woodpecker to teach her.

ahr i am damn broke now... haiz

i don't know if i can spend anymore on monday.... cos i will be so damn dead for the whole week! anyway i felt damn happy!! shopping is a really fun thing to do! haha anyway sat is a fun and peaceful day! haha its cool and fun! and i need to SAVE! it will kill me if i don't! anyway damn happy with everything i do today! haha

i am still wondering what i bought that cost me a big hole in the pocket. haiz anyway its not that bad though but cos i haven't been spending so much within this few months (not counting the holiday... wait its a all paid expense trip!) and suddenly today's spending seem it had gotten me a big heartache.

really glad with what i have bought! but i am so damn jealous about that bag! its so posh and its not mine! ahr!!! if only the shoe had gotten my size, i would have gotten that bag! haha anyway i am so looking forward to next sat but there is this sat that i will not be looking forward too. mae will be away and then i will have no one to go chill out with!

i really had to cut that extra pounds! haha went to see granddad just now. glad that he felt much better compare to the last time i saw him. but he seems afraid. i don't know why he seems afraid maybe its because he was really lonely in the hospital. haiz...

i really hope R doesn't read my blog cos i will be really dead if R reads the past post. R will kill me and hate me forever! i mean no harm just an inside joke... but if R figures it out, i am so screwed! but then, R wont right... right R?

it was then when mae said that one of her old classmate knows one of snd people. it was at that time i felt that the world is such a small place. i don't know if i can go out on monday cos i am so damn broke now. haiz anyway i got to mug for snd and school and i am so running out of time. if there is only one item to mug for, i will be on track but now its like have two plates on the head to balance.

well i think i shall do some stuff now.

PS: squirrel is still on the hunt for a tree but woodpecker is counting the days!

Squirrel has always felt that woodpecker’s opinion of matrimony was not exactly like her own, but she had not supposed it to be possible that, when called into action, she would have sacrificed every better feeling to worldly advantage.

okay i been typing straight from memory of my prose and it sucks cos i had to find all the caps and marks and all the paragraphing. oh my gosh i am so pissed while scanning through the paper. oh man!

anyway am so dead now. just seemed like i finished a typing race. and starring at the laptop non-stop isn't working for my eye. think after this i shall take a long long break (meaning to sleep) haha anyway going to see granddad before going to snd. and snd got a new change to it! its no longer a whole big class(even though our class is damn small!) its like two person. no time to slack or play or laugh at some inside jokes! haha

gosh i am so tired! oh did you know. my brother brought this red current oversea and its so sour! its red in colour and its sour! and i think i ate like 0.5kg of cherry at a shot and haha thats my dinner. its so sweet but its kinda fun to eat like cherry than current than cherry...haha anyway to feel the sweetness of the cherry and sourness of the current. it some what remind me of life! life is full of sweet and sour.. (thats remind me of the sauce! haaha) and thus i am in the sour zone. strawberries going to fly in next week! haha cant wait.

anyway i miss the sweet part of life. haha my new chapter of book aint working very well but i hope i will be able to change everything again. damn tired. going to sleep soon!

PS: me a squirrel!!!

watching now and its like its so common to cheat on your spouse's best friend or i didnt get the starting of the show right... they slow down the part where the guy appear. and dont ask me why i say common.

anyway i wasnt paying attention to it. scanning the paper only using my ears to listen.. haha (:

hey hey

happy fourth of july!!

♥ ...I'm glad you're the one I spent it with.

12:11:00 AM

Thursday, July 3, 2008

in which addie just wants to yes hello!!

haha i dont know why but i kept asking myself when was the last time i was really really happy?

last june... i guess its the 60 cents of joy!! haha i miss those time man!!! talking about "man". jus kept saying i got to change to woman cos i am not a man... dots!! haha anyway i dont care man cos man i love to use the word man as the last word man. you got a problem with that? oh... you got a problem with that man??? haha cant work man!! haha alright i will change okay. but i am so use to it!! haha i will change...

anyway i suddenly have nothing to blog about. fine i shall go to my dreamland to find my peace and fun... haha

see ya...

oh oh.. dont ask me why i stop using the word bye..
there is just too many 'lost' happening around me..

PS: i will be happy again on sat!!! i miss you froggies!

♥ ...I'm glad you're the one I spent it with.

9:23:00 PM

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

in which addie think about grandpa

my grandpa.

he went in for op yesterday afternoon and was in deep pain when we visited him yesterday night. the look on his face which i will never forget . both my mum and i were sick but she sat beside him all through the night till mid-night. while i was kicking a big fuss over some very small matter. i badly needed the sleep. my medication is making me really tired and sleepy and i was still running a fever when i was there with grandpa. his fever went up to 38.9 degree before we left. compare to his, mine was a minor case.

dad and brother slept in the waiting room. i cant get any sleep there. i mean, just look at him. you will feel the pain i felt too. he was so much bigger size when we saw him on mother's day than became smaller on father's day and now. i can only say he is really really small. his head was shaking all the time when i sat beside him, patting him to sleep. doctor had to take his blood and jab him and do all sort of things to him. but before we left, he was much better. the pain simply had gone from his eyes and soon after, i hope he sleeps.

on the way back home, i wonder why does this happen to him. where is the grandpa whom i used to make him laugh because i cant simply say the language he used to say. i remember that time. it was mum's birthday and she wanted to bring both grands out for lunch. as usual, grandpa didn't want to go and so i had to convince him to go but however he never went but it was worth it as i saw his smile.

then on father's day i saw him shaking and it hit me. he really age. he age so much that i wonder what the hell happen. there is no glow on him anymore. nothing just a pale person sitting on the wheelchair. he was sick. very sick. that sickness that made me lost a cousin. even their sickness was different. but both fall into the same category.

this time he fell and broke his hip. at this age. a very very old age. very very very very old. (give him a hundred and he will return you a twenty) or that's the last age i remember. anyway.... he was cold. yesterday very cold and old and it hurts me. but i don't know why i just want him to get better.

PS: there is nothing more to say......

♥ ...I'm glad you're the one I spent it with.

1:07:00 PM

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

in which addie has a need to just type!

okay okay! dont ask me to do any more snd stuff! :(

done with play one. finally! now going on to prose than play two than poem than speech. or is it prose than speech than play two than poem?

anyway i need more rest man. haiz... but what can i do?

when i wake up, there are tons of stuff to do? and i am back to the sick zone again. oh man save me from this!

its a world of self annihilation! i cant take it anymore. the "fame" had to stop pushing me. i want to walk on my own now. until then, just stop whatever you are doing!

and i wonder will i "fall" again? please just save me from all of it.

PS: i want to take a bow and end the show.

self annihilation had just began!

♥ ...I'm glad you're the one I spent it with.

4:09:00 PM