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things to do
1. post lyric for joan - everywhere i go
2. pay the fee for musical
3. shop for NZ stuff
4. pack the mess in the living room
5. get something to eat. i skip my dinner
6. post something about Shaan.

which for 1 to 5 i do know where to start

post about shaan

okay lets see

post about shaan

oh happy birthday SHAAN... erm just think i am wishing you from NZ... haha 5 hours added to the time is 1 nov. so happy birthdday

okay about shaan
i also dont know
i shall think about it and blog tml. haha
blog about shaan

there you go

SHAAN

actually not really i dont have any yet...
okay apart from slacking at the wrong time and talking on the phone non-stop. hey people i got my life okay... hmm hmm. kinda pissed now. dont know why.

halloween!!! happy halloween people.

haha and happy happy times where the most i will be sitting now alone and drinking non-stop and poping candy into my mouth while watching almost a lot new faces dancing in creepy mask where... i think the dream where you went to a dance and have no dance partner while sitting there in your dress checking your nails. pulling your phone out hoping that one of the contect in your phone would save you from this. but it none called and when you walk out of the swinging door, alone. worst while waiting for a cab or something. the side of your eye catches your enemy had a date with - at that time the cutest guy for that moment. and when you are sober, the world started to spin.

haha

well. talk about something. wait do let me get crazy for a while. HI LAPTI. HI INTERNET. HI SCREENSAVER OF ME. HI MOVIES. HI SIMS 2. HI HI HI!!! YES MAMA IS BACK HAHAHA. that JUST happen to come out. dont ask me. haha i miss my lapti for weeks!!! and is back to my side which for a week or so is gone again. this time not it leaving me. i am leaving it. flying off to NZ. haha talking about that.

i text my brother to see if he sending me off. and he asked for my flight no. which i reply. which one? i changing in other country. he text back. oh you want me to go to that country to send you off is it? the one where you actually leaving from this present country.

and here a thing. which i got my chinese o level today. and guess what my dear dear old brother text: if i can pass chinese you can pass chinese okay. good luck!
and the good luck is send to me after the whole exam... _>.<_ hmmm

oh oh and during the exam. for the first time my eyes were guled onto the clock counting the time and screaming in my heart that all the crazy things is going to end. which happen i kicking the table too much and this teacher which sit in front of me ask me. "finished exam?" "yar" "last paper?" "yup yup " haha.

and did the happy dance for a while when i am home. and while looking my friends till mugging for the exams. hmm. good luck and jia you. :))

the thing is while you were playing with Mr. cube and hello. i solve it. haha for tht first time. i also dont know how i did it. just turn and turn. oh while i was playing Mr. cube, and watching the rest mugging. i was so happy just looking at the way they mug. it make me happy. haha.

it does cheer me up.

i change my tittle. to :in which addie finds ______ easily for me to sub a word in for it.

addie finds forgive and forget, which i do love it, it makes cahnges. changing is good. change bring peace. change makes a person felt lighter.

In life, only one thing is certain, apart from death and taxes. No matter how hard you try, no matter how good your intentions, you are going to make mistakes. You’re going to hurt people. You’re going to get hurt. And if you ever want to recover... there’s really only one thing you can say.

I forgive you.

Forgive and forget. That’s what they say. It’s good advice, but it’s not very practical. When someone hurts us, we want to hurt them back. When someone wrongs us, we want to be right. Without forgiveness, old scores are never settled… old wounds never heal. And the most we can hope for, is that one day we’ll be lucky enough to forget.

and...that day is today. i cut my hair. forget about what hurts me. forget about a lot of things.

seriously? ha~ really okay~

i am alone... so alone... too alone... going to be lost soon...

i don't know what i type that but that how i feel now. seriously? i don't know.

so talk about today so not talking about my final term exam results. not telling. well had recess today. *like i don't everyday* but i ate *like i don't everyday* with them*huh* yup. tell me about it.

not suppose to eat during recess due to lunch dates. but what the hack no want reply me. is it too offence to text someone this?

so where we lunching later?

reply from many : pizza?

me : AGAIN? can change kinda sick with that. gosh what is so nice about it?

none reply.

is it wrong to say that? we had that for weeks. weeks i mean. i am sick of it. seriously sick. like i can even taste which kinda cheese they use and which brand of meat they use. *just kidding* and i mean wont you be sick?

monday : pizza
tue: same
wed: pizza
thu:(today) pizza? man give me a break.

i had enough cheese in me. *sniff* where does that come from?

shame enough. i forget my own blog add.

well as i said. i had recess with the girls in my class. which in a way or two, is seriously rare and kinda weird for me. i don't eat with them. i don't think i fit in. it just so happen that my food is there and one girl sits there... and the rest follow, which is... i don't know what to say~. i don't know. i don't!!

do you get the feeling like you want to fit in but in the end you feel you don't? that what i felt the whole recess~~ haiz... *haiz what?*

there go my tub of ice-cream!! damn!!!

rule one. don't bring ice-cream on when you baby-sit someone
rule two. if you does hid them
rule three. your luck

my luck!

"no you did not save my life"
"it was nothing."
"it was nothing cos you did not do anything."

i don't know where i get this. but it just happen in my head. like that boom there. see i am lame... that happen when i lose my tub of ice-cream to three 6 years old kids. damn they are good. and i am not. yeah whatever

so i had a walk home with aisah which not all the way home, just to the stop where she live and i leave. hey that's nice. *yeah i know* -.-" and i don't know i mean she watch Hannah Montana. i think i got the name right. i think so plus is so cool... i mean is teen flick so it is cool. the writers are superb. if only it happen in my life and i am.... so don't have to run to shut the widows. is raining... now?

looks is raining the rain wash it away.

that's explain why the frog is jumping. hmm~~

THERAPEUTIC!!! very very... haha

i am so sorry guys. for not being myself today. and thanks guy for understanding me at this time. the first time i tell people about the side of me that no want knows.

usually i am the one on the other side where i listen and not talk but a therapist need to talk too. haha i need to talk. mae where are you? i help you answer mugging for exam. which i talk to amber. amber amber. amber you are great listener but bad therapist. haha mae till better. haha at least i am kinda over it when i tell her.

so sorry chris for pinching you today. i mean i need to express myself by not losing my voice. so yup. sorry and i dont think you feel anything. haha *i am evil*

shaan it works!! at the beach it work. but shouting to it dont. throw stones does. i am not keeping you in the dark is just that i dont know how to put in words. sorry. but hope one day. just one day i will say.

guys i am fine seriously. you guys talk about it like i got some kinda illness that going to go soon. hello... the drama princess here you know. haha *thick skin* i am fine. i am not izzie who is going to be lying on the toilet floor.

"bring some food." "why" "cos that what we do when someone die, we bring food" okay i am not dead, till alive if not you will be reading a ghosty type blog which is kinda new. and kinda creeeepyyyy...

okay i am fine. as in really fine. fine as in very good back to the same. stop asking me. that's why never cry in front of someone. when they think you dont cry. damn i did something so freaky wrong today.. ahhh

damn why is shaan and kevis asking me non-stop? i will type maybe maybe NOT!! i dont know. i am going to transfer all my energy to maths now. bye~~

fou = insane

why do i weep in front of someone whom i barely knew, maybe i am having mood swings today.

shall not talk what make me weep, guess shaan really really want to know. but i dont think i am typing here. guess i will just spill all my anger on why i cried in front of my maths teacher today. i am so not feeling well this past few weeks. and i guess is like the other time i cried during miss ying ying crash-course lesson for exam. cant blame. got e.maths prelim and SND exam and both so much important. and i got to handle my frog death. and someone death. and how the hack am i going to breathe.

know i did not do that well this whole year. and lots of things happening around me. and i need a break. just one tiny break. that explain the sickness i get. i am so down now. so blue. not as in turning blue as how much i wish i am now. which never happen only in private practice. wait a min... NH4. i am so going to breathe that. so i will turn blue. and *as if it will happen* i think i shall go take a long bath and sleep for a while than settle myself down again and forget everything. i mean really forget everything. start from a fresh new me, a fresh new addie.

if i am able to draw people deep dark secrets. i would understand me better.
dont try to change what i am troubled now. it never help because the truth hurts and the truth is hurting me.

thanks for those who comfort me today and sorry lunch pals. i end school early today. only 4hr 30 mins of lesson today.

plus i need to be alone :'(

one paints darkness or dark colour to show their feeling inside them. but i am painting bright colours because that's the feeling i want.

no mad but seriously happy... guess you not going to believe it.

me too. haha man Kitchen Confidential rocks! but in the real world tips do come in handly at points. haha. guess i do earn lots together. *dont spill addie dont *

haha last day of non-school day with is a tired day but fun. and i really dont know it means that much to serve a table. Kitchen Confidential is a show i never know till today guess is the free time the guys use to pass time. watching it and so. might as well get more "dirty" and expand the whole shows.

cant type more on that. is confidential!! so sorry but i will tell you if you want to know. non-talkable at the *big mouth's table*

haha

well made a couple of new friends together most of them are kinda older than me and well glad to be able to have a couple of drinks with them. make me felt so grown up and get a chance to be me again. as i said the good had to go so the better would come. and once it is time for the better to go, the best is on the way. *dont steal* i bull-shit this. haha. right :)

feel never this happy since a lot time now. but yeah i mean it is fun fun and fun!! and it is great!

yesterday was nuts. the five of us get with each other once again since the last time we met which is like a long long time ago...

:) memory rule

miss everyone... though some of us seems not to be that close when we used to but the feeling of the S.h.a.a.n. is happy. seriously i know what you are thinking. is not shaan that i went out with is the five of us. known since primary school and thus make a pact plus adding names togther to create shaan this name. which when i went to secondary school and saw the name list of the class having a same person name shaan too. i was seriously shock!! dont know why but the name just happen to be the same as our group.. maybe it was plan or something.. who knows.

told them before and they said it cant be, yup i agree too. maybe just some coincide or something. but nah me and shaan were not that close. other than the fact that she is sitting beside me and do loves gossip...but me and S.H.A.A.N were. haha.

Sarah.Hui yan.Adeline.Amy.Nicole

oh man i miss once we were together five of us close enough but now. it dont seems to be the same. kinda funny that day want i was the one talking non-stop which i am always and they dont seems to talk to each other. amy and hui yan in the same school which by right the friendship should be stronger than anyone one of us here. however it dont. heard they got into a serious fight and not talking to each other. guess maybe is the same reason why i stop talking to that friend i once had.

to forgive and forget addie. just forgive and forget.

which i did okay. guess if u had realize that i un-cross her name and that guy name. wanted to use "be a friend be an ally" but nah forget about it. i dont think i ever want to be friends again. guess in a friendship the word "too much" means a lot. guess it was my fault that i "tell her too much stuff of my personal life"...

talking about S.H.A.A.N. i suddenly dont know why i miss pei hsin and amandaz and mae... when we were together. downtown which i think no which seriously turn out bad. got tickets to there but ended out everyone was not happy. haiz. why do trouble follow you whereever you go addie?

how the hack do i know. maybe it likes me? hmm guess so. if not it dont tag along so often. i miss CO... i miss everything about the last CO. which we were suppose to have this year during chinese new year but end up no. because the teacher had to work... oh my gosh. i till had their present with me. worst i till got amandaz birthday present with me. which is like one year ago. guess can pass to her and count as this year.. *opps*

me... mae... pei hsin... amandaz... ben... marvin... erm till got who? i guess that all right. till felt really bad that i owe ben present. *yes i did not forget* but we were not in the same class anymore. man i hope he forget. i totally dont know that he is coming for the outting and never prepare anything for him. my bad. hey who ask you to born on the next day of the outting!! haha... -.-"

happy

new year to all my malays friend

birthday to kevis!! and oh my gosh he had the same birthday as kate walsh.

updated later. now watching musical...

copycat does not stay long!!!

i am so super mad at her!!! not that her the other her. the her whom cause trouble in class who's whatever is some big shot in somewhere *%#!#%&^%

ha ha, am not mad but just why must she always pick on me. the other time she grab the same bag as i got. wrote the same story line i plan and even used the same file i used!! please get something that make people believe is yours. man how creative can you be?

haiz. no SND tml. which means no "high pill" no getting high and hanging out at cafe the whole evening no talking about childhood and life.... :'(

but the lucky thing i have not start on my new report.. and no links and opening line. and everything. so there is time for me to do it.

I'm adeline reporting for *soemthing* station *tagline* in the *place*.

till sticking to *in the pink room* unless they move the place. haha. love mae tagline. is getting hotter in *place*... :)

good luck to her for her exams. mugging non-stop now i think. hmm. everyone around me is mugging maybe i sould start too..

good luck to :
mae: her school exam
amandaz : Os
sofia :Snd exam
sheena: Snd exam
amber : her school exam
pat: his project
linda : her project
crystable : Os
amelia : Os
jean : Os
lin min :her life with him
kelie: her final year
mabel : her money saving trip

and everyone whom i cant think of right now.. :)

some of the songs that i am so into now. due to lots of things and most of all I am back. i found adeline. tell u adeline miss her too :)

for amber : Swans by Unkle Bod

By my side
you'll never be
by my side
you'll never be

cause I'm fake at the seams
im lost in my dreams
and I want you to know
that I cant let you go
and you're never comin home again
and you're never comin home again

by my side
you'll never be
by my side
you'll never be
you'll never be

I wanted to tell you I changed
I wanted to tell you that things would be different this time

I see you
you see me
different
I see you
you see me
different

you tell me that you love but you never want to see me again
you tell me that you love but you never want to see me again
you tell me that you love but you never want to see me again
you tell me that you love but you never want to see me again

song can be found in Grey's anatomy season 3 espiode 17 :Some Kind of Miracle
is the ending part where denny and izzie meet yup the part where i just know i lost a very close friend. that i am cried. :'(

his best friend is her.
her best friend is him.
********************
his best friend was her
her best friend was him
*********************

if only two people can touch with undying love.

went to school today for E maths paper 2. which is a mock exam but the answer is at the back of the paper. the paper is okay. if only Os is that easy....

7 people attended the Assembly. yong siang, Wayne, andiekah, Oliver, shaan, Vanessa and me. guess what we are called the acc. e maths student... haha well the exam or what so ever is at 8am and we reached be 7.30 so we had to take assembly and only 7 of us. plus the line is all the way to the front. and when is time to leave. no wants dare to move. i mean you can think. 7 people moving... when the teacher is talking is kinda... you know.

hmm. Shaan back. at last. someone to make my day. even i do miss the silence that i am used to when she is away but she is back with bring back the noise and laughter. and yup finally got time to pass her the book. opps. i am so sorry i think i kinda over protective of my book. no folding edges of my book. sorry... and i totally forget that i got a ex-friend. which i dont know why i am using that term. until shaan asked me am i till talking to her. a) no b) i wont want to c) she is now with the person sitting the other side of shaan so why dont you ask her what she did to her that she is not talking to me? d) i rather make new friends than being back at friend with her . even i seriously agree that there is no point in making enemy. extra a person to protect yourself with. but whatever. who cares

i saw linda today on my way home. which is like ages since i saw her. and talk to her for like hours and now i am left with 2 dollars for the whole week. i got 10 than paid 5.70 for maths and spend 3.70 on drinks and food. but the thing is i have no school tml. haha plus one thing i had to save for my dvds. ahrr.... man man.

went to surf the whole day today. and went on this website. glaad.org which is the part where "be a friend be an ally" on the terms of gay and les people. which i had no problem with. practically i had a close friend who is gay and someone who i know someone tell me that that person is one. so i am so totally okay with that. and yup. there is nothing wrong with people who is that. i mean it not like they want to right.. so cant seriously blame them. and add the video on the clip of glaad and all my fav. actress and actor. and yup there is on ugly betty and Grey's anatomy and brothers and sisters and pepper dennis. wait she is in ugly betty. yar whatever.. uploaded it into my blog under Her loves. which is a super small screen just to fit the space. haha

well thats all. till looking for the lyrics. if anyone have it send me. i dont feel like listening to it and type. hmm. i think i will do it. most of the lines i am able to remember. :)

ADDISON: [slaps Sam]
SAM: "Ow!"
ADDISON: "Idiot. You divorced Naomi?"
SAM: "Just mind your own business."
ADDISON: [slaps Sam again]
SAM: "Ouch!"
ADDISON: "Moron. She’s my best friend."
SAM: "Stop hitting me on top of my head."

the best part i like from grey's anatomy which promo for Private practice.
taken from greys anatomy insider

yeah thanks to that website i found all the things i want from grey's anatomy.. hey hey. don't think i am slacking.. in fact i am but it because all the final exam is over and slacking for a day or two to start on my O's.

HEY i am a super fan of grey's anatomy and private practice and brothers and sisters and pushing daisies. haha. oh my gosh i cant wait to save my money and grab all the dvd. time to save... haha...

hahaha*cant stop laughing* watching brothers and sisters now. and watching Kevin opening the window for Sarah. i am trying to type what they say..

Kevin: this window is stuck
Sarah: no no no wait wait wait wait. try again this time i want you to image your adorable ref. jason all sweaty in the jungle of Madagascar
Kevin: he is in Malaysia
Sarah:and how you pledge to be true to him until he returns which means there you wont have sex for months and months and months and months and months and months and months and months and months and months (kevin open the window)
Kevin: great, put just moments of my life on my wasted on my sister.

should see the look on Kevin's face!!

oh my gosh!! and the later part where the mother and kitty which is the other sister call them and talk about justin... and the part where the switch the cell to talk...

well i just watch this episode. both tears and laughter. nice mix.... if only i could write like how the writers do it. i wont Ace all my stuff. haha

and oh till looking for So Lo lyrics. the songs from grey's anatomy. which is one of the reason why i like the show. haha

♥ ...I'm glad you're the one I spent it with.

7:35:00 PM

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

seriously dont judge me..

okay. so i change my blog skins again.. and don't you ever judge me...

the thing is i change my blog skins when i am sick which i am having a temp. of 37.7 degree. oh my gosh. i am falling sick now? why cant i fall sick like at least 10 days ago? so i so dont have to go for exam...

dont know why. today was the last paper for my final year exam and i was not feeling very okay when doing the science paper 1. felt super cold.

physic paper 2 : crap is hard. not fair. most of the ques come from the prelim papers which we never take. and the six of them who took know the answer!!!

science paper 1: i dont know what am i doing. really.

poa paper 1 : no comments

poa paper 2 : also no comments

so i had bubble tea with kevis , lin min , eve , mabel and jia min. and i so forget to return physic notes to kevis. plus today was so super lame. i order oreo-choco. and the stall lady was telling the unlce. "ore...ore...ore?" and the uncle said "ore?" *puzzled?* okay. so she miss out saying the o at the end of oreo. the uncle was confuse. haha. photos of the muscial is out. and is nice!!!

dad came back and got this food, maybe snack and plus is like a crab. not like a crab. it is a crab. it taste like a crab. and guess what. is nice but the look is kinda funny. the the crab as in the whole crab. like those soft-shell crab you had in jap-restaurant. but is harder and hotter and well is nice.. oh yes this time i wanted a demi back and dad got me one. plus another cute bag which dont suit my style but is nice. and couple of nice shirt.. all branded *thick skin* and towel with the prints of DUCKS!! yup duckie. my fav!!!!! wooo~~~~~

i am so tired. i think i better rest now. fever is up 0.01 degree. *snif*

green green is feeding now. i miss greenest!!

♥ ...I'm glad you're the one I spent it with.

7:29:00 PM

serioulsy do you know

Do you know what it feel like by Enrique Inglesias

...............................................................................

Do you know?

Do you know?

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away?

Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?

Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?

Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?

If birds flying south is a sign of changes

At least you can predict this every year

Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly

I can’t get it to speak

Maybe if I knew all the things it took to save us

I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me

Look in your eyes to see something about me

I’m standing on the edge and I don’t know what else to give.

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away?

Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?

Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?

Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?

How can I love you?

How can I love you?

How can I love you?

How can I love you?

If you just don’t talk to me, babe.

I flow through my act

There's a question: Is she needed?

And decide all the man I can ever be.

Looking at the last 3 years like I did

I could never see us ending like this.

(Do you know?)

Seeing your face no more on my pillow

Is a scene that’s never ever happened to me.

(Do you know?)

But after this episode I don’t see

You could never tell the next thing life could be

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away?

Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?

Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?

Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away?

Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?

Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?

Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?

(Do you know?)

(Do you know?)

(Do you know?)

(Do you know?)

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away?

Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?

Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?

Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away?

(Do you know how it feels?)

Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?

Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?

(Do you know how it feels?)

Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?

(Do you know? Do you know? Do you know? Do you?)

(Do you know? Do you know? Do you know? Do you?)

♥ ...I'm glad you're the one I spent it with.

4:25:00 PM

Tuesday, October 9, 2007

seriously over

seriously so over it.

I can't take this!!!

I won't take this!!!

I can't do this !!!

I won't do it!!!

i am so over poa which paper i shall say... no comments... and worst the paper next is physic and is the subject that i seriously don't want to NOT do well in.. and plus plus. did i say the paper is at 11.30am? which is the time where i would be looking forward for science paper 1 which end in 1 hour and than end the whole paper at 2pm which is super late but is okay cause is the last paper and now the exam starts one hour later which will end the whole thing later which reaching home late and is so super late that i am so not looking forward to and i am not breathing even when i am typing this... *gaps for air* okay.. so by right it will end the whole paper late which means i will come home later. and i did not just told one of the person that i am not being friends (him) with that the paper starts at 11.30am which was told by the teacher did i? why am i telling him? maybe cause he said goodbye when i alighted the bus.. or did he just said to the others? which i mistaken that he said to me? but i am sure i heard my name.. no... can be sure. i am listening to music at that time.. puzzled? me too.

time!!! man it sucks! i mean without we cant leave. with it we hate it. like the way why we cant wait for holidays to come.(mae 's wish) and with it. why time fly when we are enjoying it and cant pause it (kevis's wish) and go back in time to re-live it (eve and mine's wish) or just froze the time and undo all the things that had done wrong (lin min 's wish).

well dinner time is push back to an hour later. which is yeah!!! cause dad return from his meeting trip.. hope he gets something really nice for me. and yar.. just hope he get something for me.. you cant hope anything nice from guys. they wont know what you want even if u wrote down in details that u wanted a bag that is black which turn out you get a pink bag. because you are a girl..-.-" anyway pink is so not my colour..

so which now i shall stop blogging and get back to physic... and science. yup. last paper. to mug for final year but not last day to mug. mugging will never end!!

♥ ...I'm glad you're the one I spent it with.

4:39:00 PM

Monday, October 8, 2007

seriously stupid

once again slacking.. duh... who dont

brother came back yesterday and the whole day what i did is slacking and i am super dead.. haiz.. so i wake up super early today and set myself down to study which happen to be kinda easy for me. what a relief... and i dont know why i cried.

letting go is somewhat harder. so once again i am thinking about things i should not be thinking. i dont know why but i cant get to the fact that i knew this person so close. so close and she is the only one that is not in my circle of fame and drama. i dont understand why i cant seems to be handling it well. after almost a long talk on sat with mae and i am sure the others in the room do heard me.

so they say, friendship is one thing more important than anything. two lovers get from friendship to couple to lovers to partners to husband and wife. best friend get from friendship to close friend to best friend to cradle for life. all humans start knowing each other by friendship which can anyone define friendship? classmate starts there too, and why is it so hard to forget one friendship you ever once had?

why is life that unfair that people only get hurt when thinking about the bad and dont feel anything when we are having the fun?

Mae: when time passes, you will forget everything.

would they? is time so powerful that could change everything?

kevis: maybe words is what she use to make things go around. that what we do to convince people.

maybe.. friendship problem have not been happening for years. the last one i got is when i was sec 1. for all those drama mama people. you would know who... and for somehow two broken friendship, one repair.. one?

addie:get out of it. for somehow you know this is childish.

♥ ...I'm glad you're the one I spent it with.

12:07:00 PM

Saturday, October 6, 2007

seriously why?

seriously why?

dad flew off today early morning and i had to go snd myself which is not the first time. but on the way a lot of things happening in my mind.

Mae got her first job as a CHINESE tutor.. wow but she not going to accept the money.... chinese tutor. yup you heard me... read me.. chinese. i thought she would be some maths or science tutor but chinese? erm okay.. no comments..

i wonder why they had to torture me.

went to snd. miss ying ying gave me a book.. she felt bad that i got an old book while the rest got something new and things like that so she got me one. and with the next page wrote,

For Adeline

Happy Mad hatter's day..

haha thanks.. mad hatter's day is today? that explain the hats the teacher are wearing. suddenly i miss term performance.. don't know why.... but the book is kinda too... is Alice's Adventures in wonderland.

Mae ask me to forget about her. but how to?

so as i was pacing downstairs thinking should i go to snd a not. and Mae could not even recognize me.TWICE! her dad fetch her and she cant recognize it was me standing there. haiz what kind of friend is that... haha and plus till when she went up. i ran away and i was standing there right in front of her. she just turn around and continue to look for me. What the hell. seems like she cant spot the giant~ and well i did went Snd if not i will miss all the fun.... plus today no result for the snd exam.. haiz did i did super badly that they had to take a long time to process the marks...

imagine emu processing the marks:
emu: epp epp.. eppp eppp.. marks epp epp change?

so there is a new girl at snd. not my grade but one or two grade higher. age too doing her pieces with miss ying ying. i think her name is Fiona or something.. and i till don't know what miss ying ying means by she seems to move a lot when reading her pieces. cant catch the part where she move even when miss ying^2 raise her hand everything she does that...

rubber sweet. don't know why i call that. maybe is the first time i had it and i named it. it been years since i last had it and miss ying^2 gave us. rubber sweet. yeah!! taste like rubber but i till like it.. haha..

so Sofia and Sheena came back for lesson .. good for them their major exams are over not like me and mae.. haiz but lucky Mae no Os.. so we had to do "open open close" and homework for today. create open lines and close lines and linking lines for the news reporting. talking about that. one of the ex-snd teacher is a news reporter. and i have no idea who.. haha and seriously must film? and Mae's idea of putting on my wedding day?!? okay that's like 10 years or so. i till have no idea what catch line to do. haiz all after the exam than i care about it..

so as i was slacking now. till 10 plus than start on Poa and physic and chem for final year. and watching Veronica Mars which i simply love the way Kristen bell is a PI... haha love her.. and not forgetting Kate Walsh too. haha. time to enjoy my shows... oh and plus that, green green do watch TV. haha that something you don't get to see everyday.

blog next time.

pacing: i want the whole thing to be over i hope i will never meet her again or them. theme song of Veronica Mars: we used to be friends. a long time ago we used to be friends but we... yup so suit us!!

♥ ...I'm glad you're the one I spent it with.

7:40:00 PM

Friday, October 5, 2007

seriously love

okay so just a quick update on shows i watch...

pushing daisies: really if a touch could bring a person back to life.. how nice would that be. but the thing is you cant touch the same person whom you brought back from death. sad. the story is nice and funny. i totally like the narrator. maybe is the story line. is like "chuck is 8 years something moths and something day and something minute and something second" oh my gosh it sound like when i was writing about greenest. haiz..

private practice : yeah!! DR. addison is back and there is the new crazy DR. in the show too.. and the opening is like. i am laughing non-stop. when kate walsh dancing naked. in her new house and met her best friend ex husband which was staying next to her. oh my gosh. haha damn funny..!! and yup hopefully S1E2 will be up soon..

brothers and sisters: yeah the walker family is back for season two. love the whole show!! love the story line. which is kinda a relationship between family i will never had. well duh. i dont have so much slibings.

grey's anatomy: season 4.. oh my... really want to know why preston burke left. and than why is mcDreamy breaking up with grey. haha. oh my gosh!! and what will happen to grey and her half sister... please dont show mcDreamy and her!! please!!

haha haha okay serioulsy i am like a so crazy about watching shows now. maybe coz the channel not showing new one that why. haha... hey!!! wake up.. after Os and exam than get crazy over the shows!! oh yeah!!~~

♥ ...I'm glad you're the one I spent it with.

8:09:00 PM

seriosuly exam

so let me update on my exam i had this week

english: no comment

SS: yeah at last i finished my ss paper within the time given.. 1 hour 29 mins and 53 seconds. haha just nice the time is also 1:29:53pm haha i finished my paper for the every first time. haha. well i hope i can pass. (pray hard)

add math: well is okay and i spent like 30 mins on a question. i mean really like 30 mins looking at it. the question is to prove that the angle AOB is 1.11 rad. and what i got is that angle AOT is 1.11 rad and if angle AOB is like 2.22 rad which is double of the answer and i looked at it for 30 mins. and guess what the teacher came in and wrote on the board "change AOB to AOT" AHHH what the hell. i spent 30 mins looking at it for nothing. and thanks to boon hong (which is a bad thanks) i almost cant really do my add maths with the noise outside of the school and him calling my name non-stop through the last 30 mins of the paper and following my actions and words i said... but anyway. paper is over so yeah~~

lit: well almost every single question i done is almost two pages and my pen went out of ink when doing my chem paper. and must thank crystabel (spelling error) of appearing in my mind when doing my lit paper. and guess must thank her for being there when my mind was blank when looking at the question... and as i was doing it. there is this guy in the other level was sleeping all the way. maybe he is done...

chem paper 3: WHAT THE HELL the paper was hard. maybe is that i was not really prepare for it. my calculator gave up on when i am counting my chem!!

okay... so i meet her on the way out of the loo for the next paper chem. which happen to be hard. and kevis and yu xin (eve) *happy now??* was like maybe she cursed you or something. and well i totally dont feel anything when i see her. not mad or sad or whatever is like the feeling where you came out of the loo bum into someone you dont know or something like that. so kevis said it might be that she cursed you or something that why you find the paper hard. maybe. for the past few paper i never met her face to face and the paper is not hard. as in okay.

so here a thing.
kevis went to read her blog. EWW and than he said which is on my tag. and i went too. to see what she write about me. and guess what she wrote till she was the one that got hurt. so let me say something i am not in school for two days and duh there is someone that said something to her that she felt that she being my friend is not the real her and that she want to change herself and that she felt that being my friend is not her. okay than well 4 years knowing her is down the drain. oh and by the way. not friending her and the other 2 person, i totally dont mind. cos it does not make any different in my friend list. oh plus her sister. well well. i totally dont mind. seeing the cost of not having any group parnter to work with next time, maybe i will start working off and try to talk more and hang out more with my desk mate....

alright.. i am so free now. free from having to talk in her troubles her anger and her lies. yes yes!!

♥ ...I'm glad you're the one I spent it with.

6:58:00 PM