Friday, May 30, 2008
in which addie is leaving
hey hey...
haha i know it had been a long time since i blog but boo yeah!!! i am not going to blog for another week or so... sorry my dear stalkers and readers(if i ever have) anyway i am leaving... haha listening to the leavin' by Jesse McCartney now and really feel like dancing but i twisted my right foot. thanks to the "bra sizes"! haha my stupid play. anyway the whole play wasn't that sick as i had judge it by the name. the role's best friend died! with... you know what.
so i twisted my foot while walking down the stairs and reading this.
"This is my first Christmas not chatting with you. I'll still talk to you every Christmas, i promise. Maybe if I'm good, when i die, I'll see you in heaven. it must me wonderful up there. Nobody has breasts in Heaven, right?"
lovely play, i really love it. i wish i can act in that part but its the role while she is 37 or so. cant really remember. if i ever act any older for my play it will be like last year where EMU will repeatedly said over and over. "you should do something closer to your age." that's why i scored really low for last year play. and well what can i say i don't really like my role either. so i don't freaking care! haha i don't care.
well i bet simbian is really pissed at me or the whole class but i think the pissed at me percentage will be much higher compare to the pissed at the whole class. i will seriously make up for her birthday. well i lied. not me miss ying ying lied. i just kept quiet and never look at her in the eye. her eyes was like filling up with tears or something.
i know she is finally reaching out to me. getting to know me better and being somewhat not that mean compare to last time (don't ever kill me) and i don't know... well me and mae is going to treat her something nice and grabbing her a present soon. hate when mae is in camp. there is no way i can contact her... and sim bian if you ever want to know what show "we" went to watch last Saturday..........
(heck it) nothing! we just went home. i was freaking alone at that time! thanks to everyone.... snd alone and with her tone... cracking. talking about cracking, i really need to do something about my prose. adding more parts into my prose and my speech is seriously screwed!
leaving for the next whole week. yeah~~~~!!!!!!!!!! missing school and stuff. wait missing school!! hell yeah. i cant stand my school ever any more. bet no one really know the real reason why i am leaving in two days. only some does! it was such a short notice! i love it when everyone that is going, text you and said "we will be leaving on Sunday!" and the fun part is you really want to take out the phone and read it but the teacher is pacing around the lab and you are sitting in the front. oh yeah!!! the thrill...
heck my english now. i should be writing in past tense or something. haha its my world! haha anyway i don't like adding ed or past tense to anything its like everything is over (in fact it it...) and you wont be able to re-live it ever again. i don't like saying bye when ending a conversation. maybe is due to the fact that i lost a cousin that... that the truth is i hate him! i don't hate him, hate him. i hate him because of his father. its a long story, and why do i have this image where i see kevis bugging and asking me to tell him the story?
talking about kevis i miss him so much! why must he move? hate him for leaving! life is so different without his crap... and all the texts he will send to me crapping about his teacher and his friends. but in his recent email, he said he is visiting!! yeah cant wait. miss his sister too... haha
yes i am very random!
anyway about the cousin thingy. he died on my snd'06 exam, and i don't know why i just felt.... like... there is guilt. i hate him but he only bug me. and i miss the bugging. i miss the way when he called my name. the look when i said i don't want to play with him. the part where he will always count me in first and always wanting to sit with me during dinner and so. and this words hurt the most " if Adeline is not going, i wont be going." he will always try to reach to me but i will always turn him down. i am mean am i? i am very mean. i am so mean that i miss him. really. i am so sorry i wasn't there... crap it i am supposed to be in a happy mood. hello??? i am missing school?????
if i can turn back time. i will tell him i am really sorry and i hope he will never die at this tender age. i miss him. thanks for the memories.
trying to come up on a list to pack for the trip. but all i see is the list i had when i when to NZ. haha climate different my dear. you wont want to bring winter clothes to summer holiday?? what you trying to get? heat stroke??
yeah still listening to leavin'... haha
ciao
so i wont say bye but
see you when i see you. (:
♥ ...I'm glad you're the one I spent it with.
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