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oh man. i am so tired still. crap dont know why man! i just feel like sleeping. oh man oh man oh man. okay anyway i am so tired.

shouldn't had went for the breakfast with them. should sleep longer. haha emily losing her voice agian. twice in a week. good for her. and i am still tired despite sleeping for like.. 1o hour? for 12am to 10pm? and i am still tired. i need coffee.

coffee
coffee
coffee
cooooffffffffeeeeeeeee

or something that will make me alive.

hamster work!

no i dont mean to eat it.
to play with it. haha

is like 30 bucks for a dwarf hamster. and the hamster which is 5 weeks old look so big. but its 30 bucks! kinda.... no very expansive

i still want to sleep. oh man

i am too tired to blog yesterday night!
i love Saturday! a day where i show the real me.

met amandaz and mae at bugis and went to take neoprints. saw some costume play people and than rush all the way to snd. haha and on the way we three brought a fake flower each and mae and amandaz got all crazy on the bus. taking about soul out of the body and all crap.

so we reached snd LATE as NORMAL. anyway everyone was happy to see amandaz again. anyway she joined our lesson. and thanks dancing pole for saying to ignore me. i will also ignore you!

walked to the beach and is so cool. got the guitar and all sort. did the jump and thanks to mae the camera-women. she took a great shot of me jumping. played the guitar, sang "bubbly" all kind of songs. than amandaz had to go.(sad)

anyway so we walked about 1km to mac to eat. and than cycle. we reached the other end of the beach and back to the shop within 30mins. trying to cycle slow seems impossible to me. haha

watched the stars. stupid clouds but however all the stars appear. haha love the night sky, love the stars love the beach, love everything about anything! got a table cloth mat to relax on.

shared a doubled chocolate. sweet in the heart. everything is ever so sweet and nice.

engaged to Mr. guitar? my dear mae - impossible!

i cant find myself through the pile of life.

i stood there
looking
if only someone kind can lend me a hand
and if i got the strength to take it

i so hate someone today and i am so going to spread. like it or not i had my level of understanding. define "the whole world" by me only telling one person so far! i cant cant cant stand the-know-it all person. just pure irritating. and just so you know. you arent that friendly as you think you are. or pure you-know-what.

you think you are so good? you are just nothing!

i don't have to choose today. dont have to choose anything at all. there's no add maths and English! yes! haha i am so happy! but... my teacher (add math) is not here cos he is sick and i have to stay back till 6! oh man...

and i am going to hate passing for a certain time.

i am so tired and i dont feel like coming back home. screaming and shouting is not that way i want for attention. went dinner with lee hung and kenny near my school. and had a seafood pizza. its perfect. if only mae is there.

so when i was buying some food with lee hung. some voices at the back was saying something. and it sound so familiar. is my lit teacher and two other teachers which happen to the reason why i have to stay till 6. or maybe not 6. somewhat close to 6. well it was shocking to see my lit teacher and those other teachers too. but well i guess the place is near my school so there are so many chances to meet them there. well....

is this the way we get attention?

crap my life is full of crap. and along the way, move crap jumps in.

i had to stay back in school till 6pm! man man man. i wonder what we are going to do! so there go my lesson once again. so this is number one. than number two. should i go for add maths or english? i rather choose add maths. but than there is english! i dont want to see him but i really have no choice. how about this? i go for half a lesson each? why must both be at the same time and same day?

in english i manage to memorize two parts of my poem. well i better start doing everything now before i have no time.

i want my singing lesson! and my fencing or tennis or anything. just throw me a sport that is not under the sun. i will take them all! i hate turning tan.

i think i am going to have problem with her again. and all she does is like to not to talk to me. no matter what i ask. but than if this is going to happen again. let me tell you i will just end everything! seriously i dont think friendship will last. it suck. just because you cant stand my weekend life? or my other life? so dont! i dont have to shut all the way. there's is simply nothing to chat about now.

OHHH~~ man. today is the date i got my frogs! happy dead birthday to you guys! love you green green and greenest. and also those other two. green and greener.

no it's never going to be that simple

fun fun fun.. when to start work?

guess sunday i had to mug everything. i always think that mug was like being rob or something. but i guess its just have another meaning.

finally mae went for SND! after not seeing her for like a billion years. and crapy thing is that i still think i prefer miss michella teaching. is so random. haha i dont know why. but miss ying ying is the candy time teacher while miss michella is the game teacher and dancing pole? he will always be dancing pole.

got fun at last. haha and we left snd while raining. and we walked in the rain without any umbrellas, so we bought raincoats. yellow raincoats. and i felt like a yellow duckling taking my very first walk. and is like we are the only two person in raincoat while the rest was carrying umbrellas. got a jacket than cost really cheap. and is so worth of it. i love me new jacket.


and it was than it was dinner at swensens. menu : black pepper clam pasta, baked mussels, fries and a chocolate fondue and coke. we had them shared.nothing wasted this time. and is so filling even it was shared. even try tomato with chocolate and salt and pepper? my answer dont even think of trying.

got a gold ribbon clip. and had a really hard time to fix mae's hairstyle. well in the end. the pro me did it. haha

than it was time for.......arcade!

haha love the rides and drumming and softball and everything. but is just too noisy! but what can you do? is a arcade!

and went to macs for fries and ice-cream.

today is the day that i will never forget.
is the day where i got the new me.
is the day i break-free.
is the day i love.
is the day where i felt most like myself.
is the day i that is so worth.

i love today!

PS: mae. i am not the slacker accompanist, but i am in the "un-enthu"-attitude tribe. haha ;D

so i was like 100 percent getting crazy over something i should not get bother by. never question anything. haha. well i mean why do i have this feeling?

well i cant answer my own question or feeling. and i am screaming! why do i have this feeling or question about our friendship? that should not even be a question.

and i moving on happily. to understand why my life often happen for a reason. well maybe i think too much.

had breakfast with one of my friend and got a CD! and drink six cups of coca-cola and i am getting much high now... and i felt so damn wrong at times to times.

maybe when you start growing up. you get lesser. and lesser still the only day you will realize that the only person you can count on is yourself.

maybe its time to train for my future job. to stand alone. ever.

didn't i tell you. this will pass by? but i cant spell it out for you.

i am starting to sing every night. maybe just someday i will be spotted by a white light.

take time to realize. sorry for questioning why.

maybe i should not write about someone. if that person is real

i wrote this essay about a best friend of my. that we never be best friend anymore.

i pick a name. her name
my only best friend name

than i thought it WILL never happen to us

how crazy we are, how we could read each other mind. and everything

but things turn out differently.

i am in a path. that have to sign upfront
to the left: it says END IT with red
to the right : it says STAY ON with green. (green)

my legs are moving to the left, while my eyes fix on the right. my hands help along the way.
my soul reached the left.

i died.

i am reaching the left. my minds is helping me to crash our friendship.

is this how we end things?

the nines....

it blown me.

seriously

is like the sims 2. kinda controlling everything and everyone. with a mind set or someone.

This movie encompasses Psychology, Metaphysical multi-dimensional Theory, personal philosophy, and Theology.

the movie is in 3 parts.

The film is a fantasy and the nines are a mystery, both collaborating in a way that captures the imagination. The three stories intersect and overlap with themes that confuse and inspire, which will leave many audiences pondering for awhile. But it is not as confusing as it may appear as the plot unfolds fairly intricately to those paying attention. All of the stories hold explanations, and the last explains it all.

the person is number 9 while humans are 7. monkeys are 6. well is like so... speechless. cant explain it with humans words.

love this part:
The cat says "Meow!" The pig says "Oink!" The cow says "Moo!" The cow says "Moo!" The cow says "Moo!" The dog says "Nine... nine... nine... nine... nine...”

is like another show "number 23" everything around (in) the show all adds up to 9. freaky but yup its a great show!

The Return of JEZEBEL JAMES!! haha new show! i love it!

i got a new wallet! i got a new wallet. now it matchs my pouch! haha yeah. thanks to zi ying for chooseing it. i wanted to get that but i am not sure. so i am left to three choices. but in the end i got the one that matches. isnt it nice.

PS: ss-in-teaching. is not that i am a big shot or something, but i just really did not hear you call me. and plus i only look up becuase aisah told me about it. >.< oh man what did i do anyway?

haiz well maybe the truth is out, maybe i know why. maybe it is suppose to be that way.
when you cant be lovers, you be friends...

come out come out where ever you are.

for the time being i will not play this game and soon. and i will no got to the bathroom at 2am to 3am. which is 2.06am. no thanks i think i will wet the bed than to go to the bathroom.

oh my gosh. even before the show i knew that Charlie was the father. i watched it 3 years ago while on the plane back home from Aus. the last part only. i think i was asleep while letting it play or somewhat but i think that time it was really late and i had a long day and i did not get enough sleep the day before. or i did not sleep at all.

it wasn't really a spoiler to know who Charlie was, well maybe a bit. okay a bit more than a bit. but it still bring me shock anyway... love the show much.

come out come out where ever you are

well i had it. always thinking that one day i would day. haha who don't?

so i had been wanting to watch the show "premonition" starring Sandra bullock ever since i saw it on the web. but finally i watched it today. just now before i blog about it.

so it rocks, come on which show i watched never rocks before? is like "number 23" which really get me cracking about everything to see if it adds up to 23. and well like "next" whom if only i got the 2 minutes of premonition how great would that be.

well if life is a film, which it is. i would want it to be so perfect that everything is flawless. but who can do such a thing? no one is perfect. there's no such person as no one. or so far as i known any. if i happen to know any, well i must be... don't know, somehow i will be sane.

i love the show very super much. if Jim doesn't have to die in the end, it will be great. but it seems like he was planned to die. but after all, my guessing for the ending was right. she became pregnant. and guess what, i was watching it with my friend and he said cant cheat in a marriage. you have to pay for it. haha

love! as i said is when something or someone is in love with the other or the other fact is that one thinks that one is in love with the other.

okay that don't make any sense. or it does?

well anyway the other time when i really enjoy the word, was having it in big prints around my shirt as a dare, on the true or dare game. and i had to kiss every guy in the house. including: a hamster, a mickey mouse and a dog and well 3 kids and a baby. so you might think is nothing. well it is nothing because i was like... 7? or so? 6 maybe? okay 6+ going on to 7. well is a game after all.

and still i now i wonder why does this few words make one brighten up so much. which was told by the opposite sex and whom had no blood related with.

she said she felt love when he said her name. even when it wasn't her that he is calling.

and i don't get it. seriously...

what can you say when there's a phrase, love is blind? is love really blind or the person in love is blind?

ps: i like the way he walk, the way he calls, the way he touchs, the way he wears his shirt. so far i ever think of it -taken from someone

blog skin i mean. the post is kinda weird at the bottom. like all the words crash into a lump. well i will change that some day. so bear with it when reading haha. hmm time to spot the stars in the sky again :D

i love stars
those in the sky
those that make me feel happy after a hard day
those that brought a smile in my face
when i wish upon a star
i want to see your face

i try to make a patten of those stars up there but there ain't many. but there is 3 that happen to be in straight line and also same distance apart... and mae, well she mention it. if not i wont even think there is such stuff.

mae: hello you think im in astronomy for nothing argh!
me: haha, whats the name?
mae: haha duno the name, but its part of the constellation of Orion
me: okay. thats deep
mae: haha

and the thing is
mae : actually thats about the only thing i know about the stars, the only other fact is.. the sun is a star

and i told her i will put that in my post
and this is what she said
mae: thats so degradatory to my astronomy club man!

haha

well that's what i want
to see you up there
all the night
i could sit right beside the window and look at you
for hours
even in my dream i will think of you

something bother me so much this few days maybe the rain. all i been saying is : rain rain go away come again another day. i miss the days where the sun is up there. and yup is a star too. i think i am going crazy about star

you will bring me good dream tonight
thank you little stars

fri 7 march:
morning: slacking the whole day. haha like the normal me
afternoon: had lunch with bei bei and her sister before her sister got her A level result
afternoon-night: watch disney on ice haha i felt like a kid again :D thanks lee hung for those very good seats ticket.
night: went to enjoy the whole night for result

sat 8 march
snd.. like normal. haha and dancing pole isnt just a dancing pole afterall. hmm. so not like him. and i am still thinking of getting something much important.

sun 9 march
on msn the whole day. haha da both hunks reached their new found home. enjoy hunks. :D

i have no idea why i even bother to update my boring life. but anyway. i love "time to say goodbye" it kinda make me miss my frogs. "get over it" i know haha

Happy birthday emily!

17 july 2007

alone and everyone out there (from the view of my window) seem to be having fun but just not me. i am in the pink shirt standing behind the grills looking out just to hope that i could enjoy my life like them. the dog next door ran home and barked non-stop at the sky. it was dark and it is only morning. just as tears roll down from my cheeks. the first drop of rain landed on the ground. and it started raining. and why does it had to rain when i am feeling sad? the phone rings, a call from my mum. asking me how i am. those words sound so touching and i am feeling much better. the tears in my eyes dry out and the sun came peeping behind the clouds. i am looking for the rainbow but it was no where to be found. but i think it is up there, just above me. above the roof. shining bright...

edited : 07 march 2008

someone ask me why i not writing all this anymore? i think i should so i am starting again.. should i?

Song: All-American Girl
Artist: Carrie Underwood
Album: Carnival Ride

Yeah~Yeah~

Since the day they got married
He'd been praying for a little baby boy
Someone he could take fishing
Throw the football and be his pride and joy
He could already see him holding that trophy
Taking his team to state
But when the nurse came in with a little pink blanket
All those big dreams changed

And now, he's wrapped around her finger
She's the center of his whole world
And his heart belongs to that sweet, little, beautiful, wonderful, perfect
All American girl

Sixteen short years later
She was falling for the senior football star
Before you knew it he was dropping passes
Skipping practice just to spend more time with her
The coach said, hey son what's your problem
Tell me have you lost your mind
Daddy said you'll lose your free ride to college
Boy, you better tell her goodbye

But now, he's wrapped around her finger
She's the center of his whole world
And his heart belongs to that sweet, little, beautiful, wonderful, perfect
All American

And when they got married and decided to have one of their own
She said, be honest, tell me what you want
And he said, honey you outta know

A sweet, little, beautiful one just like you
I want a beautiful, wonderful, perfect All American

Now, he's wrapped around her finger
She's the center of his whole world
And his heart belongs to that sweet, little, beautiful, wonderful, perfect
All American girl

All American girl

it cant change everything i know about you.
but i am trying to forget you. and its hurt

damn, i think i pissed off mae today. ahr!!!!! slacker she skip school for the whole week and never even inform me... hmm.. plus i think she needs a time alone.

okay this thing totally laugh my head off today.

i was sitting in my room, in the dark, at one corner and guess what? my mum came in. she does not even know i was there. so i said BOO and she started screaming! haha. oh my gosh i am still laughing and there is tears. haha

sometimes present means alot to me,
i need you to be there

so i better start reading SND book and watch the movie before sat. hmm last week we did this still movement for 5 mins. something to do with my speech or whatsoever but yeah... hoping mae's leg would get better now. hmm

you means everything to me,
now who is there to replace you?