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why would mae take manbo no.5 the song and place it under ben, saying that the song reminds him. and it really does, and i dont know why.

meet luke from texas: haodeyae

meet derek from USA: it is 8am and is time for me to sleep

meet mark from NZ: where my hair is as long as a girl

meet ramahkrishnan suresh from india : i come from the land where the richest are till hidden.

the best thing ever done, meaning people from different parts of the world with mae.

haha. thanks chipmunk

haha. never update for a long long time. not that long too. but i just dont felt like updating till now. haha and

Happy Birthday to the three Darren(s)
haha
today my friend darren birthday
today my school friend darren birthday
tomorrow my friend darren birthday

so well i only got two darren birthday present should be three but i dont know what to give and maybe i shall not give haha evil me, haha. it's work yeah it does.

okay so this shop i got the present for and the salesgirl is so funny. i told her to wrap the two present. both the same, well they both know each other and i seriously dont want to "cost" (beacuse it is kinda expensive!!) so many trouble, if i give differently and you know, guys are so petty on this kind of things. so i got both the same easier. haha.. oh oh than i told her i need the key chain both had the word "darren" on it but tied on the present separately and than she asked " huh? why?". i told her both present is given to darren. than she replied " both to the same person?" and i told her that both had the same name one birthday after the other and she said " to the same person? " haha oh my gosh dont she get it is both different person but different birthday next to each other. gosh

and anyway here a thing i saw the cake. and guess what both had the same wording on the cake. "happy birthday (age) darren" but the age is different. two years apart. well their age add up can pass off like a ten year old. not meaning that they are that young but they can be. and i just hope they can have a cake that wrote happy birthday to darren(s) that all.

and that not my business...

so my sister email me two to three days before she is returning home and thank you i am bored to death here. AND I AM NOT WATCHING HEROES. as in i am watching but not as crazy as her. i want to eat something now. something nice, something which i dont feel any guilt about. working out now. yeah i should do that like a couple of years ago but i like the way i am now, than, now? anyway working on my big crazy project and hopefully i will be able to done it all by myself. sound hard. i can(not) do it.

oh and here a silly Qns . cos i am bored and i dont want to work. that is not the answer. cos i have not give the Qns yet, okay.

Qns:Which side of a duck has the most feathers?
Ans: the outside. duh, haha

okay i am lame.

Song : Rain
Artist: Priscilla Ahn

Well it's raining and it's pouring
and my old man, well he is snoring
rainy day stay
well my brother, he builds a puzzle
on the blue rug with lazy bubbles
rainy day please stay
rain rain don't go away, the sun can come back another day
rainy day please stay
well my mother, she doesn't bother with the dishes in the kitchen
rainy day please stay
well now i am three thousand miles from a rainy day with my dearest lovers
fathers dreaming of the fall
mother covers with the shall
brothers in the yellow hall, painting pictures on the wall
i am listening on the floor, to sounds i used to know
rain is falling to the ground praying all the hopes
are found
rain rain don't go away, the sun can come back another day, rain please stay
rain rain rain rain....

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does it sound like our childhood song? rain rain go away?
it just reflect on my life, rain rain go away. and wash away the hateness.

mandy @ the perfect world (not) says :
haha. i go tag now...

addie says :
go go. i nothing to do now go tag, say something nice okay

mandy @ the perfect world (not) says :
thick-skin. u think u that nice? i nicer lol

addie says :
thick-skiner no.1 man. haha go tag la.

mandy @ the perfect world (not) says :
link me link me hor.

addie says :
okay..

mandy @ the perfect world (not) says :
thanks. going to tag now wait and see what i tag

addie says :
cant wait. >.<

mandy @ the perfect world (not) says :
haha.

addie says :
cant link u

mandy @ the perfect world (not) says :
serious? must be too many people link me thats why

addie says :
what crap!! u super thick skin!!!
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so tell me am i think skin or is she? haha

cant stop saying HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!! i love the food!! haha

HAPPY THANKS-GIVING!!!

time of the year!!! haha

went brunch with mum today and bees love us. seriously. i mean they LOVE us. so, i got sprite which of all reason i had sprite today and once i open the bees came flying towards me. and if u are there, watching from far, u might think we are nuts. i mean bees love honey and SPRITE? on earth sprite, for crying out loud i mean why must u mess with me? us? i mean bees? one is not allow to attack them, they might attack us back and the worst is the sting is super hurtful plus i have to mood to attack them, is thanks-giving and is the season to love and thank and forgive and everything. mum thinks that there is a bee hive somewhere and there is no flowers or any food for the bees so they are attacking the drink for sweet. and wait. there is a "bee-hive" school right opposite us. dots i know.

cant wait for the feast later, butter prawns and i also don't know. haha.

oh i got back my SND'07 results. haha don't ask, i also dont know my marks, i just know i pass and the comments is... emu can hear double voice from me, or the voice i said was not clear. and heard from mae, my discussion score very well and my speak not bad i think. haha self-praise. and i am so "jealous" miss ying ying said me and mae wont have any medal this year unlike sofia and sheena. we had different exam school exam so different thing. and i dont know how i felt too. but on that day me and mae were like. "ohhh~~~ we are so jealous.. got medal woo~~" haha and i don't know why i am typing this down into this post. haha

and i am bored for now

oh mood effect when watching brothers and sisters season 2 episode 7 and my mood seriously stick to the show.

time to help to cook now. :)

i just realise that friendship could be that sweet. that nice and funny when looking back at the road you had walk with...


Milo and noodles.

those may sound like an everyday thing to you but while i was wondering alone with my others new - found friendship in NZ, those are things we had together.

sound like we got a rough stay there or whatsoever. nope we had fun there is just that i was making lunch just now and preparing my noodles and Milo, it just brought me back to the times when i was in NZ. gosh i miss those times.


i am not really that close or should i said... not that close till the point...they are with each other. i don't hang around with them much in school but in that trip, i can say i was not out-casted. the fond image was much better to enjoy than see.


noodles and Milo that would be the greatest thing i had pick up. apart from all the pick-up lines from everyone in that trip. haha, gosh i sound so "funny" now. it got to do with the rain. haha... Milo and noodles. trying the NZ way which seriously i had no idea noodles can be cook without soup.


the stars seem much brighter there and closer when you had friends with you and yup not forgetting how all five of us - Elaine,sheng xiang,Darren,shaan and me... had over "star-meal" and well it just all remind me of SND people. as close they can be.

so there a thing, open your heart out to those around you. for what you know. they are nice... time to take off that branded sun glass of yours and start looking at people. for all you know. some are just the opposite way as you think they are.

thanks all of you (those went on the trip) for letting me have a such great impression on friendship. after what i had been through my worse friendship of the year. :)

'mae says:
hes such an idiot!!

'maesays:
hehehe

ADDIE says:
totally agree

haha that about that person whom i had nothing to say about him

please please dont let him see this blog.

i am just pasting what we said on to this post haha

prove
she is crazy about heroes!!


'mae says:
whoa heroes heroes heroes!!

'mae says:
u watch until what?

ADDIE says:
till yesterday

ADDIE says:
that bit

about the CD shop

'mae says:
rmb at the cd shop

'mae says:
then i reach to the right and u reach to the left...!

she was at my left and the CD was on the right so we happen to grab it at the same time when our hands was crisscross.
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okay i am bored. haha, i shall do something now. no i am not watching heroes!!! not yet. not now. so other time i think maybe in the morning. oh when i am so alone without my sister than i will start watching, cos i think that show seriously remind me of her. haha :)

okay there is a few ways to spot if someone is seriously crazy about heroes.

1. anything that come out from the person mouth is connected to heroes
2. the blog is filled with heroes
3. within 5 mins, heroes will pop up again in the conversation
4. in the CD shop the only idea is to hunt for heroes's DVD
5. the movie watch - heroes
6. power wish to have is also from heroes
7. force others to watch heroes
8. stay up late to watch heroes

so. who am i referring to? the person who reads this will surely know. and yup here a thing. i dont know anything about heroes or i have not even start watching it. not even a bit of it. okay a bit of it yesterday which yeah yeah.... okay i till not that fallen for it yet. but (should i give the person away?) maybe i should... well the person stuck to it is MAE... my barbarian sister. haha oh oh. and yup she cant stop thinking about heroes.

we went out after SND and which is like the last lesson for this year. but there would be a meeting up with the people there and what we going to talk about. heroes. which is like the topic for the day or year in SND. gosh. seriously is that nice?!? oh yeah~ wait till i see the show. that what you are going to tell me.

okay okay so me and my barbarian sister went out yesterday and we hop into this CD store where the first thing for me is to spot for any of my favourite show on DVD or so, and i saw grey's anatomy DVD (AHH) and no i did not buy it. *hehe waiting for someone to give me as a gift or so* and sitting next to the DVD is heroes - season one and picture this in your mind. the both of us reaching out for it. me - grey's anatomy, barbarian sister - heroes.

and yesterday was super fun and nice!!! and cant wait for sleepover!! and for all those who talk to mae yesterday on msn, it was me who reply all of it. haha. and dont forget that person whom is like super - i cant use any words to describe him...

well bye bye sister. hope you have fun in china while i have my scholarship in NZ- you know what i mean...

yo yo people readers all my dear gossip friend my long long lost sms bestie!!! i am home home home to where i was raise!! haha

back from NZ one thing to say

i LOVE New Zealand

everything there is nice. everything there is cool, new but the only thing that i dont seriously like is the travel time. duh. the distance is like super long and all sort so we can like spend almost half of the day on the bus. and as elaine said. the onle thing i learn is to learn to sleep on the bus. me too. well not the first time i travel this long distance on four wheels.

well there is like so many things to say but i dont know what to type. dont know how to put them down in words. i will just say.

-make new friends
-enjoy the weather
-miss the place
-nice food
-dont really like some of the place
-really want to go back there
-hope the trip is longer
-i just wish there is more time for me to sleep on the bed and not on the bus
-miss mae alot
-more bonding with classmate or schoolmate


okay okay thats all and i cant wait to meet mae tml. to pass her things i bought. and tell her so many things. but too bad she leaving china on monday. now my turn to be home and see her traveling.

Save You by Matthew Perryman Jones

I wanna rock-n-roll
I wanna give my soul
I’m wanting to believe I’m not too old
Don’t wanna make it up
Don’t wanna letcha down
I wanna fly away
I’m stuck on the ground

So, help me decide
Help me to make up
Make up my mind
Wouldn’t that save you?
Wouldn’t that save you?
Wouldn’t that save you?

Watched all go by
Was it really true?
Is that what it was?
Was that really you?
I’m looking back again
Tracing back the threads
You said it was a mess
Or was it just in my head?

So, help me decide
Help me to make up
Make up my mind
Wouldn’t that save you?
Wouldn’t that save you?
Wouldn’t that save you?

So, help me decide
Help me to make up
Make up my mind
Wouldn’t that save you?
Wouldn’t that save you?
Wouldn’t that save you?

Somethings gotta break
You gotta swing the bat
Too many years of dying
Why is that?

So, help me decide
Help me to make up
Make up my mind
Wouldn’t that save you?
Wouldn’t that save you?
Wouldn’t that save you?

So, help me decide
Help me to make up
Make up my mind
Wouldn’t that save you?
Wouldn’t that save you?
Wouldn’t that save you?

So, help me decide
Help me to make up
Make up my mind
Wouldn’t that save you?
Wouldn’t that save you?
Wouldn’t that save you?

Wouldn’t that save you?
Wouldn’t that save you?
Wouldn’t that save you?

Wouldn’t that save you?
Save you?
Wouldn’t that save you?

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guilt. a word means a lot.

guilt something which bothers me for now

guilt which is pushing me

well i went to this talk by Dr. Jane Goodall for which most known as the famous bio. woman whom i happen to had a photo with on the day of the talk. which should be a bless or something. which don't bother me much until today right today in lit lesson, when my teacher whom happen to went for the talk too, know that i had a photograph session which her and said i am so bless as you know she might not come back to this country again and well this could be the only chance that i get to see her in my life. and well it really "hit" me. in a sense the teacher whom taught me things i never know, whom from lit i learn other than lit itself said that he don't think he deserve to have a snap with her. i went blank. seriously blank if he don't deserve it what makes i should? maybe i am over pounding about it or so but this may hit me lots. i mean well from a point this teacher whom you look up too said he don't deserve it? i mean from me he is the most well respect teacher i ever could had said that but he don't deserve it? don't as in seriously don't?

and next... school out and i felt funny like not as happy as i used to be. i mean school terms are finally over even it ate into my holiday plans but now is out and i am till not as happy as before. i don't know. maybe it is because that i am flying with my school to NZ on wed and well not that is the first time i flew with my school nor the first time i flew nor the first time i travel on my own, but the feeling is like there is butterfly in my tummy and not making me feel very very well. and i seriously don't know why.

well someone as me to said "hello" to someone in one morning and can't. is the simple word like "hello" whom been used million times but i can't said it out to that person. i don't feel like using name today so just someone would leave spaces in between. i had been thinking, a lot and asking myself why do i care so much about it. i don't want to have this friendship back or should i said i want to but the someone whom ask me to say "hello" to the someone was right. i can't possibly don't talk to that someone for the whole year. it can't be done. there would be a point that you had to say something. gosh i should had listen to kevis and give the present i bought for the someone else. or throw away would be the actual words he said. but it cost me over 40 dollars for that thingy, i just happen to pass by this shop and saw the thingy that someone once mention before that the someone like it and i... "quit looking at me like that!" "like what?" "that!"
is like the present wrap up with silver wrapping paper looking at me in the face. i can't give it away it got the person name written all over it. and what you want me to do? give to her? make no sense. foe don't give foe anything. or something... unless is poison. haha... well i don't know. i will see about it. but just so you know. it might be found in somewhere nice.