Friday, May 30, 2008
in which addie is leaving
hey hey...
haha i know it had been a long time since i blog but boo yeah!!! i am not going to blog for another week or so... sorry my dear stalkers and readers(if i ever have) anyway i am leaving... haha listening to the leavin' by Jesse McCartney now and really feel like dancing but i twisted my right foot. thanks to the "bra sizes"! haha my stupid play. anyway the whole play wasn't that sick as i had judge it by the name. the role's best friend died! with... you know what.
so i twisted my foot while walking down the stairs and reading this.
"This is my first Christmas not chatting with you. I'll still talk to you every Christmas, i promise. Maybe if I'm good, when i die, I'll see you in heaven. it must me wonderful up there. Nobody has breasts in Heaven, right?"
lovely play, i really love it. i wish i can act in that part but its the role while she is 37 or so. cant really remember. if i ever act any older for my play it will be like last year where EMU will repeatedly said over and over. "you should do something closer to your age." that's why i scored really low for last year play. and well what can i say i don't really like my role either. so i don't freaking care! haha i don't care.
well i bet simbian is really pissed at me or the whole class but i think the pissed at me percentage will be much higher compare to the pissed at the whole class. i will seriously make up for her birthday. well i lied. not me miss ying ying lied. i just kept quiet and never look at her in the eye. her eyes was like filling up with tears or something.
i know she is finally reaching out to me. getting to know me better and being somewhat not that mean compare to last time (don't ever kill me) and i don't know... well me and mae is going to treat her something nice and grabbing her a present soon. hate when mae is in camp. there is no way i can contact her... and sim bian if you ever want to know what show "we" went to watch last Saturday..........
(heck it) nothing! we just went home. i was freaking alone at that time! thanks to everyone.... snd alone and with her tone... cracking. talking about cracking, i really need to do something about my prose. adding more parts into my prose and my speech is seriously screwed!
leaving for the next whole week. yeah~~~~!!!!!!!!!! missing school and stuff. wait missing school!! hell yeah. i cant stand my school ever any more. bet no one really know the real reason why i am leaving in two days. only some does! it was such a short notice! i love it when everyone that is going, text you and said "we will be leaving on Sunday!" and the fun part is you really want to take out the phone and read it but the teacher is pacing around the lab and you are sitting in the front. oh yeah!!! the thrill...
heck my english now. i should be writing in past tense or something. haha its my world! haha anyway i don't like adding ed or past tense to anything its like everything is over (in fact it it...) and you wont be able to re-live it ever again. i don't like saying bye when ending a conversation. maybe is due to the fact that i lost a cousin that... that the truth is i hate him! i don't hate him, hate him. i hate him because of his father. its a long story, and why do i have this image where i see kevis bugging and asking me to tell him the story?
talking about kevis i miss him so much! why must he move? hate him for leaving! life is so different without his crap... and all the texts he will send to me crapping about his teacher and his friends. but in his recent email, he said he is visiting!! yeah cant wait. miss his sister too... haha
yes i am very random!
anyway about the cousin thingy. he died on my snd'06 exam, and i don't know why i just felt.... like... there is guilt. i hate him but he only bug me. and i miss the bugging. i miss the way when he called my name. the look when i said i don't want to play with him. the part where he will always count me in first and always wanting to sit with me during dinner and so. and this words hurt the most " if Adeline is not going, i wont be going." he will always try to reach to me but i will always turn him down. i am mean am i? i am very mean. i am so mean that i miss him. really. i am so sorry i wasn't there... crap it i am supposed to be in a happy mood. hello??? i am missing school?????
if i can turn back time. i will tell him i am really sorry and i hope he will never die at this tender age. i miss him. thanks for the memories.
trying to come up on a list to pack for the trip. but all i see is the list i had when i when to NZ. haha climate different my dear. you wont want to bring winter clothes to summer holiday?? what you trying to get? heat stroke??
yeah still listening to leavin'... haha
ciao
so i wont say bye but
see you when i see you. (:
♥ ...I'm glad you're the one I spent it with.
4:44:00 PM
Friday, May 23, 2008
in which addie is really tired
well. this is what i had in my mind while sitting in class when the teacher crap.
finish summary
clean up the class
end school
grab hot Valina chocolate and banana muffin from Starbucks
check accounts
reach home
take a super long bath
relax and unwind (enjoying my Starbucks!)
and this is what i did
finish summary
clean up the class
end school
grab hot Valina chocolate and banana muffin from Starbucks
(zinc thinks the cashier boy is cute... haha well i think he is okay... (; )
check accounts
( this is the part where it all change)
help a granny to carry the grocery all the way to her doorstep
it all stared on the bus and i didnt know she was going to alight at the same stop with me. so the kindness in me help her.. (thick skin!) and carry all the way to her doorstep. she wanted me to stay for a cup of drinks. but i dont like the idea. its just make me creep! and i dont even know her well so...
and i lost 1/4 of my hot chocolate on the way to the granny's house which the weather is super crazy! i turn my hot chocolate into a cold one. hmm... i did a kind deed didnt i? the bag is freaking heavy. gosh she should had someone to go with her, and help her. anyway i dont feel like eating my muffin anymore... save for dinner.
i should listen to my mother.... skip my exam... and now, my result sucks like hell. well if i stay at home, wont i get zero? and the thing is why will i be sick on the exam week???? well... there's nothing i can do... its time to focus on the bigger picture.
should i even go to the birthday party? and what am i going to get for her? i miss the part when you are young and your mum will prepare the present for you and all you need to do is to attend the party...
had to start doing something for my snd pieces. exam is nearer than the biggest picture. and i wont want to screw everything up.
♥ ...I'm glad you're the one I spent it with.
2:28:00 PM
Sunday, May 18, 2008
in which addie posting the 140th post
dont really know what to write but there will be no camwebbing till i get a new webcam. did camwebbing with mae till 3am in the morning and as i was unpacking my bag, i saw the book "testing kate" and i read it till around 4am plus and i had to wake up at 8am this morning for some poshy breakfast stuff.
dont understand why wedding take up so much time. its not my problem but i had to help out. i rather be the one that sits there and eats and cheer and maybe get drunk (if i am able too) and go home with cute little shower gel stuff like if they think you are too smelly to attend the wedding... >.< ps: please dont take me seriously!
someone ask me hows the shows (which are mostly not IN but yeah)
i watched well here it is :
- P.S. I Love You --- touching but to me its not up to the point where i will weep. but some will(:
- AVP2--- its action flim. so yeah its actiony >.<
- Ironman--- its another action flim.. so yeah its also actiony... haha >.< >.<
- 27 dresses--- funny, sweet and funny and sweet and funny... ^.<
- Made of honor--- its sweet and well i said it before in the 139th post. so yeah... ((:
and for shows... erm most of them is ending the season so yup.. like brothers and sisters, Samantha who and well... yup yup... that's all.
need to compute all Snd stuff.. and i am so dead for snd.. i wonder how dead is mae... HAHA
-play 1 -crap
-play 2 -crap crap
-speech -screwed
-prose - impossible
-poem - love it!!
AHR there's a war happening in me. think is the milk from yesterday... oh man... should not had share it with Vanessa and lee hung yesterday. now its killing me~
♥ ...I'm glad you're the one I spent it with.
2:55:00 PM
Saturday, May 17, 2008
in which addie... what a day!!!
Today is the most perfect day until those words that came along. those words that hit me hard.
Drag myself out of me lovely bed and the most wonderful dream to some talk by some person. kinda lost my way but i reach there on time. anyway i am really glad that my teacher had already go over almost everything what that person had said...
went for a bruch and movie day with lee hung and Vanessa downtown. watched "made of honor" that movie is much guessable but is still if that someone where there it will even make it better. and another thing. i dont ever think two best friend will ever for in love... you know each other too well that it seems impossible. maybe i should change this thinking. after all you never know.
went to snd alone!!! crap i hate going there alone and for the first 13 mins i am alone and i dont like that. is a personal thingy but it had to depend who is the teacher. anyway after that everyone start pouring in and so its kinda okay anyway. so there is a birthday party next Saturday and FYI i really had no idea should i go a not. i mean if i go or i dont go it will be really weird but i have no idea.
bitching is fun. there is so much bitching today. with almost everyone i met today. with the girls and snd people. and i really dont know that her ex-he had BO.. snd is never so fun with bitching. maybe thats what girls do. its all about gossip. thats why there is a show on gossip girl.. haha 30 rock is on later. maybe i should watch it later. its depend... oh and here's a tip for her. never ever ever talk to others differently. i mean how can you ever compare something where you are really bad in and you compare that you are that capable. oh please!!! maybe we should have a contest. man that will be so freaking FUN!! ahr i am so mad! i was name the best ever and you whom fall under me, compare with me? just because i lost this year due some error by saying the product wrongly? but i got second! not like you 17th. ahr!! fine (let it go addie)
i am still shaking about what i heard from my brother. i really wonder how am i going to pull if it really happen. and why must he spoilt it during the dinner. and in the posh place where there is so many people that were well known for fame? crap!
i love the cake. its like the name... and i had no idea that mark knows Victoria! this is such a news in snd!! wait.. maybe not. they wont know who is mark! haha
There's is more than meet the eye (:
-thanks for the comments...
♥ ...I'm glad you're the one I spent it with.
10:14:00 PM
Monday, May 12, 2008
in which addie is totally done with exams
finally the day where i am free from all those crazy looking alien language papers!!! done with this exam but there is still more to come...
i really wonder why people thinks differently from what they meant. is really hard to find someone that you trust and trust you. a friend or anything. is really hard to maintain a BFF friendship for a really long time. i don't know why or whatever. you can be totally bff for a year than the next year you both are close friend and soon, just friend and soon before everything hit you in your face, you are not talking anymore.
the group where i love is breaking. everyone is moving on. i cant simply get a time to fix where we can meet around. i hate losing a friend. i been moving along the side where there is nothing for me to hold on too. i am going to start digging some friends whom i said i will hang out with them. is just so stupid of me to put everything on hold. sorry for those whom i promise to hangout one day and the day never seems to arrive.
People should do and say exactly what they feel and think and not try to hide things.
♥ ...I'm glad you're the one I spent it with.
1:57:00 PM
Friday, May 9, 2008
in which addie has fallen into
"i even love the thing about you that i hate because u make me feel like i don't have to be anyone other than who i am"
Love is in the air. that's all i can say (:
is just the day where i finally finally believe there is love around us. even at the place or time where you least expected
♥ ...I'm glad you're the one I spent it with.
2:58:00 PM
Monday, May 5, 2008
in which addie in day 1 of exam
day one of exam. nothing better to say but i just want to say i might see red on my paper.
anyway i don't want to bother how people is ever going to treat me any how or anyway. of all matters i live by myself. i hate it when two person make a promise and soon later to realize that it was all bull shit. i really had it in my life. and for "you" i am finally moving along the flow. "you" are no longer "what matter rhe most to me" anymore. its not what you said or maybe it is. go find that other mirror of yours and live happily ever after. now i finally understand whats going on so far. yup i am slow.
anyway i know one should not be eating in front of the computer. but heck it. i am so pissed. waiting for my online teacher to be online... i should had seen this coming all along. how stupid can i be??
♥ ...I'm glad you're the one I spent it with.
1:41:00 PM
Friday, May 2, 2008
in which addie just wants to blog
hey hey!!
yeah its been a long time since i blog... and my crazy week had finally came to an end. finally there is time for me to catch my breath. been spending my days with so many events. spending nigths as days and days as days. well, i had to go to school in the morning till the noon and than all sort of events in the nights. and all those is finally come to an end. a big and full round fullstop.
i really had to start to plan all stuff now. got to get on track and make everything possible within 48 hours. i really had wasted my time doing stuff that i shouldn't be doing now. and i cant choose to not to do it. anyway i am kinda glad its over.
maybe i should skip snd on sat.
anyway yesterday was really fun. because there is this party later in the day and i had to make popcorn and it turns out really fun. but the coating is kinda hard to make... and guess what! it turn out to be a really huge bag of popcorn. and is really much worth than those in the cimema. its like a pillow filled with popcorn. haha and its much much better than those that are on in shop.
and i finally glad that most of the nice show is finally moving into the TV. like pushing daises, samatha who and dirty sexy money!!! yeah haha.. i know most them i had finished watching and its just starting to play. haha right... anyway ... ... ...
yeah i got to start doing something that is so much important for the next two weeks.
so long (:
♥ ...I'm glad you're the one I spent it with.
11:00:00 AM
