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I'm imperfect yet I'm Lovin' It
I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life.
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haha i think i really can enroll myself in the play as an slacker or make a big hit about "how to be a slacker"!!

haha anyway i went to the doctor cos i got some crazy flu and luckily is just normal flu which needs plenty of rest and not to stress thy body. which means plenty of sleep!! haha

need to take my mind of some stuff ...

when mae said about how she and "uh huh" met the feelings and all.. i was thinking i too had that feeling. but now its back to basic, back to friendship.

maybe it was plan to meet that special someone someday. i think i most likely will not find any now,or anytime soon. most likely to fly across the world to the land i like to find. (and dear dear mae dont even tell anyone where the place is!)

why do i suddenly want to watch notting hill?? haha i love this line " i am just a girl standing in front of a boy asking him to love her." haha

well...if you read my tag. you may find this from mae
mae: and even hell will be an enjoyable place if we go there together hahaha!

haha i dont want to go hell i want to go heaven!haha remember my play "bra sizes"? " it must be wonderful up there. nodody has breasts in heaven,right?" cos people dont have breasts there. or they do? i dont know! haha

and i am so hoping the new emu is also a "she"emu. what if is a "he"emu? i think i will totally freak out man. haha

right..... going to take my medicine now. haha and sleep a lot later!

PS : "i even love the things about you that i hate. because u make me feel like i don't have to be anyone other than who i am."

suddenly remember this. no offence mae
things not to say when you see your best friend's boy friend
" is he burnt?"

and this will be what mae will be thinking if she reads this post. " i am so going to kill you man." and i will say : " go ahead! i am so going to wear track shoe to your wedding oh wait. let me run in the mud before going to your wedding!" haha

no offence i am high! hahhahahah

I am reflecting about life.
what i had done.
this past few life.
all had been.
wasted.

if life started with a blank book waiting for you to fill them in. my book will be full of colours and memories of all the happy times which most of them never last. and all the stupid times where i could have make my life better but i chose not to. my book will be the editor's pick on how stupid the writer had been. i shall open a brand new chapter to allow nothing but gladness in it. happiness shall still be the theme but than still, i will allow sadness to be a part of it. starting it with a whole new. i shall not and will not let history repeat itself. those that are meaningful to me shall still be meaningful and all the bad habits shall now be remove from within.

i am force to change the outer self and so must my inner self change. i have to learn how to say "count me out" rather than " yeah! see you then!" to most of my fellow friends. time shall be my next new best friend (not forgetting the "timeless" sister) and take me in baby steps to reach my goals.

my holidays (this crazy yet fun holidays) shall be the last chapter of the old me. and a new to remind me that i can achieve it if by doing right. the 1,2,4,6 of the week had been to best i even had but still it all had to be KIV for the moment. i have to learn to love life and not bitching about it. even bitching can be real fun but still i have to learn how to embrace the good and not forgetting the bad. to love it before it is too late.

hmmm...

who will prosecute my life? that will be me the prosecutor. to defence and attack myself. i am mine worst nightmare. my worst enemy. you might think it is too late for me to reborn myself but let me tell you. its not too late. it will be late when you are there in the box where when you use it, you wont know it.

the person who sell it wont need it yet.
the person who bought it wont need it yet.
the person who use it don't know it.
go figure!

that my friend, is too late!

i shall rest now. i will need all the energy i need to reborn myself again. bear with me my pal, i will be pissed at times to times but after all i don't mean it.

60 cents of joy has ended. but joy, do you worth that much only?

PS: let me tell you... joy is priceless! the person you spend with determine it all!

tanned! so tanned! haha

As people around me fall in love, get lost in love. i sit there with a cup of hot chocolate in hand seeing the world passes by with couples madly in love. its like watching a movie where you sit there with popcorn and watching two impossible person falling madly in love. while you think it is so not going to happen in real life.

i wonder if life is plan as the way it should be. from birth till death. every step you take is repeat in a way or two. your life is muchly plan as you grow in life. i wonder.

i felt old. very old. when i see this little kid playing at the pool. i ask myself. when i was her age, did i do that? first while mae challenge me to slide down the kiddie slide, she followed us. than she stood there not talking but closely she followed us. everywhere we go. and finally we talked to her. and asked her her name. and we started enjoying ourself like little kids.

will i ever loose my friend if she ever get married? some say yes. but i am not sure. i am not sure about so many things. she said that she got that feeling as i was with him. but i was with him as a very good pal. someone whom i like to hang out. she had feelings for him. do i have the feelings for him? i am not so sure. and i dont think i will ever have those feelings for him as he ever will have any for me. (looking in doubt) NAH~~~~

so life is plan. plan to get work done asap. but i cant start myself. when i want to start myself, it will be the due date of every project.

i love being in weddings! when you get to see two person facing each other saying a pact.(in love, to be with each other) what about the part where things never turn out? also two person facing each other saying a pact ( to get rid of each other)? do human only want to see things they want?

PS: i need to find a plan for (she) to get a place to go on a date. so this is the plan for the maid of honor!

there's so many thing to do in this short day!

i need to shape things up now and than so please just tell me i am able to take control in everything

make me love you first. there is no point rushing into the end when we both know it will never happen. i like to take things slow. dont learn from me. learn from others. i cant plan stuff like this. i will need to see the world first before i do anything. so make me love you first. make me understand you. make me feel that you are there for me at times, not when you need a date for some dinner or anything. just tell me that you have grown. dont just say, show me.

ps: dinner at 70 dollars for two!!

i will forever love my brother no matter what happen

its him that i get to be a princess for a week. seriously a princess with all the rich and posh people go to. where you will have a personal shopper (which is my brother for this case)

i love this holiday so much that i dont want to come back. but this is not my life. i will get to be a princess again when i finish school and start working and kick my butt up all the way to the top where i get to be the first of the first.

i love to shop but its all posh and poshy and poshie and nothing but people whom you see like so freaking rich!!

i need to move out of my usual style to some thing more classic. everything will have to go in baby steps. i need to learn to change. which i learnt the whole week. there's still more than that to learn to complete the whole.

its time for me to see the other side of life. rather than stuck myself with all the kids. i have to meet more than them. even the kids do look and act much better than me.

PS: i will try even its not that easy. with your support i will achieve it!

and do bear with me when i tend to be super pissed at times!

okay this will be my last update before i really sit on the plane. man i will miss this place.

lots of things to get and i guess this trip will be either fun or not.

whatever, checking all my mails before i leave. and the thing is i hate to leave my laptop alone at home.

love the manicure i did with mae on sat. its frech manicure and she had some nails with a line across the nails. its really cool. i will be doing rainbow manicure if i got the chance oversea and doing curls and all stuff to my hair... yeah!!

my twisted ankle is getting better but it i try to cross my legs it will still hurt like crap..

anyway while the rest of my class is bugging in the lesson in school i am sitting the sofa looking at the time to pass.

Politics softens everything.
Truth is known only to its victims.
All else is photographs --- a documentary
The starving and the playboys perish in.
Life disguises itself with professionalism.

Life tells the biggest lies of all,
And draws wages from itself.
Truth is a landscape the saintly tribes live on,
And all the lenses of Japan and Germany
Wouldn't know how to focus on it.

check list and all crap.

not my stuff i dont do pre check list and crap!

its freaking not me.

felt super guilty of what happen just now..

i am so sorry of what happen and i dont mean to yell at you. i never knew it until things were said to me and i am really sorry. very am. i love you, dont say other wise.

back to my pre-trip

anyway this will be my last post before i leave. so i guess there is nothing much to say and i wont update for a week or so... not bringing my laptop but i guess i will have my story book to read.

flying off in a few hours.

i guess i will take a nap now.