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oh my gosh what a day!!!
i love today not love(d) but love it!

bright and early went for a photo shoot with my family and all the make-up and hairstyle. is like a make over for me. look really nice. oh and i really really love my hair. anyway because i wasnt really ready for the photo shots, i was kinda under-dress. but overall is PICTURE PERFECT! anyway i got this really formal shot and this guy said i look 18. and with my normal look i look like 13 or 14. haha well thanks. (not telling you what my real age is....) i really look nice with my hair. but too bad after this post it will be all ago :'(

went to snd in a rush. i really like taking photo so much with this hair. is really nice and cool. i really really love it. haha is so cool. anyway went shopping for black jacket today. crap with the school rule. they said last year that white is allow and now it isnt. whatever. anyway i did not get any jacket. actually mae and i should be eating with sim bian but because her parents cooked dinner and she wants us to go and have it with her.. is like i kinda want to go but is like it will be really really really weird if we went. so we never. shopping and eating. i'm loving it... haha

saw this book... and is like my tittle for my speech. if only i get the book, i will aces my speech but the price is really not worth for it.. i only will be using it for this exam so... anyway saw this really cool book and if i read it in school. that monk will really chop me. haha

so my phone went dead and my mum was like calling me from home like 36 times. yup. 36 times. and i was really dead like really dead cos my mum is really mad at me. but with me.. i smooth her with a smoothie. and my dad.. an apple pie. what?!? thats what he like!

i think my mum really going to blast at me in the car but she didn't. so only the way to mae's house. we text on her phone. and saying mushroom and all stuff.... if my mum going to blow.

mae: the bomb outside my house didnt explode. phew.

anyway i really think i better get into the shower. there's go my hair. oh man. how sad.. bye lovely hair...

anyway....

i had not been in school for the past one whole week. and i been telling people that i went to save the dolphin.... yesterday i wasn't in school and it so happen to be Earth day... Happy birthday Gaia!!! anyway just a little update about what is Gaia...(for those who dont understand what i am talking about...) Gaia is a primordial and chthonic deity in the Ancient Greek pantheon and considered a Mother Goddess or Great Goddess. In another word is it call Mother Earth... something like that. so what have i been doing to save our dear Earth? NOTHING yeah you got me.... nothing. in fact i think i did. well i had been sleeping! haha anyway is around 11pm(monday night) to around 1pm(tuesday afternoon) and after i took my pills i slept from 2pm to around 6.30pm. (that's when all the monkeys came back from school). so i did something. i never use any stuff that harm the earth.. maybe... just maybe my snoring..

back to school and my throat infection is still hanging in. my doctor is back and the first thing he said "you sallow any fish bones?" right. i only eat boneless fish. anyway how fun is it to be a doctor... you get to go around the world for some meeting and at the same time relaxing but being paid! hmm maybe i should find a job like that. haha in fact i did... being paid by listening.. (do the maths baby!!) haha alrightie...

move on....

i read this article that not eating breakfast kinda may make your brain smaller. i think it really does. i don't really like eating breakfast. oh yeah. i don't LIKEIE breakfast! anyway so there's another thing i read. By not eating breakfast you will get chances of giving birth to a baby girl than boy. which is a good thing. if only the baby isn't like me.. that is trouble! so i shall not eat breakfast! haha and guess what my mum said well if you don't eat breakfast, your baby will be as stupid as you. in the end all of you will be bimbo! right....

and a thing to add..

Happy Shakespeare day!!!

and.............i am talking about William Shakespeare...

and again... exam starting on friday. and i haven't even getting started! oh i am so screw!

and.... i need to clear my email. its full of mails within two days.. i am popular.. right. most of which i think is junk.... haiz

finally i am feeling much better... free from all the sickness i had for the past few days.

back into the streets. back to snd back to life (but not for too long)

i wonder why am i kinda down today after going shopping with mae and sim bian.

so did some crap for earth day. wrote a poem that sound like shit. and went to the library to find mae. i was never close to sim bian. never really understand her. but today it seems like the pre-picturing a person aint that perfect. never judge the book by its cover. this is damn right.

got two shirts from cotton on. spending money like water... haha i really need to save now. need to mug for exams. need to rest more. need to lost a zillion pounds. okay so anyway sad thing is she left us for dinner..

dinner in fish and co. it just some how make us high with food. and why are there so many people having birthday today?!? 1st this kid than that guy sitting beside us. than is girl we went on the street. talking about meeting...met shaan and vanessa and amelia while shopping.

i need to know the meaning why. i think to see why am i not in the picture. i need to understand why i am not having what they are having.

so i went out for dinner with joel.o on friday (yesterday) i cant really remember what the diner was. but it sure was funny. i am lactose intolerant. so i told this guy that i am lactose intolerant and he went to show me a list of milkshake with the word 100% pure milk.

right.... i can drink it but it will take me another week off from school again. need to sallow 16 pills for now. sound creepy... yeah.. tell me about it.....

once upon a time....



it is I........



who... ahr... CRAP IT.



alright. i am still not feeling better. down with fever and second round of throat infection. oh man.. when am i going to get better? i want to get better.



haiz.... alright. the post before i blog about some stuff about my friend... well it is mabel. not anyone else. i had to say it out because there is like four messages think it was someone else. it is not anyway so.. it is that mabel. she and her... ahr! (let it go)



so



one does hopes so... i do hope that i am all better now..

damn my throat is getting worst. its like something poking inside.

skip school again. well duh.. i want my former doctor back!! he understands me better than the new doctor. ahr...

okay so i was kinda bored and i drew lots of "killing" stick man pictures on my cousin's maths book. well i was teaching her ratio so... haha anyway, i was nearly no voice and she don't get anything i said. so i got so pissed and started drawing dead faces on her book. she looked at me and said " you... thinking of death?" i am screaming right inside me!!

okay let it go..

i really wonder why there is such person on earth. i really really hate her.... (figure out which "her" i am talking to) anyway i am so pissed with this person. is like i am moving along with a block at times to times. (not her her..) i cant always be the one giving. i want to receive too. i cant be the only engine working in this friendship i need backup too. and i am not the all-in-one person. i want to enjoy this friendship. you always ask me why i ain't that close to you as the rest. the answer is simple. because i cant. i have been giving too much and now i am slowly pulling myself away from this. you thinks i am comparing you to my friends. well i am not. if i want to, i will not be talking to you....

i dont feel like blogging about it anymore. damn now i am pissed. chill addie.

let it go again...

great this is great. how great can it be...

i am having some stupid infection. lost of my precious voice. and so many things to avoid.

fine!!! whatever!!!

the doctor ain't back from last week. so is another doctor. the thing is, you cant run away from it. i was sick last week and he knows! its not like i went to see him or any record or anything. but he just knows! this is freaky. got two day off again. he wrote one day off than he thinks again and said " you better rest more. you seems to have trouble sleeping. lack of sleep...." than he change it to two days. wow lack of sleep.. i guess i slept a lot. lack of sleep. define it....

okay so now i am not suppose to eat anything that is on my list. cos of that infection! man. and i cant talk now. this is bad. very bad.

list of food to avoid

• cold drinks (oh man!! i love cold drinks!)
• cold food (who eats cold food? sushi?)
• any unhealthy stuff (right... erm.... right... okay... define unhealthy stuff)
• any oily food (okay that's not a problem)
• no fried food (ahr!! isn't it oily too?)

that's about all... i think.

list of thing not to do

• shout (i don't shout.. okay i do. okay a bit)
• scream (my voice is too low to be able to scream)
• over use of voice ( this means i can skip snd! right DREAM ON)
• sallow any sharp objects (what!! am i still a kid?)
• don't do any stupid things ( define stupid things? you just simply run out of things to say!)

list of things to do

• drink more water. (cold?)
• sleep ( i am having a lot of them)
• don't over workout (i don't workout.. oh u mean over work myself... i ain't working)
• take plenty of rest (ain't going to happen... i got tons of stuff to do)
• relax. take things slowly ( hey i don't have a zillions years to live you know!)

alright... i cant even talk now... to have my voice back i need to follow everything..

so whats so great about it? it ain't that great!!!

yeah thanks everyone. i am sour enough already.

right. went to snd today and guess what?

well i did sell about 10 bucks of cards and also some orders from those who aint there. and also thanks for those who bought from me.

anyway there not much to say just when time to go home all drama starts. so miss ying ying got like this can of chips (without the cover) and so was making us doing all expression so that we can eat the chips on our face. so at the end of the lesson, she passed me the can of chips and

1) i was sharing it was Crystabel and the chips just drop out. and the both of us have to clean up. and i am so sorry..

2) going down the stairs... my phone rang and i droped the can down from the top of the stairs... (laugh all you need) and i just posed there to see everything happen. and again Crystabel helped. and so did miss ying ying's husband and one of the Aunty. i think is Aunty irene.(opps i am so sorry if that was your name) and i was like so screwed. oh man. and miss ying ying was like "adeline you dont like it, is it?" right... not forgeting all the talk in class too.. >.<

thanks to everyone who helped out with the cleaning... i really need a hole now. OH MAN~~~~

what a day. hmm i smell something sour.. oh its from me. >.<

anyone wants uno cards?

okay this is so damn... i need to sell a lot of it. wondering if i should get another 30 more for my hours? maybe not. i will see today sales. going snd to sell. hopefully someone will buy other than mae. hhaha..

felling rather down yesterday. (dont know why) but theres nothing up there in the sky. so sad. the sky is red (pink?) with clouds everywhere. not a single star to spot.

i still feel down now. got no idea why. i just hope everything will be alright when i go snd. the place for fun! haha i think or not.

spent like all the time rewinding the dvd. i give up! most of the part is jammed. and is a nice show with jammed parts! okay.. i was watching it half way. almost to the end of the show, than suddenly the girl open her eyes and the show end. ( it was showing the credits and all) than i was like... huh. i thought it was over than the show repeated itself. and this time with a few voices. they were talking about the show. and i realize i miss out so many part! and the show does not end when the girl open her eyes. there was still a lot of it. haha. glad its over.

i dont know what to say about me today. i wrote my name twice on the same paper. than i wrote my the date three times and drew like three picture of a stick man pointing to something. just a stick man with the hand up in the air.

and than someone just came beside me and said this " you anit thinking about death are you?"

no i am not.i dont want to. i just dont get some people and their thinking. whats done cant be undone so what if i score slightly lower than i always does and so what if i dont go to school two days? thats all my business.

i hate this! when person A and person B mostly score the same marks and suddenly on final paper, person B score much higher than person A and that person A is so unhappy with person B and even try to find any error on person B's paper. so that the both will have the same marks. or at least person A will be higher than person B.

i also hate it when it: anyone wants to be the spot light of everything and when something goes wrong he or she blame it on others.

please give me a break! come on!

Happy Birthday to JOEL.O

yeah.. haha feel like everyone around me is getting old in ways.

opps is raining. and the party?? hope its stop before i reach there. if not... it really sucks!

speech day.

if i dont help out, i will dismiss super early and place myself in front of the lapti(my laptop) and waste my time. haha.. well that's what i will do if i am home at around 11am?? maybe i will do some homework, surf my speech and oh get my printer ink.. i need to get my printer ink.. if not miss ying ying will nag at me all day.. anyway my leg!! in fact my toes are giving up. lucky me, there will not be intensive PE on friday... yes... i dont know if i should love the day. but i should as i wont be going to live the time again, which i wont want too!! NO way! not those hours standing with the sliver tray and smiling all the way. do you have any idea how heavy the tray is?? and with the shoes?

i wonder how am i going to got the party with the rain and my toes. i need to give Joel.O something. some stuff.... someone is going into adulthood. good for him. as least he gets his golden keys. is it that bad to call someone by the middle name??

maybe? maybe not. but i know him for years... and he was the one who asked me to call him by that name.. hmm...

met Emily on my way home... let me say Emily is the sweetest little thing... thing... (okay she is so going to kill me) GIRL... i told her my toes is crapping like hell and she took my bag (which is not that heavy) i am tired so everything is just super heavy.... and said this " do you need to cab home?" i look at her with the i-don't-want-to-pay look...and she said "i will pay, go your house than mine. than we meet again?" YES YES YES hell yes.. haha i really need to dump my feet into some icy water to wash away my pain.. or chill away my pain...

go to prepare for Joel.O party. see ya... (:

♥ ...I'm glad you're the one I spent it with.

5:39:00 PM

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

in which addie had another day off

nah, i am not going to change my blog skin again. cos i have nothing better to do.

i think my chems skills is really hitting the bottom.... hard. read the whole chapter yesterday night and i cant figure out what the crap the book is trying is telling to tell me.

maybe i am sick. or that must be another excuses of mine. miss school today. well in fact i am getting much better. i need to lock my com away from me for the next couple of months. or maybe half a year.

oh i cant do without my com. :'( but that's the only way to make me score again. oh man!!

exam is so near. i cant wait to finish school. and going into something i really like. i want to have major in drama but i don't think i am able too. even if i got the chances that would be.. a zillions years before i am able to complete my dreams before turning 30. which i think most people wants that dreams.. a little hint.. "money makes the world go round. " hey is not money too.. i am not that money face!!

i don't want to grow old. but somethings make me have too.

oh man... if only i got like a thousand of me doing so many things at once. isn't that great? going to different parts of the earth to see what people spent their time on. and handling so many things at one time. able to do so many things at one go. which i think 1/2 of it will be spent on sleeping. i really need sleep. is like the most important thing now. to get my health back.


.....i want to have a skills that is so rare on earth that i will be needed at times to times.

balancing on one fine wire. :)

♥ ...I'm glad you're the one I spent it with.

11:28:00 AM

Monday, April 7, 2008

in which addie skips school today

so there is fire drill and choosing of blazer today and i miss it all.

fever going up and down. i finally pull myself up to take my pills. i still dont want to go to the doctor. i just dont want to go. i dont want to leave my warm bed and take all those horrible pills that most likly make me still sick still the end of the week.

i need to take a rest now.

so long.

♥ ...I'm glad you're the one I spent it with.

10:36:00 AM

Sunday, April 6, 2008

in which addie is sick

i fell ill on friday night. what a day to feel sick...

and now i am still sick. my fever is on and off. and is like if i stop taking the pills. i will have fever. i dont want to go the doctor and all sort. after all he will say there is no fever.

there is so much things to talk about sat but i dont seem like i want to write it down. i have no idea why it seems like i am giving up hope on everything. is like there is no meaning to anything any more.

i might not go to school on monday but i hope i wont have to. i dont like studying for the sick of it. i want to study for something i like. my passion. if only i know my other passion.

drama is the only escape.

paprika. or what ever the show is... if only i can see my own dream. and why would i want to see it. it will be full of nightmares. maybe a serious creepy doll will sit there and causing me to fall off the building and seeing a human blowing up pieces.

i am totally speechless at point to point now. i only hope someone will bring back the "needness" to me. exam is so so soon and i am balancing on something that will never bring me anywhere. the rain is stopping me from moving forward, is pulling me back.

i never want to end up at this state but there is no answer to everything i want to know. the magic ball cant give the answer.

the little things i do myself. everything inside me changing. i might be the next "red dragon".

♥ ...I'm glad you're the one I spent it with.

3:42:00 PM