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fame has its price

if they only knew who i really am

if i only can be that person they want me to

i say i can make it

all the way to the top

to join the best and to fight with the best

for all i know i can do it

you shall wait and see

i will prove that i will be able to have fame

able to be the best in the best

top the fame, top the list be the fame, be the fame

went to cut my hair. lots of different. my hair is seriously so light now!! i am loving it now!! :)love my hair

rules and rules and one is not supposed to talk when the other is. i am not pointing out in English class today. oh wait. I AM!!

i totally think English lesson is super bored. well because of the teacher. yeah. one should not blame on others. but is like i think is bored. it is bored. anyway. so the teacher is talking about something which i don't think would "change" anything about my life. and thus me talking would "kill" him. i totally had to idea what crap he wants. never like him. never will.

if some other lesson, this were to happen to me. being called out in the lesson. with the teacher saying "i am talking here." i would say "sorry" or something. but today i said. "so". totally don't care. don't bother. and don't count on it.

i don't have this feeling to blog about it. but just i don't get it. is like our class need hebadly and if he is not there. we would not be able to "breathe". anyway the other lesson with the other class at the AVT. he just simply sit there is rot. and totally had to depend on the other teacher to teach. any comments that he had. is just as if he rather not speak.

Mabel thinks i should not post this post but. who cares. if he reads it and blame it on me. well there is more than one English class i have. and for all the teacher who teaches me. i had a "loudspeaker".

ask dancing pole. or maybe not him. anyway. it had no idea why i had this "madness" but it seems that i don't like him today!!. not just today. i think it would be everyday.

saw dancing pole on sat. wonder why he never take our class. but i guess he is better for teaching pole dancing. haha nah. well he teaches higher level. like my class not among the high grade. anyway is the highest!!! or maybe not. and also wonder why mad women never take us. haha. well some says she was better with the kids. anyway... she asked me what was my marks for my exam last year. i had no idea. never look. and she said "she can live with it?" yeah. why not. i mean is just a mark. haha

i should not have even look for SND'08 hw. ahr. now i had to that hw for speech this year. oh man. anyway there is this audition thingy. hmm... i wonder why.

well anyway i wish i never had to meet my P in school ever. on thu. mark and i was talking about little Britain and duh if you watch the show, it rocks and there would be a line like this " for all you know i am the only gay in the village." and i was saying this. "mark you are the only gay in the village" and he goes what Ann would say in the film. "ah. ah. ah.." and than from the right the P walk pass. worst she said "good morning girls" "dead" haha well she is in a good mood anyway.

cant wait for the next holiday.

so the results is out. i am not a straight As person nor a B person i am a rather a C or maybe love to see the red marks on my chinese paper person.

the paper is out. i am the first one. the person who everyone will look at me. and i dont know what to do. my chinese is totally horrible in class. you can ask everyone. but the thing is finally someone understand how i feel when doing the chinese paper.

and i am dropping chinese. or i am glad with my marks. i totally hate my chinese teacher last year. but i had to thank her. and my math teacher. Did i overcome my phobia? phobia of exam? i dont know. i cried the whole day.

i dont know should i drop chinese or not.but the thing is i dont want to retake...
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Just go. dont look back...

anyway today was sad. just don't know why. everything seems wrong. he wanted me to go out for lunch with him. but the he said go with him. and they are not talking. i just had to go home. walked home. with my bag. heavy red bag.

i am so tired of everything what thing seems right what thing seems wrong. everything is wrong but i just stood there looking.

mark told me about little Britain live. totally rocks but a bit sick. he got the Cd but he ask me go you tube to watch... can't he lend me? anyway glad that show cheer me up.

tons of homework to do but no time to do. had to start mugging for major exam this year but it ain't that easy.

i am trying to catch my breathe but all i could do now is hang on to the oxygen pipe. and the level of oxygen is running out. i want to break free. but i cant.

this year... zinc and i are much better. even though something i would rather hang out with shaan and the rest but i just want to feel "in" but i cant feel "in" unless i am in SND. which is the place to be. but the both of us are not as close as we use to be and everyone seems to ask me... take mark for example "you and zi ying not talking ahr?" we are but i just did not see her standing there. maybe i should go and say something but just we are not like how we use to be.

she found a new best friend i thought. and does she till need me? i felt like someone whom happen to pass by her. we are moving away. along the line. the line the draw us apart.

is like the feeling i had when i see pH. the feeling that could never go away. no matter what mae said i till cant "forgive" myself. two sitter sit had to become 3 sitter. i miss that i miss the old us. i miss the time where we go crazy all the way. why does this had to end?

temptation!! a word means so much. is a word made out of..... fries?

haha.... yup is made out of fries.

sat rules!!! totally rocks. and i was almot killed by my mum. haha

so sat is snd day. anyway went snd and we totally forgot to do the homework. so miss ying ying toss the filming into a Cd and pass to us. the cover is so super posh!! haha and sofia and sheena had their turn filming while me and mae were looking at the video of us. and set the tone to super high so we sound like we were on helium. haha

after snd went for dinner at parkway. for sake sushi!!! haha ate a lot ate too much that we had to "go". i mean i had to "go". haha anyway i think is cos i had not had sushi in a long time that why.

so we went shopping!!! yeah!!!!!!!! i know. haha... had to shop for mae's inner wear and we spent like hours there, anyway i was so so so so bored that i started "modeling" haha.. is not what u think.. i hold it and stand there holding it in a way that others would think i am somewhat a... a.... dont know what to say but anyway the sales lady thought mae was my sister. no time to explain or maybe i dont want to explain.

went to get my tee. yeah!!! is full of trees that sound like that body vein. haha got 20% discount. haha so i got that tee and mae got a shorts and her inner wear. and we shop till the shop close. seriously close like all the exit had close just for one exit only.

and i totally forgot to buy my hair stuff that all the shops had close. man i am so dead on monday. hope the VP dont find me again.

went to mac. which sound like i am on crack. laughing all the way. thanks to mae. i see her i laugh. haha non-stop. as for those who know me. once i laugh i cant stop. anyway we made the word temptation with fries. haha... for all joy there a part of seriousness. my mum called. well u think is like 11pm plus. ahr!!! so anyway we had to like go off but we saw pH. yeah tell me about it. when she is with us she said she had to go off at 5pm now is 11pm.. anyway she was like so fake. anyway. sad.

so anyway we had to take a taxi home and i reach home at like 12.05am. dead. not that dead haha my mum never scold me but than anyway the end is i am safe and sound. you think...

you said be right back but you did not come through the door
you said you will be there for you but when i need you, you tend to be busy
you said you will be there soon but the soon seems too long
you said you will not make the same mistake but it seems the mistake "make" you
you said leave me alone and i did but you meet up
you said lets end it, i agree but you till tagging along

just get lost. for once is my turn to ask you to go away.

so i went for opening for two days. with my back and my leg aching like hell but well thats what they call. the schools are getting bigger and bigger as you grow.

FRI:
went tp with shaan, elaine, darren, wilfred, yi ning, sheng xiang and rayner.
in short: big school, fun and well erm.. the same?

after that we went for dinner at CS and guess what! i saw wei chong at the bus station after that. he went for tp open house too. but the thing is i never see him.. hmmm

SAT:
went sp open house. the school is seriously big. went with mae. thanks for company me. haha so i saw the course i wanted but i guess i was not that attract to it. hmm... but anyway than i met wei jie. he is in that school. haha. he wanted to pass me something but he change his no. woo thanks for not telling me. :'( and met shaan, Vanessa and crap i dont know whats her spelling is.. anyway and as we are about to leave the place, we saw shenna. but she not going SND. and sofia is on her way to tp.

so mae's dad fetch as to SND. late duh. like always. and well miss ying ying is our teacher again. was thinking what if mr dancing pole is our teacher??!?? but well it will never happen. so the class had the same old people. and crystabell is not joining us. hmm werid. but well...did some filming yesterday. haha miss ying ying new hp is a WOW can... haha.

guess all i could think of now is to do all the hw and start doing SND hw....

lunch with aisah. toady.

haha. i dont know why i am so tired today. so all post shall be short. sorry

had lunch with aisah today at tm. and was talking about almost everything.

so i till had not gotten my mud mask yet but i bought a new cell case today. haha.

anyway had long john and till now i am till full.

thats a good thing right? haha

schools, like always. the teacher place you. sadly u got chosen to sit with someone super super super like seriously super irritating. and you want to change the sit. but somewhat the teacher said "to live with it."

so i got this idea.

since it is hard to get rid of him. i might well be irritating towards him. but........

when you play with fire. you get burnt.

so........

shall i be nice towards him?

but sadly....... i choose to play with fire.

physic
what had i learn for this past year. and had to write it down on the piece of paper to hand in to the teacher. well i went totally blank. until the teacher ask me

" adeline.... you never learn anything for physic?"

"i seriously dont know what to write. seriously."

i went totally blank. there is so many thing to write but i dont know how to put down in words. is just like so many thing but if i had to choose 4 to write down... that would be...... BLANK? gosh...

i think the teacher is totally disappoint at me..

opps.... ):

all i can think now is to do super well for this year. throwing my hearts out to complete it.

so there a saying whatever happen in (place) stays in (place) which is 100 percent true.

for all i could think is personally well... BLANK.....

i am super depress this year. everything in on hold now. so am i. in a hold on mood.

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