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seriously drunk

very drunk

so drunk . very drunk and happy and high till i saw her on msn. i should not hate her that much. this is the first time i hate someone that much. that so much that i wish i never see her forever. never will.

don't let me mood spoilt what i had today. i am drunk. by water. really. seriously. so SAT day for SND and than this morning Mae got me confuse.

text
me: you going later?
mae:cant go really got a lot of things to do.
me: so you not going. if u dont go, i also dont go.
mae: yup.. i not going. very tired.

later on msn
me: so you not going right?
mae: yar. sorry
me: dont need apologize. its not like you did something really wrong or what.
mae: haha.

text
mae: going snd now.. :)

phone
me: i tot u not going?
mae: no la. i not going popular. going to snd
me: i ask u. u said u not going.
mae: i tot u said popular
me: no i meant snd...

haha so really i think i really misunderstand mae or something, anyway so lucky i went!! haha
seriously i dont feel like going. i even went to flip the coin to see if i am going. let the coin make the fate. than all it turns out is GO. which is so seriously a good thing.

at snd.

was signing up for next year snd class. haha yeah had to pay next week. yup yup~~
miss Michelle choco. cookies was seriously nice. haha she said it was for children's day. haha 4 years since i last had my children day.. and miss ying ying choco. coin. which almost the both of us ended up eating everything. so there was newscasting. and "open open close" which Mae end up having this dance with the clap. was there a game on *open shop,close shop?* i never heard of that. but miss ying ying did. and while she explain and mae and i tried it out. i won. she did not "clap" my hand.. haha and well the whole reporting thingy was fun. and miss ying ying showed us a book which was part of "share book" we got last week from book actually. and guess what not a single E is in that book. i want that book seriously want that. so mae and i got this plan of tying the blog without and E in it. but i dont think i can do it now. partly drunk. maybe some other day when i am free. haha

dinner
at cheesecake cafe

strawberry Oreo cheesecake for mae. walnut cheesecake for me. and water only. which ended up the both of us got drunk. and later there is wedges and talks. lots of talks. is so super rare that i could find a friend that had a same childhood with me. i mean you dont really seriously find a friend who is girl who played guns and cars and had like everything you played which is super tom-boyish and rough. which everyone i talk to. as in girls played with dolls and everything. so mae and i do have lots in common. so finally my childhood. our childhood is back. haha. how did we get there. talking about childhood. oh i was talking about my clown dream and than to puppet and to dolls and to that. haha. well mae is the one person that i am so glad i had. i mean you dont get a girl who does that when she is young. haha.

we talked. from the sky is bright till the sky is dark blue. till the sky is black. haha time fly so fast. stress level drop till like so much and on the way home. plan was to take the bus but looking at the darkness. we think it better to be going home by cab. we walked talk and than. mae came out with this tagline. *children goes to the playground in the morning. who goes there at night?* and as we were trying to make it sound so creepy with turn out that my face suddenly turn green. due to the green light. and guess what it really do sound creepy when i turn my face back when saying " who goes there at night." adding the laugh which seriously make my tummy hurts so badly that the both of us wanted to pee.(opps so unglam) and with thr sound coming from dont know where. thats was creepy too.

mae: is those sound bats?
me:aren't their ultrasound?
mae: oh yar

so got on to the cab which was alighted by two non-local lady. did i said thank you? i cant remember. i dont think so, opps they will be like thinking we are so rude. haha and my voice turning so weird on the cab. due to the laughing and everything. than there was silent which i guess. no which the both if us got headpain and giddy and everything. like we were drunk. haha which i think i am till.

trying the no E thingy
so sorry for any typing mistak'. i am drunk and high and drunk. i think i shall stop now and take a nap.
yes i did it. haha

a very tough and bad week or five days pass by and i am so seriously happy!! i am so seriously slack today i mean i spend like the whole evening watch Grey's anatomy and spending most of my time talking to my frog and getting so freak out over things that i should not be freaking out with!!!

so this whole week is supposed to be bad.. to start off with Shaan my dear person who sits beside me got dengue and luckily her i mean not as in she got dengue but no exam for her. she looks weak but hopefully she will be well and well get back to school and sit beside me and talk to me and not having my left ear going deaf.

no offend Mark but the sneezing is kinda really loud but and really i don't know Mark is a "play" guy. not as in play play guy.. he watches play. it rare.. i mean he is the only guy so far i know not a gay watches play. well he did not really tell me that but he saw my file with "the pillow man" thingy and he asked me if i am watching. but i also don't know. after all i am till super freak out by Romeo and Juliet.. so i don't know. plus they say *no child below 16 years* and they have student price.. haha. well at least i am not that bored in school. and i do know that really a lot of them hate this guy in my class. all of them sat beside me tell me. all of them i mean. okay at least 7? or 8? kinda..

how to grow my hair? its not GROWING!! every part of me is growing just not my hair!! as in hair on my head... well i got my reader's digest for my pal for this few days and well i don't know but the jokes not really that funnier. *haha* and well while i was reading its all about pain in the back or bones and there is this page where it is about health weight and really!! the UK people is like that bad? no offend really bad hmm. cant compare me and them.. emu!!! haha i miss her. and oh yar than there was this picture guy in the jeans which was said to be the "before" pants and he is inside it. so its like making him "slimmer" than before. and Mark was like "hope it will be you one day" and i was like no~~ well i hope that but it wont coz the size don't really make much different. the picture guy lose like 60 over KG and if i lose that weight. i will be floating. *i did not just put up my weight on the blog did i?* and the only thing now is make my hair grow!!

so as i was slacking today kevis called * like one day he dont call he will die* and he told me about some crazy things that i wish i never hear.. ** mae's sms** yup back and he is like so bugging me at the wrong time. i mean on msn he talk to me even my nick stated so clearly that *kev DON'T talk to me now* but he did. and talk and talk and talk. while i got pin up by my ex-best friend in school's sister who thinks what crap piece of shit i said before was a lie. yup now i want to say that only think is a lie is that making friends with u is a bad mistake. really bad one. for now i wish i never know you. the thing is i don't like lying. it make me feel guilty and its like a sin or something. which is i think in some religions or something and only the truth will set you free. no guilty free free!! and she thinks i am a lie. her sister thinks i am the one that was shoving her to her sadness her whatever her life is crashing. oh don't she has the other three friend of her and well she thinks that she is the only one that is feeling bad, hello i am the one that had not been in school for two days and what happen that time is there is this girl seems to be super close with her and doing what i don't know and when i am back i am "not needed" by her. her sister thinks i treat her like a dog. really i don't seems to be seeing her fetching me my papers. rolling over.. playing dead and erm waging her tail? and she went to tell her other three friends about me. about what i had told her which is the truth and had she forgotten that she lied to me before? she made me believe her so much that i wish i know that guy she used to be dating with oh had i forgotten the others girls don't know that. that person is not a person? this is so going to sound a good gossip. and please people stop asking me whats the heck is wrong with me and her. we are not life support machine or something. u know ask her. don't ask me. i don't want to be the one that said " i will tell u later" does that please you know. the sisters? gosh i hate her!!! so much that she replace Y. seriously it is rare..

back to good mood. don't think about her. really it suck and i LOVE Addison. from Grey's anatomy which is.. i mean i like everyone there but just her is like OH MY GOSH!! haha i love her. and yeah even she is out of Grey's anatomy but she is going Perfect match which is a spin-off of Grey's anatomy. haha well at least it is till her and same everything just that she leave the hospital haha. well i really think if i get to live her life it will be so good. which i can just study!! haha.. OH my. little Britain the adv just pop up. and it remind me of Mark. well the lame thing repeat of the show and things haha. well back to where i was. oh yeah study!! and in the afternoon i was reading my Lit Macbeth which i fall asleep. cos i was so blur that the E.maths june paper don't really need to hand in today which i was rushing it yesterday night and i fell asleep trying to study my lit.. oh and this dream happen. i had naps it gives you funny dream. or should i say dejuvo( spelling not so sure).

so here it goes.

i was looking for my lit notebook which i wrote all the notes and stuff. and i while i always think it is in my bag, my feet carried me to my cupboard. and i saw this clown which i got it in a fun fair i think and i hate clown so i never place it out. than i saw my face in the mirror which is the colour of the clown. which i am so totally freak out and trying to remove the painting off my face which it never come off. than i went to use tinner to wipe it off but it does not work and i dont know why. so with the clown face i went to look for something to wipe it off. and there was a cream that would remove everything make up so i used it and it went off. and i went back to search my notebook and later i saw my face which is the clown face again and i am so freaking out.

but haha well went i woke up i the same thing happen but no clown painting on my face. which i can hear laughing from kevis's mouth. well yup. whatever. do u think if i trim my hair. it will grow?

seriously red!!!

so i add music to my ex-blog than i change my skin
and i saw speech and drama sub tittle!! erm i mean my sub-tittle.
okay so.. WHAT DO YOU WANT ? childhood!! and i bumped into the blog skin. which i seriously went crazy over it.. and yup and that what mae said that remind her of Speech and drama. does that mean it is good or bad?

anyway i felt sick today AGAIN. i know. getting weaker as age flew by. and so did shaan. well not the group. as in my friend shaan. guess somehow we both got sick. it just a little too close. she is sitting beside me in school. oh yar. thanks her for taking my HW...and well hope you take care too. haha *lazy to type on tagbox*

so kevis is so seriously GAY. so i called him around his recess than he hook on the phone to tell me to link him and no to and to and not to and to. anyway the end result is not to. WHY?? because he dont want joan to know. JOAN!!! you think she like you? gosh she was the one who said that you are super GAY and u think that way? Gay. no offence but gay

and plus can any one answer my Q? humans are born to help others than what are others born here to do??

me.

i am seriously lazy. i cant set myself down to work or to study. even with the sign that wrote exam less than 3 days. i cant study. okay so the power went off and that should limit myself to do my work or to study but ended up. i am sitting in front of the blank TV just looking at it. seeing myself back in the reflection and just enjoying my hair been move by the wind.

i think i took a nap and i dreamt of something really weird, something i had not been dreaming for years. i dreamt of the frog Mr. Cujo had for science lesson in grade 4 and i really don't know why i had that dream. and the frog kinda look like the bull frog they sell in the wet market. those frog which are seriously big and big and almost too big. seriously much bigger than the frog i had at home. it would be like 100000 times bigger than green green. anyway as i was saying that frog Mr. Cujo had for science lesson.. the frog seriously chose the wrong path. it should jump away. well the lesson was about cut it out, no wait i mean take out the heart and show us that the heart is till MOVING for a long long time even when the frog is pronounced dead. and i till cant figure out why am i having that dream. anyway i till remember the frog "death" look. i mean it was pin on all of it limbs and cant move till Mr. Cujo had to used a knife to.. you know. Eww and than cut the heart out put it on a disk and show us. and seriously he was right the heart is till beating even when its out. and why am i so unlucky to be in his class. no i think i am lucky. i heard the other class is doing on a rabbit. well i seriously felt something for the frog. it could have a better life. leading off with it spouse and have lots of young it and not being tortured by Mr. Cujo.

i hate BIO after that day. seriously hate.

How do you know how much is too much? too much too soon? too much information? too much fun? too much love? too much to ask? and when it is all just too much to bear? lying is bad or so we were told constantly from birth. honest is the best. the truth shall you free and i chop the cherry tree. whatever. the fact is lying is need. we lie to ourself because the truth seriously hurt. i had to lie to myself. to tell myself helping someone doing something so not your job or somewhere near the way of the job is a good deed. i had to type non-stop for hours looking on to some handwriting which i seriously got to figure out which is a which is e which is G which is J which is f which is t which is l which is h. and there was a saying that says you cant choose your family, you take what the fact hands you and like them or not, love them or not. understand them or not, you cope. than there is a school thoughts that say that family you are born into is simply the starting point. they feed you and cloth you, take care of you until you are ready to go out into the world and find your drive. so helping someone,which is a family of mine is something you do. like so kinda repay to them. so humans are born to help others and what are others born here to do?

seriously!!!

okay so i change my post tittle to seriously.. no more the... whatever that come after that. which is a really hard name the post.. so i think that would bring me to a easier way to name my post i guess.. so let me try... seriously news.. seriously true... seriously fact? maybe not that easy but i will come to a point where i had to think of the name. which i seriously need to let my brain do some exercise. that is the common thing to do... duh..

i got a news that someone is pregnant with triplets!! and is super rare. i wonder is who.. is just some news where you walk pass someone on the phone and you heard TRIPLETS?? and all your attention transfer away to the conversation which is kinda like ear dropping and that's bad.. well i heard its going to be two girls and a guy or two guy and a girl. i am so not sure. but i think would be two girls and a guy. well duh the mother name it Emily and Julia and George. so it should be that way. anyway i really hope that all three turn out well.. be in that womb for 35 weeks safely and all of them is healthy.. and well 40 weeks for single.. 36 weeks for twins.. 34 weeks for quintets (5) or whatever you call that.

and really if i had the chance of having twins or triplets i will be over joy.. maybe i think all pairs would be better. at least every single kid got a partner? so they will not be bored. and anyway why am i thinking of that? is like a long long long way to go, plus giving birth is totally hard, painful and tired. so i think i will reconsider again. hmm.. but kids are cute when they are young. compare me to them i think i seriously give my mum headache. you cant blame me, i am me.. haha well... hmm.

good news is i am so going to speech and drama this sat and to the bookstore. and to do a report or maybe the teacher will forget all about it and it will be so weird doing all that. which there are chances that i might not be a reporter. nope. i shall not say that because what goes around come around...not the song. the fact. kinda.. like there is this guy who go around calling fat people fat which is totally the fact but hello don't you know there is something call ego? nope not my favourite character from the movie ratatouille. he is seriously EGO and that's his name anyway. and he is so cool " if i don't like food. i wont sallow them" well okay back to where i was. erm yup he got seriously fat and that now people are laughing at him. so i guess he got a taste of his own medicine.

as i was waiting for my email to turn in, i look up at the sky which is so rare and i did it.. do you know it is super rare for me to see the stars so clearly from my place? perhaps is the city that why and the lights and everything and for the first time from my place i saw it and its so nice and so.. not really as bright as i compare to the ones i saw in Japan which seriously you can take a glitter and put it all over a blue-black paper and plus shooting stars. oh need help to do the art? you can ask Aisha for help. hey hey wait i mean she is the "glitter girl" in class, is like once you see glitter trace you can find your way to Aisha. which is kinda nice to see that and there is a matching guy to her. Andiekah, the first guy i know who likes glitter too. haha and oh stars from my place. i mean is like seriously nice and so rare and i think i am so going to have a good night sleep tonight which i seriously don't know why.

and seriously why am i putting "seriously" every where? seriously? okay is like my habit now. maybe its all Grey's anatomy fault. no you can blame that which the word seriously happen a lot of times in the show and season 4 is up and i am so loving it. i think maybe i should try to be a doctor which is part of my list of career. Totally not the kinda life Grey had in the show but seriously doctor really had no life. i mean most of the time the patient first and life is second and well. hmm oh back to stars. did i said i will have a good night sleep oh and i am so screw. i got a SS mock exam on wed which is tomorrow and i am so not prepare. which is so seriously bad and i am so seriously dead and wait is this going to spoilt my night. and how could i forget i mean everyone is kinda talking about it . well i think i got to stop typing now. study!!!~~~

oh and so sorry jasmine for not able to go to the movies with you. wait am i nuts? i mean she don't even know my blog... yet... i think i will tell her. hmm...

communication is the first thing we really learn in life. as for me.. yesterday i think what i learn is laughing non-stop and that's bad.

i don't think eating chicken rice will make one high and laughing non-stop. i think we lost all of our "grace" yesterday. people over there would think that we are kinda insane or some what escape from mental hospital.

and i am so screw i dont know why but yar. i am so screw!!! well other than the fact that eating with mae dinner yesterday was nice and cool but i am really screw. i cant seem to put myself down and studying my exam and that bad and that really bad. i can sit down and just look at the subject and than see it for an hour and till cant figure it out. and did i said that i had the answer with solution in front of me too? i can even bring myself to do it. settle down and everything!

mae said that she wanted to shared a place.. i dont know if i can Even pull through the adult stage of life maybe i am like a mosquito that live for ten days and boo. gone. i would wonder if really i could went MIA and never be found? missing without a trace. so than even the best CSI or some human who worked on that cant even find me. did i heard some one said yup.. death the only answer. if i die and able to cross over or even spot the "light" than yes i totally agree with it. but i dont think i can.

maybe.. maybe not. i dont know.. i would be able to pull it off and wear that white coat and have a life and.. gossip about life too.

Pain come in all forms. i am suffering now. i am feeling it now. its deep inside but you cant see it, you can feel it. its deep and its hurting...

we only want to see what we want to see and believe what we want
to believe and its works, we lie to ourselves so much that after a while the lie starts to seem like the truth.

good air in bad air out..

i let my hair down today which is the things i never do usually. i done it only if i am sad or high which i am not today. pain and sad the joy of them is so great that i want to stand in the rain to let the rain "wash" away every single part of me. i wonder why a this "book" is full of sadness. i heard this once before. not from my Chinese teacher but from some one. maybe is last year speech and drama exam i had that for sight reading or i wrote that before. some where i know...

once a life is born the chapter of a new beginning happen. parents are the first to write in your book than your loves one and your friends and teacher. the complete story of your life would end from your loves one also. your book will be read on the day you had your last breathe. it will be remembered when the date arrive. i wanted to know what it had been in my book. i want to read it. i want to edit it. i want to.... i want to... i want to know me. i don't know who i am any more. i want to re-know me. can you help me?

i don't know and i am not keen to knowing myself for the time being.

i totally love myself today... watching the little prince later in French. and yup yup so instead of me blogging later, i will be in the dreams with the prince.. haha well in french so i hope that i will be able to understand and plus it is a musical.. yes yes..

i dont know why we put things off. but if i had to guess i say it had a lot to do with fear.
i dont know why i type that but it sound right. fear!!

chinese lesson was the first time i listen to the teacher. all the time i would be sleeping there and this lesson seems so so different part of it is because of we talk about babies. and all the joy of love to the pain of love of the growth of a baby. if the baby is healthy it would be so much simple but what if it is not? the look of the babies make u so much happier. fear of not getting a healthy baby.

hmm... i dont know why i type that but maybe... *i dont know*

well today sucks i mean i am so totally tired and i so completely forgot to do my A maths HW and well guess i had to do like now. meeting for the NZ trip and WHAT they had to meet your paernts. gosh is like so.. i dont know. felt like quiting now but it would be fun right and we are not taking local airlines!!! and that's like put me off to the mood of fear of safety. and the airlines we taking is *to me* not a safe plane. oh my gosh i think my dad is so going to say no about this trip.. >.< fear no fear... maybe fear of death?

PS: sorry kevis *and kelie*. its just a name. erm.. okay it getting worst i mean its just not commonly known.. :)

went to my grands place for his birthday thingy.. okay

what i ALWAYS does when i am there
1) listen to MP3
2) dont talk(so not me) *cos i dont like them and they dont like me.. is a hate hate thing and it grows with you when you are old.. when ur are young so close and as age grow ur not so close..(get it?)*
3)read a book (which i have not be doing for this week... plus new books from borders!!!)
4)hold your breathe ( smoking is bad.. super bad)
5)bad food (always the same)

what i do TODAY
1)listen the MP3
2) talk to my cousin
3) looking at Mario (game)
4)frog that look like a lizard.
5)teaching my cousin to fold heart using fish cutter (or what u call that... by my cousin is called "tissue")
6) have the same lunch with my cousin
7)cake with reeal tissue
8) get a new pair of shoes
9) new water botter

so today wasnt that bad as i think it would be. its fun and yup almost everyone is going home to watch high school musical 2.. but not me..i dont really like it that much as compare to bruce almighty.. the 1st part of evan almighty. okay anyway i realize that my cousin watch high school musical for 30 times!!!!!! cant believe...

*ding dong* pizza.. got to go...

well false alarm is the newspaper man!!! haiz..

and well teaching my cousin to fold heart which should be easier with straws..

bruce almighy....b e a beautiful.......5550123.. come on people lets call this no. haha.. oh my the guy who played god in the movies in bruce almighty is the same as the guy who played god in evan almighty... duh what am i thinking is the same movie... oh my it sound like my poem.. since you voice like the man who played god in the movies kissed me? i dont remember your kissed, i remember you wearing... okay this got to stop and i am so not going back to talk about it!!! ahhh..

super hungry and mae thinks kevis is her brother.. hahah well did this blog skins like mad this wee morning trying to put muisc but it hang.. well i dont know what name is kevis..(kevis dont hate me) but it sound funny.. hmmm... well so did his sister name.. what was that? kelie.(sound the same as kelly) i tot it would be kelee.. or kelly but is kelie.. i tot it was *care-lie* but is *care-lee*... hmmm okay.. pizza here and this is real.. haha..

while waiting for my video to load after a super crash from some really KIND soul i had to reload my video again and it took ages.



anyway she don't mean any harm plus i also never tell her that i am loading a video...



looking through all the skins and got two i like..

so i used the the no.2 on my blog.. no.1 dont ask.. okay ask me. (why?) i love it so much.. nah is not about the lake house.. but it is nice. black base and dash of colours and is super nice. but too bad i cant edit it in my blog. the tagboard went missing the links went wrong the blog went blue(colour) so i choose this simple after all the nags from my friends i choose this.. haha well kinda crazy about the lake house too.. watch on my birthday with mae and her presents and the asking about some crap from two girls... hmmm

having lunch and sponge bob was on air. letting green green sitting beside me and watching it together. the way green green jumped up and i miss greenest so badly.

i miss greenest.

looking back at green green sticking it face on the surface of the tank, i tried to re-called what greenest would do. to see that only one left in the tank....i felt empty.

i miss greenest so badly..

i let green green to jump around the circle paper while i get my drinks and when i return only to found out that green green was only there i shouted out for greenest. i totally forgot it went to a better place. with green green looking at me and putting it head between my fingers. i suddenly think that it know how i am feeling.

i miss greenest so badly.. i miss greenest.

i stand at the window with green green in my hand. looking up in the sky and just the cloud with a shape of greenest.. and i am not the only one that saw it. green green saw it too.(i think)

i miss greenest so badly.. i miss greenest so badly

yes yes yes..
felt so much better now.. haha
okay so is so cool
i mean i kinda like wed. is so fun and nice and cool.

getting high on the bus ( not like we did not done that before)
spending money on books ( for me is my birthday shopping from mae) the amount is more that $75... WEE!! okay
eating cheesecake ( gosh totally forgot that the cake can use for our celebration!!!)
writing on each other newly bought diary (with cos $16 and plus stickers $3)
getting lost ( i pity the mae's laptop and her)
eating fries ( mae: did you see how tall he is? me: duh.. he like not local.)
finding neoprints ( that machine cheated our money but the pic turn out well.. )
finding the train (mae you better start do something to your speech!!)

well that day was fun but i was too lazy to blog.. kinda busy with work and stuff.. alright. good luck mae on sat..

woo.. its kinda cold, but the fans and air-con are not on... i am on my jacket.. i think i am falling ill.. no no no no no no no no..

she sucks and i am so bitching her now.
for the whole week being in snd.. it just sucks. god i hate it so much..

for the love and passion i skip school for snd and now? i think i waste my money there. AHHHH

THE BOTH OF US ARE SO GOING TO HAVE FUN TOGETHER.

okay chill.. *Grey's anatomy* well i am kinda watching it now. and trying to forget what that slut text me. gosh... well well.. lets see. i am so not calling myself slut. cos there is no I in the word slut there is U. dumb ass..

she is so freaking bias, so ass, so bim, so everything that is bad expect for bitch. gosh i am so spoliting my mood in this blog. take in the fact that i will only "slut" her here. in one post (i hope) and yup bye bye slut i am so hating you know.

okay i did said before that i shall not "bim" people on my blog due to the chinese thingy i did in school but well i think i cant stand any more. my diary is full of her sluty image that i dont want to start on my new diary (other than the fact that mae wrote the first page) on her. EWWW AAHHHH super pissed off..

and how could she even treat mae like that!! i mean what kinda human are you. maybe u are not, Martians. and of course me in that way. EWW!! okay thats all i am so not going to "bim" her on my blog now!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

today the day that i will never forget. today the day that i said goodbye to it. today the day i realize that a simple look from an animal can be so meaningful.

6 months and 15 days 22 hours and 15 mins.

goodbye greenest. so long greenest. you will be better up there. where the grass is always greener (not mae's frog). where you can be free.

i will miss you and when i do, i will bring green green and look through the windows into the sky and the both of us will see you up there smiling back at us.

i dont think i will want to get another frog to replace you. i dont want green green to be lonely. but i am afraid the new frog and green green will not get a long well. and i dont want green green to die of loneliness.

i will remember the way you died in my hands. looking at me with those eyes and using all the last strength you had left to smile at me and open your mouth and had your last breathe before you go. i pray you stayed a little long with me.

i thanks you for waiting for me to had my dinner and talked to you. "greenest.. you are so.. so听话today never any O how jump!" and the last pat i gave you on your head and in return the smile.

when i see the tank it will remind me of what i had forgot i knew.

i will remember how you and i had to play tug-of-wall to make you eat and how i scold you for sitting on green green. how you remind me that time up for spongebob, when i am slacking you will looked at me telling me to move my butt and start working. now when you are gone, there is no one i am going to come home to looking at me when i put my file down. no one to scold... no one to eat with and at the same time watch tv with.

goodbye greenest. amour greenest.

it wasnt really a very bad day but i just dont like what i am feeling.

went to snd today well as you know its the day or should i say the lesson that i love or should i say i would trade anything for that lesson. but.. just but i would want to trade this lesson with my school lesson i even would trade with english or chinese. yes you heard (read) me. i would rather trade for some funny lesson that i would trade that for snd.

well i really hate today!!! i dont mean the whole day just those hours!

well
i dont want to type what happen.. maybe due to the recent chinese paper on the blog thingy.. hmm... maybe
maybe

i have no mood to blog
no mood!!